Love Swing?

[Guest]

How many girls from Chicago do I know. Looks like it is just you lol I have to admit Kaos will enter the fantasy too. Hope you dont mind.

So when do you see Chris? Are you already wet for him? If you try anal let us know. Hell just let us know how it was anyway.

Tania, from the bottom of my heart, I am glad we met and are friends. That is more important to me than anything else.

Mind? I feel honored to be in the same fantasy as Kaos! I just hope that I get to show her how much I appreciate her in your fantasy, lol.

I usually meet up with Chris around 5 in the afternoon. Give or take a few hours. We don't have any real plans for today though... just to be together. I'm in a nice lazy mood anyhow. Probably lay around on the couch and watch TV. Or maybe I'll make him take me shopping. I've got $80 to spend and we haven't gone on a spending spree in a while, lol. Maybe we should buy some flavored body paint and lingerie or something... hmm...

I'm glad we met as well... gives me something to do in between writing my Ernest Hemingway analysis . You like Hemingway? I don't really... his writing style just seems trite to me. Long and drawn out and boring as all hell. I pity you if you have read "A Farewell to Arms", lol.

 

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[kaoskytton]

~cracks neck and shoulders~ How you guys been? Man, it's like I've been asleep for days. Couldn't access lit for a while, but I'm back...

miss me?

Tania, read Dumas. Alexander Dumas. Writes "The Count of Monte Cristo." You're my little Haydee.

 

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[kaoskytton]

Tania, I'm not going to be able to take those pics for you today that I promised. Faire got cancelled. I'll have to think dirty thoughts of you in the comfort of my own home.

 

[Guest]

::excited/happy dance:: KAOS!!!! How I have mourned your absence, lol. Don't fret over the pics... just knowing that you are in this world is enough of a pleasure for me .

 

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[kaoskytton]

PIPPIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the FUCK are you doing?!!!! Ooo...I am so gonna tie you to a cross and leave you desperately horning in a field in the pouring rain...

Would you still rise in three days?

I feel the need to clarify. Pippin is the four and final part of darkness. I wasn't alone in my friendship with Logan. It was Logan, Joey, Pippin, and me. Pippin has remained my faithful friend and eager bedfellow for what...eight years, now? I don't think many people on this earth know me better than he does.

Pippin is telling the beautiful and heartwarming story of the day we met. Pippin, Errol (Logan) and Joey (Logan) found me when I was 16 years old, in an abusive relationship. The three of them, are solely responsible for the transition into the confident and powerful creature you all know and love.

And a huge part of my soul will remain theirs for all time, as their signatures are inscribed upon it. Pippin, that's one of the most beautiful stories you've ever told about me. If I didn't know you better, I'd imagine you were trying to see me naked again.

 

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[kaoskytton]

You know, I'm gonna post a shot of my own personal savior...

This is Pippin, in all his seductive glory. Makes me wish I was a catholic school girl...

 

[Guest]

If I didn't know you better, I'd imagine you were trying to see me naked again.

That seems to be a common goal around here, LoL.

 

[kaoskytton]

Pippin, as always, I'm just doing what I can to populate your bedroom.

 

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God, I'm so upset and disgusted right now.

Chris [2:30 PM]: What are you puzzled about ?
Tania [2:30 PM]: Nothing at all.
Tania [2:30 PM]: I'm just watching you try to explain why you're not coming over.
Chris [2:31 PM]: If I come over you will be up too late and that is not good when you are not feeling good
Tania [2:31 PM]: I don't want you to come over today.
Chris [2:31 PM]: Plus you have finals this week
Tania [2:31 PM]: There. You are free.
Chris [2:31 PM]: Don't be like that


I can't depend on him for a fucking thing.

 

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It wouldn't be so bad but it has nothing to do with him worrying about my well being. He's just a selfish asshole. The first thing he said to me was, "I feel lazy today." Which means he just didn't think I was worth the hour long fucking drive. ::crying::

 

[kaoskytton]

~cradles Tania~ Honey, I'm so sorry. That's inexcusable.

Well, we'll both stay home and play today. I don't feel so bad about not taking those pics for you, now.

I wish I could tell you that I believe in these things...but I don't, and I don't because I've done it again and again, and here I am, alone.

 

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I'm tired of this crap. And after you (Kaos) have been opening up my eyes and making me see opportunities and want things that I haven't for so long... I just feel like everything with Chris is a great joke anyhow. I'm not going to see him next weekend either. I just want to slit my wrists I'm so angry and frustrated. Maybe I should just turn around and walk away from it all.

 

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[kaoskytton]

~sigh~ Tania, I don't want to be poison for your relationship, although tempting people over to the dark side seems to be my talent.

It depends on what you're looking for in life. I think someone trying to do the whole 2-3 kids thing had better find someone to swing with or settle for contemporary romance. It doesn't work for me, and it feels like my heart dies a little each time I try. I don't believe in relationships because it hurts. It hurts so fucking much and there's no real gain from it. Why? Why turn a perfectly good friendship into something that will eventually hurt you and the person you care about most? That's bad friend management.

But that's me. I wish you were here, we'd go out for coffee and talk all day, Tania. I feel so close to you from all our conversations. I wish I could be there for you. No sex, no games, just friends.

 

[kaoskytton]

She's not going to slit her wrists. She's not that type of person.

But she feels fatalistic because something around her is dying and she feels surrounded by death. It's just a reference to the overall tone.

Yeah, it sucks, Tania...I can't lie to you, it really sucks. But, either it'll get better or you can walk away. And I'm a pretty long walk. Just last week you really loved him...is this a recurring thing and you just get your hopes up to get them smashed, or are you just angry?

 

[Guest]

Sorry for my crazed outburst...

It's just like that thing we talked about earlier. How when you are anticipating the sexual action and you expect it and then it gets ripped away from you. I'm just so frustrated right now that it hurts. Going to go take a hot bath and calm down. ((hugs)) I love both of you though... didn't mean to go crazy like that, lol. Will be back in an hour or so...

 

[Guest]

Just last week you really loved him...is this a recurring thing and you just get your hopes up to get them smashed, or are you just angry?

I'm just completely livid. Sometimes he's so selfish and dense that it just amazes the fuck out of me... And, yes, I am tired of planning on things and then having him smash them to little bits. I love him but I'm sick of getting my feelings hurt. I just need to space myself away from him for a while or I'll kill him.

Overall I'm just disappointed. Again.