Life

[Nicole]

Pretty well sucks right now.

Is it really worth living? Besides my son, what reasons do I have?

Is it worth all the crap? Is it truly really worth it?

I'm sorry I just must be going through a really horrible spell right now, I just don't know if any of this is worth it anymore.

Thanks for letting me get this out somewhere.

 

[bluntforcemama]

Chin up, hon... we all have our moments. It will be okay soon enough, and you'll forget all about your down spells. And if you're thinking bad thoughts, think of what life will be like for your son without you.

 

[Todd]

Nicole, If you leave who will I have to grope

hope back on AIM, I had a black out last time no power for 4 hours.

 

[Jade]

but... but...


Nicole you poor thing!

Number one cure, I promise... go WORK OUT!
I know you aren't out of shape or anything but seriously... just do something that breaks a sweat for like 20 min... studies consistently show how much of a difference this makes.

Otherwise... um two words for you... got chocolate?

*smile*



((Nicole)) <<<< I know how hokey this post-hugging business is but for whatever it's worth.. I really meant it.

 

[cherrypop]

((((((((Huggggss))))))))) Whatever it is..it will get better. I'm with Myst on this one..I bet your son doesn't want you going anywhere!

 

[p_p_man]

I sometimes think that life is just not worth dying for...

 

[Starfish]

I sometimes think that life is just not worth dying for...

That is a really good way to put it!

Hugs Nicole, I hope that something can bring round a smile on your face.

Mabey you need a good dose of Gnufi? It helps me when I am down... {{{{{{{{{{Nicole}}}}}}}}}}}

 

[naudiz]

When I get down, I tell myself:

Even when life sucks, it beats the alternative.

 

[Nicole]

Thank-you for caring

I just did the best thing possible, I went and picked my son up from Kindy, he looked at me and smiled, then out of nowhere he hugged me bigger than he's ever hugged me before ... like he sensed that something was wrong.

Jade Thanks, I also just bought an icecream with him (although it's cold in Adelaide) and we both had double chocolate, and yes that helped, or maybe it was the fact that we laughed together. He's only five but I tell ya, he works wonders.

Thanks so much for caring about me, although some of you have never spoken to me personally, you have taken the time to either post here or write me, and that makes me feel better than any of you will ever know. Thank-you all.

I won't say what my problems are, their mine, I don't want to dump them on all of you wonderful people, and I have a wonderful man in my life that tries to help me, but sometimes it's hard for him to even understand, so any of you that thought he was the problem, he isn't.

Thank-you all

It'll pass before you know it, I'm sure, but when I do get down from now on, I know that I have a gorgeous, loving little boy here that needs his Mummy ... I just hope he knows his Mummy needs him too.

 

[April]

I know you said you feel better, but if you want to talk, I'm on AIM right now. Just sittin' here watching my download speed. Boring.

Hey!! I got over 5 k's a second! Bitchen! LOL

neoapril on AIM

 

[Roll-One]

Nicole Honey

Life is a wonderful gift we should cherish. Everyone has their ups and downs, thats apart of life itself.

Sometimes people get to feeling the way you feel right now, "Is it just plain worth it?".... My answer to that is..... Hell Yeah, its more than worth it, not only for yourself, but for the wonderful son you have brought into this world. The love and happiness you two share together is worth all the "crap" you have to deal with.

I don't know exactly whats bothering you, and i'm very sad that you feel this way. You are a very kind and loving and wonderful person, i hope you really think about what you have posted here.

You know that i'm always here for you or anyone else that needs a shoulder to cry on, or just needs someone to talk to. Hey, i'm a great listener ya know.

Smile Nicole, and i will smile with you.

{{{{{{Nicole}}}}}}}}}

 

[Weird Harold]

Is it really worth living? Besides my son, what reasons do I have?

You have to hang in there for at least another 20 years because there is absolutely nothing better than a hug for grandma.

 

[SouthernSiren]

doesn't it suck when everythings shitty?i'm sending good vibes to you.i always think when something shitty happens it could always be worse because unless you like lose all your limbs and are drooling somewhere on a hospital bed it could get worse.that helps me.it can't stay bad forever!

 

[MysteryJKR]

Nicole! your one of the few who havent ignored me!
You best not go anywhere. Your wanted all over.

Ive been through those life sux i might as well be dead moods on many occasions and im only 18.

Open your arms and let the entire forum give you a huge cyber hug.

 

[Kuddles]

((((((((((Nicole))))))))))))))))))

Warm hugs dear....

I know how you feel life does have it's way of sucking from time to time...and I know I have had my days where I wasn't sure I wanted to continue...but...somehow I have...and I am learning that I am worth fighting for...

