Isolated Blurt Thread

[Anniejustagirl]

Thanks for the support! I need it.
I had an apple for lunch. It gave me a tummy ache. lol I grabbed a thin slice of pizza. That's a little better than that yummy chocolate, peanuty snickers bar.

i had too many apples today... too much fruit for that matter... *sigh* It just isn't fair that i have to fight for a week to take off 2 pounds and yet i can put on 5 pounds overnight... i swear i can put on weight just Smelling chocolate cake.

Hang in there... You have done SO well... i'm impressed... and you do look Fabulous!

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

You have oodles of support, baby.

Want some M&Ms? Might be easier than a Snickers . . . .

Thank you sweets.

I have those too, but it'll run me a buck. lol... Damn fund-raisers! You know... if she doesn't get these sold we have to buy them! That's all I need!

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

i had too many apples today... too much fruit for that matter... *sigh* It just isn't fair that i have to fight for a week to take off 2 pounds and yet i can put on 5 pounds overnight... i swear i can put on weight just Smelling chocolate cake.

Hang in there... You have done SO well... i'm impressed... and you do look Fabulous!

Thank you.

I had to take extreme measures to get to where I am, but for me they were the wisest measures to take.

I know it is hard. You've got me in your corner too.

 

[slyc_willie]

Thank you sweets.

I have those too, but it'll run me a buck. lol... Damn fund-raisers! You know... if she doesn't get these sold we have to buy them! That's all I need!

Bring 'em to Orlando -- I'll buy 'em

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

Bring 'em to Orlando -- I'll buy 'em

Ohhh don't tempt me. lol... I can imagine bringing what she has left... like 31.

 

[Anniejustagirl]

Thank you.

I had to take extreme measures to get to where I am, but for me they were the wisest measures to take.

I know it is hard. You've got me in your corner too.

Good on you! x12

Thank you... i had hit my goal weight, *sigh* but i'm over once again. I Can't go back there....

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

Good on you! x12

Thank you... i had hit my goal weight, *sigh* but i'm over once again. I Can't go back there....

My largest weight was 403. I'm now 241. My goal is 170 (though I can go to 160 or 180).

I went about losing weight the wrong way all my life... I kept saying... "You know I don't look too bad at xxx weight, I'll never let myself get to xxx." I would reach that number and tell myself the same thing... then set another goal that I would "never" get to and I'd reach that xxx number. I never thought I'd see 400 lbs. It was the most depressing day of my life. Even if I never lose another ounce, I'd be okay. The fact I've gotten to where I am now, because of the decision I have made and the support that has been by me both here and at home, has been a blessing I never thought I would ever have.

 

[Anniejustagirl]

My largest weight was 403. I'm now 241. My goal is 170 (though I can go to 160 or 180).

I went about losing weight the wrong way all my life... I kept saying... "You know I don't look too bad at xxx weight, I'll never let myself get to xxx." I would reach that number and tell myself the same thing... then set another goal that I would "never" get to and I'd reach that xxx number. I never thought I'd see 400 lbs. It was the most depressing day of my life. Even if I never lose another ounce, I'd be okay. The fact I've gotten to where I am now, because of the decision I have made and the support that has been by me both here and at home, has been a blessing I never thought I would ever have.

I understand that... all that love yourself as you are, but it's tough to be in love with yourself when just getting off the couch creates an inability to breathe!

It is beyond a liberating feeling is it not? i don't mind stabilizing, but back peddling scares me. Hoping that now that the daughter's wedding is in the photo album that i can get back to a healthy focus on my own life again... stress is a killer to health in more ways than one.

I had actually gotten too thin at 140... too thin is worse than too heavy as far as i could see... all the flaws truly show...

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

I understand that... all that love yourself as you are, but it's tough to be in love with yourself when just getting off the couch creates an inability to breathe!

It is beyond a liberating feeling is it not? i don't mind stabilizing, but back peddling scares me. Hoping that now that the daughter's wedding is in the photo album that i can get back to a healthy focus on my own life again... stress is a killer to health in more ways than one.

I had actually gotten too thin at 140... too thin is worse than too heavy as far as i could see... all the flaws truly show...

