Mental Illness

[xPassionx]

Wtf?!

So, I just had the rug swept under my feet. My landlord is raising my rest so that it exceeds my subsidy, meaning that I would have to pay %100 of my rest. So, I have a month and a half to find a new apartment that works within my subsidy guidelines.

 

[FurryFury]

That's terrible. Is it legal for the landlord to do that?

So, I just had the rug swept under my feet. My landlord is raising my rest so that it exceeds my subsidy, meaning that I would have to pay %100 of my rest. So, I have a month and a half to find a new apartment that works within my subsidy guidelines.

 

[BeautifulBlueSky218]

I'm diagnosed with Bipolar 2 and I doubt this has anything to do with my kinks and desires towards BDSM. I've known about it ever since I was 19 years old and it's not something I'd like to tell everyone about it. There's some days where I do struggle with it, I try to do everything I can for myself and take care of myself because in my eyes I come first. Nobody else can take care of me but me. Anytime the depression comes, it hits me pretty hard. Anytime the depression comes I usually log offline so I can take care of myself and only a few people closest to me usually know about this unless someone I'm in a relationship asks me and only two of my boyfriend's knew that I was suffering from bipolar because I hate when people pity me.

In the past I remember I used to go to people all the time for help because I didn't know how to handle my mood swings at all. Finally I took a step back from dating and did everything I could to take care of myself. I'm doing a little bit better than before; thought I still struggle with mood swings and crying spells sometimes. I'm happy for a few days and then finally one day the sadness comes and I get deeply depressed. Severe stress causes a lot of my mood swings and crying spells. So many people such as my old friends used to ask me pretty off the wall questions and defined me by my mental illness. If I get into a argument with someone and it's a shouting match: of course I'm going to get upset. We're only human in the end and everyone gets stressed out by yelling afterwards and fighting. Hate being surrounded by negativity in my life and I rather be around people who are understanding and won't take define me by my mental illness. I'm in total self control now of myself and my actions. So what do I do to survive? I write in a journal, keep myself busy and read a lot of books to help me understand this better. Think it's wrong to judge anyone by a mental illness and I'd never judge anyone for having any kind of disorder. I respect people the way they should be and I never put a label on them. Believe it's all about your mind and body and how you chose to learn and grow as a person. We all have bad days and good days. Including the people who have a mental illness. Nobody is perfect in my eyes; not even me. We just need to learn about the illness who have Bipolar or who love someone who has Bipolar. We have to try to look out for the symptoms and when you know you're having mania or first signs of stress.

The moment I'm stressing out a lot. Especially if something upset me; I meditate and sometimes I meditate even twice a day. Lol!

 

[mLa2123000195]

My heart's breaking and I'm cold and alone in a silent room. You're a phone. Fuck you. That's what I think.

 

[mLa2123000195]

I'm diagnosed with Bipolar 2 and I doubt this has

You could be misdiagnosed.

 

[BeautifulBlueSky218]

You could be misdiagnosed.

Yeah probably. Who knows. I just know I get depressed a lot of the time. It's never anger or anything. Just mostly sadness.

 

[JoanneA]

Don't know. Make an appointment.

 

[FurryFury]

Depression can be scary so can the mania. Medication can help but sometimes it's a fine like.

My oldest, also bi polar, was getting depressed recently. The doc put her back on her anti anxiety meds. That caused restless mind and mania.

Off of it she was depressed. I suggested that she try taking the med every other day. Seems to be working so far. It's a small amount but just little things can fuck it all up it seems. Things like drinking (even just a sip) or having caffeine can totally throw her whole chemistry out of whack.

*hugs*

Yeah probably. Who knows. I just know I get depressed a lot of the time. It's never anger or anything. Just mostly sadness.

Ouch. *hugs*

My heart's breaking and I'm cold and alone in a silent room. You're a phone. Fuck you. That's what I think.

 

[JoanneA]

Hey, I've got the heat on now.

 

[FurryFury]

Yay for heat!

Hey, I've got the heat on now.

