BongoGal
Compartmentalizing
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He hid his wanking, I just happened to walk in on him a couple of times. And of course I had to wash the crusty diapers he shoved under the bed when he was finished.
His problem? Well he's got a few. They're pretty big, and have nothing to do with me, so I'm learning to let go of feeling like it was my fault.
After we were separated he did tell me this: early in our marriage I shared with him that I had been exposed to porn in my youth and because of that, I couldn't reach orgasm without fantasizing about things that would be considered taboo by our friends and family. It was a confession, and I needed his love and support. What he told me later was that he was so grossed out by the thought that he couldn't have sex with me anymore. True or not, getting him to fuck me was like pulling teeth.
In the 4 1/2 years we've been apart, he's not shown any interest in dating, or in women in general (and no, he's not gay). I've come to the conclusion that he has a very low sex drive, related in part to some of his other issues.
It was horribly discouraging during our marriage, but now I know it's not my fault, and some lucky guy is going to get it good when I get my hands on him.![]()
I have a bunch of questions, but one stands out: why into a diaper?