Life is going Grand, yet I'm feeling dead inside

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[Domesticity]

If you have been functioning in a state of chaos for some time being in a stable situation can make you feel almost dead it's so boring. As a result, it isn't uncommon for people who are used to chaos to fuck up a good thing just to get some of that chaos back. I would recommend sitting on it for a day or two before you make any big decisions--this includes emailing your boss or landlord or some other person who can upend your life. Also, you might consider some counseling. It's nice to have someone to bounce things off of who is well trained and won't give you shitty advice that can mess things up for you. Congrats on your new situation. Even if things don't go exactly as planned, mistakes are opportunities to learn, so don't stress so much about not messing up that you end up spazzing out and messing up everything!

 

[Debbie]

Positive affirmations maybe?

Pet therapy is marvelous too even if it's just to pop to your local pet shelter and ask if you can help for a half hour a week to walk the dogs, socialize the anmals etc.

If you've been so busy maybe you're a bit run down energy wise too.

I drink a homemade concoction of grated fresh ginger, a little roasted garlic, (mashed to a paste - that way it's not too strong ) apple cider vinegar, manuka honey and lemon juice in a lovely hot cup of water whenever I need it.

Congratulate yourself on working so hard and achieving a lot in a short time.

Good luck to you.

 

[Lancecastor]

The answers in your post..."Dont ask what i did"

There's no free lunch, dude.

 

[dolf]

If you're running away from a man eating bear, you won't notice your twisted ankle. Once you get to safety, have time to breathe, you'll notice that it really fucking hurts.
Life can be a bit like that. You've got safety to realise just how fried you are.

Counselling is awesome. Like physio for the mind.

 

[4est_4est_Gump]

Everything is peachy keen. I am starting culinary school, I will be completing my paid internship in 3 weeks and I just feel really down internally. I have done a lot to get where I'm at, but I just feel like I'm running at 10% of my usual 110%. I started a great story as a request for another user, but I just haven't had the energy to finish it because my life got very complicated and busy really fast. I'm 25, and up until February of this year, I was without stable housing, no real employment and no hope. I managed to get a year's worth of rent paid for a studio apartment, money for culinary school, and everything I need to succeed. Don't ask how, those are details I'd rather not disclose. I'm not used to living a normal life and I'm worried that I'll just tear down everything I've built up. I had to go through hell and back to get where I'm at today, but a sick part of me says I dont deserve this new wonderful future. Any insight from anyone who has been through a situation like mine and succeeded at not being self destructive???

You want to PM Wat_Tyler or talk to him in his thread (TSCLT3.0 The Beast) about depression.

 

[Rightguide]

Life is full of ups and downs, you're cycling into and out of one circumstance after another. Unexpectedly you've been handed an opportunity to put meaning into your life through your own hard work. So snap out of your shit and take advantage of this opportunity to better your life. "Deserve" has nothing to do with it.

 

[Christobal]

The places you have been are comfortable. Accepting you are getting better is hard. I get that.

So strange.

 

[Domesticity]

The answers in your post..."Dont ask what i did"

There's no free lunch, dude.

This too.

 

[Hard_Rom]

You're only 25. Not that many folk are stable at such a young age. You have a place, work and a future plan. Can't really ask for much more at such an age. You might have a high brow university degree that won't get you work and huge debt from student loans. What you did for the money is irrelevant. Lots of strippers and escorts made good using large cash amounts they earned. Even a few drug dealers. If feeling guilty about how you made money, volunteer at a place that works for those who are caught in wrong lifestyle with no plan to get out.

Sounds like you're doing pretty good actually. Don't get all dramatic about it or bottle it up inside either.

 

[LadyVer]

Wishing you the best. Sometimes, these kinds of feelings are ways our brain is trying to tell us something. In the meantime, try not to make rash decisions and keep a routine. Don't beat youself up. Look for humor.