Mind if i poke my nose in again?

[entitled]

It's been a while. Hiya.

It's been a LONG while since wearing a collar at all. It's been missed. i finally got my collar out a little while back and put it on to take some requested pictures (which are in my most recent pic thread, at the end). i wasn't supposed to do that.

i wasn't supposed to get it out, or put it on, even less take and post pictures. Nobody was ever supposed to know i even HAD it.

The problem is now i want to wear it constantly. Those few minutes reminded me of what Hubby's and my relationship used to be like. Now it's falling apart, and there's little interest in repairing it. It's tucked away in a drawer again, though, because i want as little trouble as possible at the moment.

On the flip side of that, the person that requested the pictures has told me that he would be more than willing to 'thief' me away and make me his pet. This is a good thing! He and i actually have a lot in common. Our backgrounds are fairly similar despite a ten year age difference and growing up in different areas of the country. He's very strong, both physically and emotionally, which i've been missing lately.

Then there's the thrill of being called pet again. The only other person that did as much is the one that first introduced me to the lifestyle. It hurts - the first one simply disappeared, and it's a reminder - but it made my heart jump. i nearly cried. A VERY rare thing.

i just felt the need to share with a few people that might understand a little more than everybody else.

 

[h_i_s]

It's been a while. Hiya.

It's been a LONG while since wearing a collar at all. It's been missed. i finally got my collar out a little while back and put it on to take some requested pictures (which are in my most recent pic thread, at the end). i wasn't supposed to do that.

i wasn't supposed to get it out, or put it on, even less take and post pictures. Nobody was ever supposed to know i even HAD it.

The problem is now i want to wear it constantly. Those few minutes reminded me of what Hubby's and my relationship used to be like. Now it's falling apart, and there's little interest in repairing it. It's tucked away in a drawer again, though, because i want as little trouble as possible at the moment.

On the flip side of that, the person that requested the pictures has told me that he would be more than willing to 'thief' me away and make me his pet. This is a good thing! He and i actually have a lot in common. Our backgrounds are fairly similar despite a ten year age difference and growing up in different areas of the country. He's very strong, both physically and emotionally, which i've been missing lately.

Then there's the thrill of being called pet again. The only other person that did as much is the one that first introduced me to the lifestyle. It hurts - the first one simply disappeared, and it's a reminder - but it made my heart jump. i nearly cried. A VERY rare thing.

i just felt the need to share with a few people that might understand a little more than everybody else.

Hi.
That has got to be rough. i have imagined at times how i'd feel if my Master/Husband suddenly no longer treated me the same, or if His collar were no longer around my neck (and not the collar itself, so much as the meaning which it represents).

i guess i have never seen you post here, and so, i don't know the 'story' of your relationship with your husband. Either way, i can't offer suggestions as to what you should do or should not do .... other than talk with your husband? Tell him how you are feeling? Share it with him?

Either way, i feel for you. i hope everything works out for the best for both of you, regardless of your choices.

 

[entitled]

Hi.
That has got to be rough. i have imagined at times how i'd feel if my Master/Husband suddenly no longer treated me the same, or if His collar were no longer around my neck (and not the collar itself, so much as the meaning which it represents).

i guess i have never seen you post here, and so, i don't know the 'story' of your relationship with your husband. Either way, i can't offer suggestions as to what you should do or should not do .... other than talk with your husband? Tell him how you are feeling? Share it with him?

Either way, i feel for you. i hope everything works out for the best for both of you, regardless of your choices.

It's been a LONG while since i've posted here. i took a couple years' break from this section of the boards for various reasons with the exception of a little post every now and again.

It's been difficult at best. We've already talked about things. We're going to therapy at my insistance starting this week, but it's highly doubtful it will do any good. It's hard to make a person start trying at a relationship again once they've given up, and it's been a couple of years since he told me not to wear the collar anymore. He recently told me to quit wearing my wedding band as well. It's just not pretty at this point.

i just really needed to share. Now it's out and i feel better.

 

[Guest]

 

[entitled]

I'll collar you babe.

Aww... No wonder i lurves ya!

 

[shy slave]

It's been a LONG while since i've posted here. i took a couple years' break from this section of the boards for various reasons with the exception of a little post every now and again.

It's been difficult at best. We've already talked about things. We're going to therapy at my insistance starting this week, but it's highly doubtful it will do any good. It's hard to make a person start trying at a relationship again once they've given up, and it's been a couple of years since he told me not to wear the collar anymore. He recently told me to quit wearing my wedding band as well. It's just not pretty at this point.

i just really needed to share. Now it's out and i feel better.

Its easy to see your in a difficult place emotionally right now.

I have found Lit is a good place to come and hide, sulk, rant and just forget otherthings that are not quite working elsewhere in our lives.

I can't remember who it was but someone else here tried marriage therapy with a person who was BDSM aware, I think it helped them, so good luck with it.

Take care and enjoy strolling through the threads again, its nice your back, whatever the reason for it

 

[Master Sensei]

It's been a LONG while since i've posted here. i took a couple years' break from this section of the boards for various reasons with the exception of a little post every now and again.

It's been difficult at best. We've already talked about things. We're going to therapy at my insistance starting this week, but it's highly doubtful it will do any good. It's hard to make a person start trying at a relationship again once they've given up, and it's been a couple of years since he told me not to wear the collar anymore. He recently told me to quit wearing my wedding band as well. It's just not pretty at this point.

i just really needed to share. Now it's out and i feel better.

Are there children involved? If not, I wouldn't bother sticking around. As soon as he told you to remove the collar, it was over.

 

[entitled]

Hi shy. i agree that lit is a rather unique place. It's full of people that don't care if a person just rants and raves then never posts again - and they'll even offer advice on what was said. That in itself has been more help than i like to admit. It sure makes life easier.

Sensei - There are children involved. It's fortunate, but at the same time unfortunate. If it hadn't been for them i would have been gone years ago, but they're more important than moving on at this point, and they need both of us.

Steps are being taken to ensure that if and when the split happnes, there will be shared custody. On my terms. i've been at home raising them for the past six years and will be the voice of reason when it comes to them.

 

[h_i_s]

It's been a LONG while since i've posted here. i took a couple years' break from this section of the boards for various reasons with the exception of a little post every now and again.

It's been difficult at best. We've already talked about things. We're going to therapy at my insistance starting this week, but it's highly doubtful it will do any good. It's hard to make a person start trying at a relationship again once they've given up, and it's been a couple of years since he told me not to wear the collar anymore. He recently told me to quit wearing my wedding band as well. It's just not pretty at this point.

i just really needed to share. Now it's out and i feel better.

Ahh, i see .... well, welcome back.

At least you might draw some hope of the possibility that he has not quite given up entirely if he HAS agreed to at least GO for the therapy.

i know it's hard. Been there myself before. It's never easy, and always less than pretty.

Sharing can be a good thing, & i know that getting it out certainly helps. Glad you are feeling a bit better as a result & good luck with the therapy.

 

[graceanne]

*hugs*