 

[JoanneA]

What an interesting choice of words

Off of it she was depressed. I suggested that she try taking the med every other day. Seems to be working so far. It's a small amount but just little things can fuck it all up it seems.

That seems unusual. Of course, I'm not fantasizing that I'm a psychiatrist.

 

[FurryFury]

No idea if it's unusual or not but for now it's working.

I've felt beaten and depressed not to mention terrified since November 8th. As always I am trying to make the best of things.

That seems unusual. Of course, I'm not fantasizing that I'm a psychiatrist.

 

[BiBunny]

Uh, yeah, so I've been gone a minute.

I kinda cracked under the weight of my own crazy back in October. Doctor put me on Abilify, which has made me feel better than anything else ever has. But--and of course there's a "but"--it's also given me akathisia.

Anybody have any experience with this? Mine's a mild case, but it's still about to run me crazy here. I don't want to go off the Abilify because it's helping me so much, but I can only pace so much and for so long. So if anybody's got any insight, that'd be fabulous. Thanks!

 

[JoanneA]

dee-cowl-siff-eh-cay-shun

weight of my own crazy back in October. Doctor put me on

I got a second opinion from a psychiatrist in St. Louis when this was still new to the market. They use it off-label for treating cocaine dependency; you just need to cook up a batch for your cramps and it'll straighten you right the fuck out again.

 

[MeekMe]

Uh, yeah, so I've been gone a minute.

I kinda cracked under the weight of my own crazy back in October. Doctor put me on Abilify, which has made me feel better than anything else ever has. But--and of course there's a "but"--it's also given me akathisia.

Anybody have any experience with this? Mine's a mild case, but it's still about to run me crazy here. I don't want to go off the Abilify because it's helping me so much, but I can only pace so much and for so long. So if anybody's got any insight, that'd be fabulous. Thanks!

Welcome back, it's good to see you.

Akathisia seems to be something I have lived with for a long time. ;; I fidget and seem to be restless a lot, though I think it's more RLS than actual akathisia? It's like a burning sensation that is only calm when moving so I wring my hands, bounce my legs if siting, move my feet a lot while standing and find that standing still for any period of time makes me uncomfortable. Something that tends to help at least when I need to sleep is to focus heavily on my breathing. That probably won't be so helpful for you though.

I read somewhere that some supplements can help with restlessness, but I would seriously talk to my doctor before trying to self medicate while taking prescription drugs.

 

[BiBunny]

Welcome back, it's good to see you.

Akathisia seems to be something I have lived with for a long time. ;; I fidget and seem to be restless a lot, though I think it's more RLS than actual akathisia? It's like a burning sensation that is only calm when moving so I wring my hands, bounce my legs if siting, move my feet a lot while standing and find that standing still for any period of time makes me uncomfortable. Something that tends to help at least when I need to sleep is to focus heavily on my breathing. That probably won't be so helpful for you though.

I read somewhere that some supplements can help with restlessness, but I would seriously talk to my doctor before trying to self medicate while taking prescription drugs.

Yep, I have relatively mild RLS outside of the akathisia, too. They're distinct but similar sensations.

I didn't put it in my first post, but I do plan on calling the doctor tomorrow. I don't remember it being this bad as I was titrating up, so I'm thinking I'll ask if she can reduce my dose back down to the lowest one and see what happens.

I probably worded the post funny, but I wasn't looking to self-medicate, I promise.

 

[MeekMe]

Yep, I have relatively mild RLS outside of the akathisia, too. They're distinct but similar sensations.

I didn't put it in my first post, but I do plan on calling the doctor tomorrow. I don't remember it being this bad as I was titrating up, so I'm thinking I'll ask if she can reduce my dose back down to the lowest one and see what happens.

I probably worded the post funny, but I wasn't looking to self-medicate, I promise.

I wasn't implying you were, I just thought it deserved a warning. I've been known to do some unhealthy self medicating. I hope the reduced dose helps.

 

[BiBunny]

I wasn't implying you were, I just thought it deserved a warning. I've been known to do some unhealthy self medicating. I hope the reduced dose helps.

