More than just meeting people online

[MorningStar]

It’s rather remarkable how close you can get to someone just by talking to them on here, sharing histories, sharing dreams and growing to love the other individual for who they are. Never mind what they look like nor even how they sound on the phone; the two of you have become close friends; often closer than any other friend you’ve had. In my case, he became a mentor, someone who has helped me through some difficult life attitude changes, assisted me in realizing that I am a worthy individual who could love herself for who she is instead of trying to make herself into what she thought others expected of her. A bond has been forged over time that won’t be broken when either of us leaves this world. For that very fact, I’ve thanked God many times.

Say a prayer for me if you will. My friend was hit by a truck this morning. He was riding his motorcycle to work when the truck pulled into him. They’ve said his hip will have to be replaced and his left elbow is damaged. There weren’t any internal or head injuries that I know of at this point, but his heart went into some reaction. The last I heard they were working on trying to stabilize him. He taught me a long time ago to “Let go and let God” take care of the details. It’s still hard to do. Especially right now while I sit and wait 800 miles from the hospital where he’s at. It’s kinda hard to smile like he’s always telling me to do for him.

Say a little prayer please.

MorningStar

 

[Angelique]

A heartfelt story, MorningStar. My thoughts and prayers are with both you and your friend, with hopes that everything goes well. *hugs*
-Angel

 

[MorningStar]

thank you Angel......being an empath has its ups and downs....your reply was an up......I felt the hug...and I'm sure TP did too.

smile
MS

 

[Dixon Carter Lee]

I hope he's well. Take care.

 

[MorningStar]

May I make a suggestion to anyone that finds true friendship on here.....take the time....no MAKE the time to meet them in person if you can. I didn't.....and now the only way I ever will is when I'm gone from here too.

My friend didn't make it.....we lost him about 11 est....he's free of the limits of this earth and it's boundries now....and I know he's better off than those of us left behind are.....say a prayer for those of us left that have to live through these life's lessons.

smile (damn it's hard to right now)

MS

 

[Dixon Carter Lee]

I'm so sorry MorningStar, truly.

 

[Angelique]

My heart goes out to you, MS. I know there's nothing I could possibly say to make this time any easier for you. You have my deepest sympathies, and of course, you will remain in my thoughts and prayers.

*big hugs* to you, my dear. If there's ever anything I can do for you, my e-mail and Q numbers are in my profile.

-Angel

 

[Dreamer1]

I am so very, very sorry. Please remember the good things you shared. My prayers are with you.

 

[Expertise]

I'll keep a good thought for you Morningstar.

 

[Guest]

I really am so sorry to hear about your friend, Morning Star. Take care of yourself.

 

[Gil]

What a terrible tragedy! I wish you strength and courage in this ordeal, Morningstar.

 

[Shylady]

(((((HHHUGGG))) MS I am so sorry hon. I told you in my email I am hear if you need me.

 

[Handy-Andy]

My heart goes out to you morningstar at this sad time. I know i cannot understand your loss fully but my prayers and thoughts are with you. Be strong .

 

[dusk2dawn]

I am sorry to hear this.
My thoughts and prayers are with you today MS.

 

[Patryn]

I know what it's like to lose someone close. The person I lost never knew what he meant to me, but I feel it's different with you...always be thankful for that. Take care...damn I wish I could say something more.

 

[MorningStar]

The tears don't stop.....I don't expect them to for awhile...there isn't anything much that anyone can say....I thank you for all your prayers for TP's family and friends...Cdog and I have sat here for 3 hrs now, remembering the blessings we have recieved from our loving friend.....we've cried, we've hugged, we laughed at the things we shared with TP....it's still not easy to smile but as soon as I think of him I have to let a little one sneek out cos I know he's here somewhere inside my heart yet.

TP was the living example of a man that knew the spirit never dies. He understood that in release thru the death of the body, he'd have full access to the light and energy that surrounds us all...that positive energy that fills us when we open up and allow it.....I learned more about the truth of life and living with the flow of that positive energy from him in the 10 months I knew him...than I had in my entire 43 yrs on this planet. His was a giving soul that could gently prod you toward your own awakening to your own spiritual path.....He taught me to say thank you when I recieved a compliment, without always trying to negate it instead.....he taught me it was ok to say "I love you" to the special people in my life.....each and every day.....He told me once that if he didn't get at least a dozen hugs a day...he hadn't had his quota for maintance levels.....I sat here this afternoon and realized that at the time he died.....I felt his hug...across my arms and chest...that's when I looked up at the clock and made note of the time....and when I took his floating icq name off my screen....he was here...he let me know I was and still am loved.....he will be here when I need him...just 'talking' to me in a different way from now on...so I'll just have to keep my eyes open to the messages he sends....smile.

I'd like to share something that Greeneyes sent me this afternoon....It helped me to see that the rose in my life that TP stood for, is still blooming on the other side of the wall.