You have a son and for now that may be what you need to focus on right now...whatever it takes to help you get through one day at a time until you can see daylight and when the darkness comes again...fight...it's worth it and we love you! You NICOLE are worth fighting for and your son...no one else...look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you are WORTH IT!! We think you are...

I know you don't know me and maybe you will remember me as the name I use to post under "forgetunome" and then again maybe you won't after all the name says it all! LOL!

Hang in there kiddo we're rooting for ya'!!

[Edited by DrEaMwEaVeR GaL on 03-20-2001 at 11:03 PM]

 

[Ravenloft]

They float! They ALL float!

And when your down here... YOU'LL FLOAT TOO!!!

 

[Ravenloft]

...Beep, beep Richy.

 

[Nicole]

Just to let you all know

I have spent a wonderful evening with my beautiful lil man, we have played Nintendo 64 (which he just got) and we have laughed and laughed.

For the first time today I haven't felt alone, and I think that's what most of the problem was. He has been kissing and hugging me all evening, and I have felt so very loved and needed.

Harold, you gotta know that as much as what you said makes me cringe (Not sure I really want to think of my son growing up and having kids of his own), it makes so much sense, Thanks.

SouthernSiren, Thank-you, I know you have only just come to the BB but you took the time to say some wonderful words to someone that you don't have any clue about. Thanks for caring

Roll One and April, you two are both wonderful people that have already helped me without realising it, please never change. Thanks for the offers, but I went offline and spent time with the lil one, the best therapy for me.

Mystery, I could never ignore you, you make me smile, and I kinda need that just now. Thanks for letting me know that your thinking of me. Huge Cyber hug eh? With this lot will I be able to breath afterwards

Dreamweavewrgal, WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN???????? God I could have used your sense of humour, I have missed you so very much. Thanks babe for caring and thanks for letting me know who you are. I know I'm worth it, I just have times when I'm not sure anymore, and it's those times that I try not to face too often, just sometimes they do attack me, and I never know what to do when I'm there. My son got me out of it this time, but it's been a few days that I allowed it to over take me. Gotta learn the best form of control for me I guess.

Ravenloft ... Umm Thanks. Not sure I fully understand but thanks

I'm off again to go play some more Mario, that guy makes anyone laugh ... or at least the way we control him does.

Thank-you

 

[Handy-Andy]

(((((Nicole)))))

I'm glad ya feelin better , kicking ass on a computer game help's , or as Monty Python would say .

"Always look on the bright side of life"

Big hug's @ ya Babe if ever need owt just call

 

[Flagg]

Original correspondence of an electronic nature is situated in the reciprical of said notations.

(That is the closest I will ever come to saying "You've got mail")

 

[teresafannin]

Hi Nicole, I am glad your little guy put a smile on your face. You know where I am & that you are always in my thoughts. Don't ever feel that you have no one to talk to, I'm not at this BB much anymore, but I am on line every night & I have 2 really good ears, ICQ & access to a chat room at a friend's site. Keep in touch, Love, Teresa

 

[Ally C]

Is it worth all the crap? Is it truly really worth it?

All of the 'crap' is relative. Depends on how much value you assign it. Life is worth living, death probably isn't worth dying for. Live long and prosper, as the saying goes.

 

[FlamingoBlue]

You know what they say, don't you???

Life is like a matza ball without chicken soup, It sometimes needs some thing else in it to make it real good.

Life itself is the privelege to do something. To paint your own picture and to write your own story.

I am at a very introspective time in my life, trying to see which direction to go. I am experiencing a lot of anxiety, but I am holding on and getting help from a therapist.

And I suppossedly have it all and I'm still semi-fucked. So, feel the way you do but remember why your are where you are, and learn from it, or not. Your choice! No one but you holds the key to your own growth and self-esteem, but you. Simple as that.


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[Edited by FlamingoBlue on 03-21-2001 at 05:32 AM]

 

[Ally C]

Re: You know what they say, don't you???

No one but you holds the key to your own growth and self-esteem.

The key is to hold your own key. But remember people who live in glass houses should wear clothes. Failing this, use a piece of string and wear your key around your neck so you know where it is. If you go with the clothed option, you can wear your heart on your sleeve and keep your key in your pocket. Also, living in a glass house might well aid 'growth', although I'm doubtful as to whether any valuable contribution to 'self-esteem' would be made.

 

[FlamingoBlue]

Ally. Could you translate what you....

said int simpler terms so iI a sure that I really understand you. Thanks

blue

BTW, I went back and corrected my post.