Midnight Thoughts

[ArmoredPrincess]

I've always been the self-sufficient type.

I take care of myself, help others when I can and try to avoid accepting help in return. I try to own my own issues, deal with stuff on my own. I keep my private life private. I guess I have a lot of walls. I'm friendly, but I try not to depend on anyone.

Keeping secrets is tiring. Having no one to talk to about intensely personal things becomes lonely. And so, in the middle of the night on a Monday, it starts to feel like a good idea to make an account on the sex site I've been visiting and post personal stuff that's not interesting to anyone but me, for strangers to glance at and read past.

Stuff like, I really wish I didn't have to be in charge all the time. Like, I wish I could trust someone else enough that I'd feel safe dropping my guard, doing what I felt like doing instead of what the voice of reason and self-protection dictated. Like, when you act like you don't need anyone, your bed can become a very lonely place.

So, there's my confession. I know it doesn't mean anything to you, but it makes me feel better to have it out there. And who knows? Maybe one of you understands.

 

[theguyinboxers]

I'm not sure I can exactly relate to what you've expressed, but I do see eye-to-eye with you about getting things out. Humans are social creatures, we need to have an output (talking, writing) just as much as we have an input (listening, looking). So getting things off your chest is not only healthy, but if done in the context of a website such as this, can even be considered fun and exciting. I'd more than love to keep you company tonight. I'm in a very similar position.

 

[desireinyellow]

I totally thought I had made a post and then forgot about it when I read your post. Everything you've said is exactly how I feel all the time.

 

[GenuineGuy]

Maybe fortune will shine upon us both and you will respond to my PM. I haven't felt this kind of connection to someone like this in a while. But it's different, it's more than that... It's fate that brought us both here... I'm looking forward to many long emotional, warm conversations with you.