Moving Toward An Openly Bisexual Identity

[Samuelx]

It seems that these days, I feel like two different people.



Part of me wants to keep my business to myself. Another part wants to shout to the world : "Yeah, I'm friggin bi and loving it !" Recently, I bought BEST OF BOTH WORLDS : BISEXUAL EROTICA by Sage Vivant. I took the train and I read it, holding it so that people could see what I was reading. I want to show the world that big and tall, masculine black men can be openly bisexual and sure of themselves. I can't do this yet. First, I have to get my legal papers and become a U.S. resident. Second, I'll have to get my Criminal Justice degree and a steady job. Only then will I be able to be "out and proud". Unfortunately, I can't wait.


I want to show it off. This Monday night back at school, I sat at the library computer, way in the back, where no one could see me. I checked out some sites. Mainly BBW. Some Bisexual Porn. A big white guy sat next to me. He was looking at Gay porn. I smiled at him. He saw the bisexual porn on my computer and smiled. He introduced himself as Al. He asked me to go outside to talk. I agreed. He was a first-year student. He was bi. He had a girlfriend on campus. And he wanted to have sex with me. I wanted to have sex with him but unfortunately, neither of us had a condom. Yeah, I beat myself over it
when I got home. I wish I had a condom with me. Al described himself as a " great head" and "total bottom".



We could have had so much fun.

Oh, well.

 

[Etoile]

I took the train and I read it, holding it so that people could see what I was reading.

I love doing that with smut mags.

But Samuelx, don't get in trouble for looking at porn on the library computers!

 

[neonflux]

Claim it! (For yourself now, for the world later!)

Hey, it took me a lot longer to get to that place - easier for me in the straight than LGBT communities, since among dyke-identified women there's so much bi-phobia. But then I also think that straight folk within the professional communities that I travel in San Francisco (film/art, public health) feel like they have to be accepting, regardless of their backgrounds or beliefs. How long before you become a U.S. resident? Get your degree? (Yea, with this administration always better to keep quiet.)

BTW, the health educator in me says "thank you" for forgoing a hot steamy encounter sans condom - can't help it - I hope you see that beautiful man again, this time with condom "in hand" so to speak.

P.S., Have you ever read any Samuel R. Delaney? (He's classified as sci fi but utterly transcends that label - along with Octavia Butler is actually the only sci fi author my sister teaches in her survey of american lit class at SUNY Buffalo.)

It seems that these days, I feel like two different people.

Part of me wants to keep my business to myself. Another part wants to shout to the world : "Yeah, I'm friggin bi and loving it !" Recently, I bought BEST OF BOTH WORLDS : BISEXUAL EROTICA by Sage Vivant. I took the train and I read it, holding it so that people could see what I was reading. I want to show the world that big and tall, masculine black men can be openly bisexual and sure of themselves. I can't do this yet. First, I have to get my legal papers and become a U.S. resident. Second, I'll have to get my Criminal Justice degree and a steady job. Only then will I be able to be "out and proud". Unfortunately, I can't wait.

I want to show it off. This Monday night back at school, I sat at the library computer, way in the back, where no one could see me. I checked out some sites. Mainly BBW. Some Bisexual Porn. A big white guy sat next to me. He was looking at Gay porn. I smiled at him. He saw the bisexual porn on my computer and smiled. He introduced himself as Al. He asked me to go outside to talk. I agreed. He was a first-year student. He was bi. He had a girlfriend on campus. And he wanted to have sex with me. I wanted to have sex with him but unfortunately, neither of us had a condom. Yeah, I beat myself over it
when I got home. I wish I had a condom with me. Al described himself as a " great head" and "total bottom".



We could have had so much fun.

Oh, well.

 

[Samuelx]

I don't know why I ever felt scared of being bi. Seriously. When I was a kid, I always wanted to be something different. Some guys daydreamed about being Superman. Others wanted to be G.I. Joe or Rambo. I wanted to be "different". In high school, I was straight-identified and celibate. In college, that changed. I'm glad. It's like wanting to be different during your whole life and suddenly figuring out that you are
different. It's great. All of a sudden, new worlds were opened to me.
These days, I feel like I can do anything. I'm not just talking about being bi.


I do volunteer work for a helpline which helps male victims of domestic violence and I'm the best they've got. The one who never gives up. The one who gets the most results and is most dedicated to the cause.




I've also become a better writer since I discovered that I was bi. Heck, I've got a 374-page collection of short stories featuring mainly bisexual men and women. All I've got to do is find a publisher not too far from Boston.


I feel okay these days.


Many bi guys I've met are fans of Smallville. We like Tom Welling, lol ! Yeah, I hope he winds up with Chloe instead of Lana Lang or Lois Lane. Also, I wish he and Lex would....you know...make peace and sleep together.


I encourage all guys out there who have bi-curious inclinations to safely and discreetly explore their desires. I hope they explore both the emotional side and the sexual side. So many gay and bisexual men only seek sex with men. I like to bond with men. So far, all of my bonds have been with straight men. It's harder to bond with bi or gay men because they're always trying to get in your pants, lol.



I feel comfortable in my skin. I hope the Fates smile upon me always.


Peace/

 

[missedith]

I'm going to be extremely forward here (which I rarely am) and ask... would you mind a pm Samuelx?

 

[Samuelx]

No, I certainly wouldn't mind a PM.

 

[dizzylia]

Heck, I've got a 374-page collection of short stories featuring mainly bisexual men and women. All I've got to do is find a publisher not too far from Boston.

There are hundreds in Boston and the MetroWest area. It's one of the reasons I moved here. I'm not sure how many of them would publish such stories, but there are bound to be a few.

I've found it helpful to browse books similar to the ones I'm working on. Just read the first couple pages and note the publisher and location. Even if the address isn't listed, if it's in the area, you have only to check the phone book or something like DexOnline.

-dizzy

 

[Octavarium]

I love doing that with smut mags.

My wife was reading a Penthouse Forum in my car while we were driving somewhere once last summer. My car has t-tops, and a van pulled up next to us. On the page facing the van, there was a girl, her legs spread, and another girl with her head right in her lover's crotch. The guys in the van called to my wife and asked what she was reading. My wife was masturbating, too... rubbing her crotch through her shorts. She held it up for them and cracked a wicked smile, then licked her finger quickly and put it back where it was, putting pressure on her clit through her shorts. The light went green and I floored it (the car has over 400 HP). Those guys tried hard to catch us, too.

I encourage all guys out there who have bi-curious inclinations to safely and discreetly explore their desires. I hope they explore both the emotional side and the sexual side. So many gay and bisexual men only seek sex with men. I like to bond with men. So far, all of my bonds have been with straight men. It's harder to bond with bi or gay men because they're always trying to get in your pants, lol.

I'll let you know what comes of my first time. I'm meeting a gay couple this Wednesday night who want to bottom me. They've promised to help me push my boundaries, and I specifically asked them to the first time I met with them. It should be very sexy...

-Ock

 

[neonflux]

Wishing you...

A very, very hot time!

I'll let you know what comes of my first time. I'm meeting a gay couple this Wednesday night who want to bottom me. They've promised to help me push my boundaries, and I specifically asked them to the first time I met with them. It should be very sexy...

-Ock