Scuttle Buttin'
Demons at bay
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There's no ghosts in the graveyard
That's not where they live
They float in between us
'What is' and 'what if'
That's not where they live
They float in between us
'What is' and 'what if'
He didn't cry anymore, and that was worse.
Humans had the ability to adapt to almost anything, given enough time, and it was both blessing and curse. Somethings shouldn't be adapted to; or, at least, some people didn't want to adapt to them. When the pain felt raw and near, when the wound was fresh and the blood still wet, it felt right in a world that had gone all wrong. She was gone, and that wasn't right, but you were meant to suffer when someone was taken from you. The gaping maw of eternity staring at him where she used to be was meant to hurt. But humans adapted, and despite not feeling terribly close to it anymore he was still human to the core. His mind did what minds do, and he adapted.
The rawness subsided, the wound scabbed over, and he wanted to pick at it. Make it bleed. Healing felt like a dishonor to her memory, a shameful betrayal of what she meant to him. The passage of time was undeterred, entirely unconcerned with his wishes, and marched on anyway. Eventually, the pain settled into numbness. The days blurred together, and eventually the weeks joined them. The months were close behind, time slipping through his fingers like grains of sand, and he couldn't be bothered to care. He was empty, and numb to it, drifting through life like a boat broken from it's moorings and left to the whims of wind and wave.
It was while in this fog that the first girl showed up at his door. He was not even sure he'd heard the chime of the doorbell at first, so foreign had the sound become to him. The visitors had been few and far between in recent years, the people checking up on him doing so with more time stretching between trips to his doorstep; more than that, though, was the fact that his property was gated, and anyone coming to his door would've had to buzz at the gate to be allowed in before they were even close enough to ring the doorbell. Assuming the gate had been closed last time he'd gone through it. When was that? Days ago? Weeks? He couldn't remember if the gate was even still there that long ago. Lost in the thought of this line of questioning himself, the doorbell chimed again and pulled him out of it, an insistent reminder that whether he had closed it or not was irrelevant when someone was clearly at the door.
Or he was finally, fully losing it.
Whatever he may have expected when he opened the door, though truly little consideration was given to whoever may be on the other side of the heavy slab of oak and iron, he never would've guessed the woman he found waiting for him. She was shorter than him - most were - her hair and skin clearly displaying colors not natural to them. He was surprised by the appearance of a woman half his age that he didn't recognize on his on the other side of his door, but it was another moment before the surprise of her attractiveness past through him as well. Except... that wasn't quite true either, was it? Fake hair color and fake tan, yes, but as he appraised her there in his doorway he realized her tits, large for her small frame, likely were as well. And her nails, he saw, as she looked from his face down to her phone, the rapid click click click of her fingers moving over the screen filling him with the sudden, fierce urge to slap the device from her hands. It seemed to be the strongest emotion he'd felt in some time. Had he been more aware of himself, the silence that sat between them for so long after he opened the door to find her there would've been awkward; if the girl found it to be, however, she gave no indication in the way she took her time in breaking it.
"Thomas?" she asked at last, glancing up to his face from the glowing screen and then back again, "Thomas... Lord? Is your name really Lord?"
Her eyes were on him again, brows raised, and slowly he was realizing that much of her attractiveness was an illusion. The longer he looked at her, the more she was examined, the more obvious the illusion became. The makeup on her face was thickly applied; her lashes were as fake as her hair and skin color, her tits, her nails; her skin was starting to show the signs of too much time spent in tanning beds and laying out in the sun; he suspected that there was a bit of botox hanging out in her face, too, which she seemed much too young for. To her credit, she did seem to keep herself in nice shape. The dress she wore was a pink so bright that he may not have needed a light on to be able to see her, and the way it hugged her body made it clear that there was barely a molecule of space between the fabric and her body.
None of it explained what she was doing there.
"Who are you?" he asked, his eyes on her face again, though he'd made no effort to hide the journey of his eyes as he appraised her.
"Are you Thomas Lord?" she asked again, her curiosity at his name evaporating to be replaced by... boredom? It suddenly felt like she was used to asking this question, and he found himself growing curious.
"I am," he answered after a moment, "And you have thirty seconds to tell me who you are and why you're here."
"I'm Kelly," she said, with a smile as fake as the name she'd just given him, "And I'm..."
She paused, her smile fading like fruit rotting on the vine, as she looked back down to her phone, thumb swiping quickly. The white glow illuminated her face, her neck, her cleavage, and he scolded himself silently for the way his gaze flickered down to her breasts.
"Ah," she said finally, and looked from the phone, the fake smile springing back as if it had never left. "I'm Kelly," she began again, a lie just as much the same time as it was the first, "And I'm here because a friend of yours thought you needed someone to take care of you."
Until she glanced down from his face to the rest of him, he'd not spent a moment considering how he might look right then. That all changed in a rush, and he frowned in irritation as he felt the hot rush of embarrassment surge through his chest. As if he should be embarrassed what this woman with her fake tan and fake tits thought of him.
Thomas Lord - actually his real name, unlike the girl in front of him - was 46, and despite the bog of depression he'd been living in he still wore the years well. He was tall, nearly 6'3", which helped some, and had played baseball until an elbow injury meant his pitching days were over. He and Jane had played tennis weekly until... well, until, and that plus the gym beneath where he and "Kelly" now stood meant he still kept himself in pretty good shape. Now, though, the slowly greying dark hair that he normally kept in an expensively stylish cut was longer and unkempt, and he wore two day's worth of beard growth - greyer than his hair - that normally wouldn't have been there. This was not to say he was unclean, he still forced himself to shower and brush his teeth every day, but why bother shaving or brushing your hair when you didn't planned to go anywhere or see anyone? His clothes were similarly shabby: a thinning Standford shirt that was likely older than she was and a pair of dark grey sweatpants that probably cost more than her dress. His feet were bare as he stood across from her, being appraised in the same way he'd done to her moments before.
His irritation grew.
"I don't know anyone that might send you, and I don't need anyone taking care of me," he said, as he began to close the door in her face.
"They said you'd say that!" she said in a rush that seemed to cut through her boredom, "And to tell you..." her eyes were on her phone again, just for a moment, before she looked back up to him and announced clearly, as if it was the solution to all problems, "Thought you could use a little pick-me-up, Captain."
Only one person called him that, and the odds that this girl would know about it without being told were vanishingly small.
The fact that he'd sent Thomas what, by all indications, was an escort was more than a little surprising.
More surprising was the fact that he let her in.