It is so intimidating to post a thread here, but I will try and make it at least something worth reading. As a 44yo dad, almost grandpa, it's been hard to keep my outgoing masculinity. Maybe that's weird, but I definitely put my kids above myself. I've always been kind of a man whore, just never been comfortable with my sexuality. I definitely like women, just struggled with being that Alpha Male. I love the sensuality and closeness of a true relationship, but I don't know how to deal with those women(which there are a lot of) who want something a little rougher or even just something disrespectful. I'm no pussy, I just don't know how to advance into what most adult women seem to want?