There has to be something inside yourself to love. . . a lot of that had been destroyed as I grew up and grew larger. I still struggle with loving myself, now I deal with scars from a very nasty surgery (unrelated to the bypass) and loose skin that makes me feel less than lovely. I'm not looking for perfection.

I did this to live longer. My surgeon told me for every 100 lbs. you are overweight you lose 20 years of your life. I felt it in my gut that I would die at/or around the age of 40. I feel in my heart I have gotten 30 years back and I'm hoping I'll get another 15. But no matter how much time I'm given... this feeling of self-worth is euphoric. It is sad to base our worth on our image, I know this, but it is easy to find one doing it.

After skin reconstruction, which will take off additional pounds, I will probably be around 150-160.

 

[rgraham666]

I'm so happy for you, Red. *HUGS*

 

[slyc_willie]

Indeed. Happy and proud for our friendly, red-haired goddess.

 

[Anniejustagirl]

There has to be something inside yourself to love. . . a lot of that had been destroyed as I grew up and grew larger. I still struggle with loving myself, now I deal with scars from a very nasty surgery (unrelated to the bypass) and loose skin that makes me feel less than lovely. I'm not looking for perfection.

I did this to live longer. My surgeon told me for every 100 lbs. you are overweight you lose 20 years of your life. I felt it in my gut that I would die at/or around the age of 40. I feel in my heart I have gotten 30 years back and I'm hoping I'll get another 15. But no matter how much time I'm given... this feeling of self-worth is euphoric. It is sad to base our worth on our image, I know this, but it is easy to find one doing it.

After skin reconstruction, which will take off additional pounds, I will probably be around 150-160.

yep... emotional eating... a good therapist helped... then having a grand child that i really wanted to play with... not just take her to the park and watch.

It's tough not to base it on that... people attack you for what you look like without even knowing you... or even worse... look right through you

*HUGZ* Euphoric is the word for it

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

I'm so happy for you, Red. *HUGS*

Thank you Rob. *hugs*

Indeed. Happy and proud for our friendly, red-haired goddess.

Thanks to you too, sweets.

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

yep... emotional eating... a good therapist helped... then having a grand child that i really wanted to play with... not just take her to the park and watch.

It's tough not to base it on that... people attack you for what you look like without even knowing you... or even worse... look right through you

*HUGZ* Euphoric is the word for it

I am still an emotional eater. I struggle with that often. Even if I can only eat 3/4 of a cup of food, I still fight to not just eat when I am stressed.

It's very hard to not base it on that. *hugs* I remember people would look at me and then away as if I didn't exist, or you could feel them staring at you and you knew or at least felt they were talking about you and your size. You become a shell; turn to food and hide deeper.

I see people looking at me now and I think back to those moments... and wonder... whose attitude has changed? Mine or those strangers. I know the answer is mine. I walk with more confidence now and I know when I walk into a store, I will find something that I can wear. I won't be shunned and if I am, then they have lost out on meeting a nice person.

 

[Anniejustagirl]

I am still an emotional eater. I struggle with that often. Even if I can only eat 3/4 of a cup of food, I still fight to not just eat when I am stressed.

It's very hard to not base it on that. *hugs* I remember people would look at me and then away as if I didn't exist, or you could feel them staring at you and you knew or at least felt they were talking about you and your size. You become a shell; turn to food and hide deeper.

I see people looking at me now and I think back to those moments... and wonder... whose attitude has changed? Mine or those strangers. I know the answer is mine. I walk with more confidence now and I know when I walk into a store, I will find something that I can wear. I won't be shunned and if I am, then they have lost out on meeting a nice person.

it's amazing how there are times when i want to eat til i hurt... i can still be an emotional train wreck...

Yes, yes and yes....

Zactly! but then i was a nice person before too, they lost out just because of their own attitudes. I did have an incident at the county fair this summer. My girlfriend pointed out that this guy kept following me... I knew him... he didn't recognize me... you should have seen the look on his face when i reminded him of our last exchange. I would love to be able to sit with him and discuss it, but i don't think he will be able to look me in the eye again... at least not for a long time. Hope if made him rethink his attitude about women that don't fit his ideal.

