Miscarriage

[Angel]

Fuck a troll. Flame me, troll me, fuck yourself I don't fucking care. I am thoroughly disgusted with this fucking board at the moment (because of certain people, not the place, sorry Laurel )



I've lost TWO unborn babies. The first time I was young, yes, only 16. It was the first guy I ever slept with, and it was the only person I have ever REALLY been in love with. I'd been with him since I was 12 and he was 14. Anyway, When I was 5 and a half months pregnant, he was shot in front of me and died in my arms. The doctors said that my body and the baby couldn't handle the shock and the stress and I miscarried my son. He would have been 6 years old on January 12th.


The second was last October, four days after my birthday. I am supposed to be 7 months pregnant right now.


I can honestly say that knowing I was going to be a mother was one of the happiest feelings in the world. I wish every fucking day that I had them both. \

Nothing, NOTHING in the world is worse than KNOWING there is a life growing inside you, thats not only a part of you but someone you love, and that that life is going to someday be standing next to you, it's overwhelming love... And then losing it. Born or unborn.


Imagine that was you, or your girlfriend/wife, happily planning out the next 9 months, the next LIFETIME for your family, and the next laying on a fucking table bleeding and in physical and emotional pain.

Do you think that's amusing? Would you think it was amusing for someone to have fun at the expense of YOUR DEAD CHILD?\


And you don't even have the fucking guts to show yourself. Well you know what, I honestly fucking hope you have the same thing happen to you someday. I really do.

[Edited by Angel on 04-15-2001 at 11:50 PM]

 

[Morgoth]

Oh my god. My pain is like leaves before a storm compared to yours. I mean this dead seriously: If I ever find a person who made fun of you in that way, I will personally find where he lives and give him/her the worst beating they'll ever have. I mean that dead serious. I find people who make fun of a person who endured that much emotional pain disgusting pigs that are worse that thieves and killers for sprinkling vinegar over the wound or cutting it deeper. Trust me, person who said the comment, ever publicly reveal your name/adress and I swear to you, you better buy a fucking gun.

 

[Orlanth]

I am sorry to hear that. I hope I have said nothing to upset you, and if I have, I am deeply sorry and please accept my appolige.

 

[Angel]

Nobody said shit to ME. They said it to Nobody Special and The Wife.



Hiding behind a fucking guest name because they're too afraid to be a disgusting, ugly fucking pig and show their face doing it. Must suck to live your life as immature, chickenshit.

 

[Orlanth]

Oh my god. My pain is like leaves before a storm compared to yours. I mean this dead seriously: If I ever find a person who made fun of you in that way, I will personally find where he lives and give him/her the worst beating they'll ever have. I mean that dead serious. I find people who make fun of a person who endured that much emotional pain disgusting pigs that are worse that thieves and killers for sprinkling vinegar over the wound or cutting it deeper. Trust me, person who said the comment, ever publicly reveal your name/adress and I swear to you, you better buy a fucking gun.

I 2nd that. Tell me who it was and they will be soprry they did say anything to you.

 

[Xander]

I can only say this.
I am behind Everything that Angel said here. And before you all go 'yeah but you're biased" well in this case I am not.

what i ahve seen here tonight is one of the most tasteless, and disgusting things I have ever seen in my life. And those who know me, Knows I've seen quite a lot.

These troll. they are the kind of people that every bad thing in this world is build upon.
I for one, is so outraged by their remarks here.

And to you who take pleasure in using a miscarriage, SOMEONES CHILD for crying out loud.
well if you think youre safe an annominous behind your little computer screens. Think again assholes.

You make me wanna take up my old job again. it would be my fucking pleasure.

 

[Orlanth]

Nobody said shit to ME. They said it to Nobody Special and The Wife.



Hiding behind a fucking guest name because they're too afraid to be a disgusting, ugly fucking pig and show their face doing it. Must suck to live your life as immature, chickenshit.

I see now, I tell ya' what, I'll find the gust who did that, and I swear to god he/she wish they never be born.

 

[Angel]

http://www.literotica.com/forum/showthread.php?threadid=29531



I was spelling out the anguish that I know they feel, because I've gone through it. And I relive it EVERY FUCKING DAY. Trolls are generally no more than a pest, but congratulations, I have finally been offended and hurt. And I'm not even the one being trolled.


Yes, it's just a message board. But this kind of pain runs deep.

 

[Orlanth]

I can only say this.
I am behind Everything that Angel said here. And before you all go 'yeah but you're biased" well in this case I am not.

what i ahve seen here tonight is one of the most tasteless, and disgusting things I have ever seen in my life. And those who know me, Knows I've seen quite a lot.