My bad! Sorry, my reading comprehension's not great at the moment.

And thank you, I hope it does, too.

 

[midwestyankee]

Yep, I have relatively mild RLS outside of the akathisia, too. They're distinct but similar sensations.

I didn't put it in my first post, but I do plan on calling the doctor tomorrow. I don't remember it being this bad as I was titrating up, so I'm thinking I'll ask if she can reduce my dose back down to the lowest one and see what happens.

I probably worded the post funny, but I wasn't looking to self-medicate, I promise.

Hey, there, it's good to see you back in the neighborhood - though I wish it were for more pleasant reasons. I hope your doc can help mitigate this condition. I have dealt with RLS for much of my adult life and it's maddening on top of the discomfort. Is there any chance you could score a treadmill desk out of this somehow? You could walk while working on your laptop and if the need to be in motion is manageable, you might be able to still get some work done.

Do let us know how this goes,ok?

Treadmill desk (Walmart)

 

[BiBunny]

Hey, there, it's good to see you back in the neighborhood - though I wish it were for more pleasant reasons. I hope your doc can help mitigate this condition. I have dealt with RLS for much of my adult life and it's maddening on top of the discomfort. Is there any chance you could score a treadmill desk out of this somehow? You could walk while working on your laptop and if the need to be in motion is manageable, you might be able to still get some work done.

Do let us know how this goes,ok?

Treadmill desk (Walmart)

Oh. My. God.

I can't believe this actually exists.

I've always imagined something like a desk you sit at with the bottom of a stationary bike so you can pedal while you work, but this is even better.

NEED.

 

[midwestyankee]

Oh. My. God.

I can't believe this actually exists.

I've always imagined something like a desk you sit at with the bottom of a stationary bike so you can pedal while you work, but this is even better.

NEED.

The Exec-usizer, precursor to the treadmill desk.

 

[Curious_in_Cali]

Something to consider when trying to answer side effects to long term medications is to get tested for nutrient deficiencies. Meds can often solve bigger issues by disrupting the way our body wants to function so it uses or can misuse or overuse certain resources, which include nutrients that rely on good nutrition that suit the demand of the drugs. The demand for nutrients can maybe sometimes not be met with a viable or sustainable diet shift, which can make nutrient supplements a great companion to these medications, but they are often over looked. I think I read someplace that the class of drugs that Abilify belongs to can contribute to B (I think B6?) vitamin deficiency. It can't hurt to ask, and it might help.

If your doc can't order nutrient testing, there are great online labs that you can use to get tested without a doctors order. Maybe try that and bring the results to your doc for a discussion about the results and appropriate supplements.

I'm a big believer in food being a powerful medicine and know very few of us truly feed ourselves completely through diet alone regardless of our current state of health. Illness is a marathon on the parts of the body it effects, so sometimes those goup packets can help get you back in the race.

Just a thought.

 

[JoanneA]

If your doc can't order nutrient testing, there are great online labs that you can use to get tested without a doctors order.

The bat flies into your window, reads the order and just starts sucking; you get what you pay for. I had a complaint about too much blood being taken, and it turns out the "messenger" was taking a little off the top! The multi I take is supposed to be for sports (B+).

 

[Curious_in_Cali]

The bat flies into your window, reads the order and just starts sucking; you get what you pay for. I had a complaint about too much blood being taken, and it turns out the "messenger" was taking a little off the top! The multi I take is supposed to be for sports (B+).

I still think that all phlebotomists should always dress like vampires. I would certainly bat my eyes at any that would.

Not all supplements are the same for absorbtion and such. Consider consulting your doctor or nutritionist for advice on such things. I'm a fan of having the help of a holistic minded MD that really understands the food meds well to discuss your diet in more detail to see what shifts there you can make as well.

And maybe... Eat some iron rich steak, and consider installing some night shutters?

 

[JoanneA]

I still think that all phlebotomists should always dress like vampires.

It's a stereotype I admit. One accidentally went straight for my neck one time and I was like: "sure you don't want to try an IV?" Fired that fucker. *pockets clinking*