The Rose Beyond The Wall

Near shady wall a rose once grew,
Budded and blossomed in God's free light,
Watered and fed by morning dew,
Shedding its sweetness day and night.
As it grew and blossomed fair and tall,
Slowly rising to loftier height,
It came to a crevice in the wall
Through which there shone a beam of light.
Onward it crept with added strength
With never a thought of fear and pride,
It followed the light through the crevice's length
And unfolded itself on the other side.
The light, the dew, the broadening view
Were found the same as they were before,
And it lost itself in beauties new,
Breathing its fragrance more and more.
Shall claim of death cause us to grieve
And make our courage faint and fall?
Nay! Let us faith and hope receive--
The rose still grows beyond the wall,
Scattering fragrance far and wide
Just as it did in days of yore,
Just as it did on the other side,
Just as it will forevermore.
--A.L. Frink


hugs and kisses baby.....gonna miss you on here TP...gonna miss you every damn day I've got left on this earth

MS

 

[teresafannin]

Sending good thoughts

Dear Morningstar, I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. Please know that I will be keeping you in my thoughts & prayers. I lost the most important person in my life last year, my teenage son, & my 'net friends have been an amazing source of comfort. I don't know if I would have made it this far without them & I am finally meeting soome of them in person. Take care & hold on to the good memories of this special person.I love that poem,thank you so much for sharing it. I will be thinking of you often & sending good thoughts your way.

 

[Wizard]

I'm sorry to hear your news Moringstar and our thoughts are with you.....We are truely sorry for your loss.

 

[Skitten]

Morningstar;

I am truly and deeply sorry for your loss, I know that it hurts so much now. Try to be strong and know that we are all here for you if you need anything. Please don't hesitate to ask. Try to remember the special moments you guys shared and treasure them always God Bless you and take care of yourself. We will pray for you and his loved ones
our hearts and prayers are with you always take care *HUGS*

 

[KillerMuffin]

I'm so sorry Morningstar, losing friends is so hard. You're beautiful with your eloquence and love for your friend. He couldn't ask for a better person to carry on his memory, for someone to think of him from time to time and smile.

 

[~justin]

i don't pray, but.... *offers MorningStar a warm fuzzy*

i know that it doesn't make things any easier *sighs* but just so you know, other people understand *hugs*

 

[Hardwood]

There is so little that can be said at times like these. Because TP touched your life so, I'm goin to make the extra effort to connect and reconnect with my true friends, then maybe his wisdom can in one small way carry on.

 

[Nicole]

It’s rather remarkable how close you can get to someone just by talking to them on here, sharing histories, sharing dreams and growing to love the other individual for who they are. Never mind what they look like nor even how they sound on the phone; the two of you have become close friends; often closer than any other friend you’ve had. In my case, he became a mentor, someone who has helped me through some difficult life attitude changes, assisted me in realizing that I am a worthy individual who could love herself for who she is instead of trying to make herself into what she thought others expected of her. A bond has been forged over time that won’t be broken when either of us leaves this world. For that very fact, I’ve thanked God many times.

Say a prayer for me if you will. My friend was hit by a truck this morning. He was riding his motorcycle to work when the truck pulled into him. They’ve said his hip will have to be replaced and his left elbow is damaged. There weren’t any internal or head injuries that I know of at this point, but his heart went into some reaction. The last I heard they were working on trying to stabilize him. He taught me a long time ago to “Let go and let God” take care of the details. It’s still hard to do. Especially right now while I sit and wait 800 miles from the hospital where he’s at. It’s kinda hard to smile like he’s always telling me to do for him.

Say a little prayer please.

MorningStar

MornignStar you said pray for me, I am praying for you and your friend (and I don't do that often).

I know what you are saying though ... You start out talking to this person that lives a distance away (in my case on the other side of the world). You become friends and talk to each other, then you start to trust this person more than anyone that you talk to daily in real life ... Now weather that's the whole Mystery thing or not I'm not sure, but it happens. Then you start to actually worry about these people, you start to include them in activities, and you constanly worry if they don't show up for a couple of days online.

I am very close to a few people online, one in particular and I watch out for news events from that part of the world, I panic if the State that he lives in is on the news for anything. I am lucky to have his phone number, so if I feel that something is wrong or a miss I can just pick up the phone and call him. And yes we do plan on meeting one day (I just need to get my money in order), and hopefully the friendship will be just as intense then.

I guess what I'm saying (while I ramble on) is that the Internet has brought many people together, some Like Angel and Xander have found their true love on here.

Just because we sit in front of a computer and communicate through it, doesn't mean that we can't feel for the people that we talk to. I understand your pain and I am praying for you.

Good Luck, and my thoughts are with you in your time of need.

 

[MorningStar]

It humbles me to come here and read the posts to my experience.....it lifts my energy when I read these and feel the loving concern my friends and people I've never talked to...have taken the time to reply....the positive thoughts flow...and where they are the energy flows.....I feel that energy and I"m letting it carry me at the moment....thank you....very much.

My husband and I are going to the funeral ....we'll be there later today....to share in the celebration of TP's life. His brother and another very close friend are planning and leading the service...so we all can heal...pray that everyone there today...opens up and feels the love TP had for each of us....this will be a time for us to share our memories and stories....and to take the lessons we've learned and carry them forward like TP did....he's touched so many of us since his death....we've shared some of those fleeting moments over the phone already as we've set our travel plans in motion....we'll continue to share them as he keeps touching our lives and we touch other's lives with love..

thank you one and all....those that have written and those that have read....may my personal tragedy bless you with moments that you stop and act instead of react.....that you flow with the positives in your life and that you forgive the negatives .....that you share your love and let that inner light beam brightly for all to see and be drawn to...for it is in the giving that we do recieve a bountiless gifts in return.....

May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
the wind fall soft upon your back
and my God hold you in the palm of His hand.

hugs and kisses
MS

 

[Nexxus]

A big prayer Morning. I hope your friend is alright and You have a wonderful thread for us soon with good news. Try to be strong, for you and them and remember "Man plans and God laughs" we all have fates and destinys, just let the goodness lead you through.

Nex