These troll. they are the kind of people that every bad thing in this world is build upon.
I for one, is so outraged by their remarks here.

And to you who take pleasure in using a miscarriage, SOMEONES CHILD for crying out loud.
well if you think youre safe an annominous behind your little computer screens. Think again assholes.

You make me wanna take up my old job again. it would be my fucking pleasure.

I am with Xander on this.

 

[Morgoth]

Oh, damn. Well, I'll do it to whoever said it to them. God, this just rips me open and tears out my own heart thinking of how many of my relatives died in the concentration camps. I had a big family(grandparents and great-grandparents and the like) and 3/4 were caught and tooken to concentration camps. Not a single one survived. Somebody, in real life, whose fucked up name I do not care to mention, it's sole existence being a blasphemy upon my lips or fingers that plagues my mind, said something extroardinarily cruel about those who died in the Holocaust and even dared to use an article the Nazis had used. I asked him if he was denouncing the Nazis or not, and he told me that he thought the Jews deserved to die and that he supported the Nazis. It still does not bring a smile to my face that he now cannot make love, has a broken nose, ashma, and a few other permanent injuries. I took his comments especially as evil because I am Jewish.

 

[Weevil]

You make me wanna take up my old job again. it would be my fucking pleasure.

All of those on the board with a human heart must agree that anyone who would make light of a tragedy like this is a disturbed, sad individual.

However these threats of violence and statements of pain and outrage , as genuine as I'm sure they are, only give trolls a reason to continue these pointless posts. They seek a rise out of those of us that care about the situation and they are getting one.

Perhaps we should just ignore their cruelty.

 

[Morgoth]

I personally, can't possibly ignore this disgusting peice of shit who said this. This threat of violence is dead serious. If it ever does reveal it's adress, I will fucking give it more fucking injuries than that fucking neo-nazi.

 

[Angel]

I don't really give a shit if I get trolled right now. I made my point. I'm sure everyone realized what it was, and I'm content having vented.

 

[Weevil]

Which solves nothing, doesn't alleviate any of NS and NSW's pain and cannot be a positive thing in any way. Our love should be with the wronged, not hate for the wrong.

 

[Orlanth]

I for one, will not ignore what this troll has said. If I had administrator rights, I could find the IP address of the troll and trace his IP address back to his server, which will then provide me with the trols phone number. Which then will be easy to find the trols home address.

 

[Angel]

Thanks, but I've been talking to NS the whole time, and they both know that my heart and my love are with them right now.


This is a little too close to home, and too much of a fresh pain.




But thanks for your effort to calm it all down. I am calm now.

 

[Weevil]

And what? Beat him up? Make threatening phone calls? How does adding more hate and violence to this world make up for the despicable act they have committed?

Love to all, pity to some.

 

[Morgoth]

Evil: My heart does go out to the wronged, more than the pain that shithead is gonna get if I find out his "secret" identity.

 

[Orlanth]

And what? Beat him up? Make threatening phone calls? How does adding more hate and violence to this world make up for the despicable act they have committed?

Love to all, pity to some.

I will not just sit here and let the pain this troll has cursed go with out punishment. I do not give a damn if I go to jail for murder, I shall not let this trolls continue to say theys things.

 

[Angel]

Dude, thats just a little bit too far... heh.

 

[Weevil]

Evil: My heart does go out to the wronged, more than the pain that shithead is gonna get if I find out his "secret" identity.

This may be a lost cause but I still think that your attitude only gives trolls reason to post and that negative thoughts to anyone doesn't make this situation better. Morgoth, I understand anger and the intense desire for retribution but you have to see that acts of violence, even to people that are uncaring and sad, don't help anyone.

 

[Morgoth]

Seriously, even I think that's too violent. I instead believe that they should feel NS's and NSW's pain, excpet many times more. Murder would prove you're no better than them, plus that your talents are being wasted over a bunch of shits that have no talents other than taunting.

 

[Weevil]

I will not just sit here and let the pain this troll has cursed go with out punishment. I do not give a damn if I go to jail for murder, I shall not let this trolls continue to say theys things.

Fine then. But hate breeds hate, violence breeds violence and none of it makes this awful situation better.

 

[Xander]

Rest asured. the troll will be found.

tis dude choose to piss up the WRONG tree.

 

[Orlanth]

Laural, see the IP: logged link on the bottom right of peoples post? Use this link to find the IP. Then go to UBB Administrator Menu and then ban the IP address of the troll.