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

it's amazing how there are times when i want to eat til i hurt... i can still be an emotional train wreck...

Yes, yes and yes....

Zactly! but then i was a nice person before too, they lost out just because of their own attitudes. I did have an incident at the county fair this summer. My girlfriend pointed out that this guy kept following me... I knew him... he didn't recognize me... you should have seen the look on his face when i reminded him of our last exchange. I would love to be able to sit with him and discuss it, but i don't think he will be able to look me in the eye again... at least not for a long time. Hope if made him rethink his attitude about women that don't fit his ideal.

I long to mindlessly snack sometimes. The only thing I can do that with is popcorn and cantaloupe. I wish I had discovered writing when I was younger. I do write more now instead of eating.

I have had several people lately stop and do double takes. This morning was the most recent. A woman walked into the gas station and I said Hi to her as I was walking out. I could tell she glanced at me with a look of "who is that" on her face. I paused at the door and looked back at her. She stared at me and her jaw dropped. She blinked several times and stuttered out how great I looked. I thanked her with a smile, touched base with her and then left. I was her daughter's scout leader for seven years.

My cousin's wife also didn't recognize me when she saw me and the teachers/staff at school are still staring at me like I'm from another planet. lol The school athletic coach has been the most interesting to watch... he always seemed to look down on me, talk through me, or over me, as if I wasn't there. He about tripped over his jaw the other day when he saw me. I watched his eyes move from the top of my head to my feet and then back again. He just blinked and I said Hi, and kept walking.

 

[Anniejustagirl]

I long to mindlessly snack sometimes. The only thing I can do that with is popcorn and cantaloupe. I wish I had discovered writing when I was younger. I do write more now instead of eating.

I have had several people lately stop and do double takes. This morning was the most recent. A woman walked into the gas station and I said Hi to her as I was walking out. I could tell she glanced at me with a look of "who is that" on her face. I paused at the door and looked back at her. She stared at me and her jaw dropped. She blinked several times and stuttered out how great I looked. I thanked her with a smile, touched base with her and then left. I was her daughter's scout leader for seven years.

My cousin's wife also didn't recognize me when she saw me and the teachers/staff at school are still staring at me like I'm from another planet. lol The school athletic coach has been the most interesting to watch... he always seemed to look down on me, talk through me, or over me, as if I wasn't there. He about tripped over his jaw the other day when he saw me. I watched his eyes move from the top of my head to my feet and then back again. He just blinked and I said Hi, and kept walking.

i can't mindless snack on anything anymore. It triggers every unhealthy need in me.

Isn't that the best look? I have had cousins not recognize me until i smile and/or say hello... yes... another perk of all that hard work.

I think you have re-inspired me to go work out! Thanks Red!

 

[rgraham666]

Revenge is sweet, isn't it, Red?

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

i can't mindless snack on anything anymore. It triggers every unhealthy need in me.

Isn't that the best look? I have had cousins not recognize me until i smile and/or say hello... yes... another perk of all that hard work.

I think you have re-inspired me to go work out! Thanks Red!

I try to not mindless snack, but sometimes I fail. The spouse bought me mini-bags of microwavable popcorn, so now I am limited if I discipline myself, which I do.

I love that look.

(((HUGS))) If you ever need me, I'm somewhere about here, even if it takes time to answer a PM.

 

[Anniejustagirl]

I try to not mindless snack, but sometimes I fail. The spouse bought me mini-bags of microwavable popcorn, so now I am limited if I discipline myself, which I do.

I love that look.

(((HUGS))) If you ever need me, I'm somewhere about here, even if it takes time to answer a PM.

Those can help.

You deserve to enjoy it.

Thanks for responding to me.... i appreciate it, and your acknowledgment!

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

Revenge is sweet, isn't it, Red?

Hmm... revenge? I don't know if that's the word, but whatever it is, it was sweet.

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

Those can help.

You deserve to enjoy it.

Thanks for responding to me.... i appreciate it, and your acknowledgment!

You're deserving of it.

 

[rgraham666]

Unrelated.

Oops.

 

[Samandiriel]

Timezones suck.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I miss the way you smell, I miss the way you taste....

I want you to come home, NOW!