SEVERUSMAX
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cloudy said:
That's very cool....as is your AV, cloudy.
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That's very cool....as is your AV, cloudy.
carsonshepherd
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Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
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moonlight elf
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how does one flash a Bios???
Salvor-Hardon
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moonlight elf said:how does one flash a Bios???
Depends on teh motherboard but its not that hard. PM Me and I'll try to help.
joeys-game
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He's okay, thank christ for that..an easy fix, at least i think it will be easy, what a relief.
Stella_Omega
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WONDERFUL NEWS!joeys-game said:He's okay, thank christ for that..an easy fix, at least i think it will be easy, what a relief.
joeys-game
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Stella_Omega said:WONDERFUL NEWS!
Thanks Stella
moonlight elf
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Salvor-Hardon said:
Oh goodie! I don't know much about computers.
PM on the way.
joeys-game
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McKenna said:
*snort*
rofl
scheherazade_79
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Where are all the Brits?
Has everyone got hangovers this morning, or something?
Has everyone got hangovers this morning, or something?
togitc
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What is stopping me? Why won't I just do it? No one is fooled here, no one thinks this is working. The old reasons aren't the same so much anymore and you both are tired.
I so fucking tired of her playing the victim. I can't talk to her about it, she makes me flustered and I can't think. Would it be worth it?
I'm lonely now, the only difference would be I would actually be alone. I have a place to stay without moving away. Problem being transportation. Two working cars, one lawn ornament. Sell the car and get a bit of helping getting more reliable transportation. That takes time, in that time I could lose my job. If I lose my job then why would I even stay around here? Being close will be hard, too much temptation to just tuck my tail between my legs when things go bad.
Take the van, unless for some stupid reason she wants the van. Never know with her. Yeah, the van is paid off but it is a piece of shit and the car is better for her with the girls. I know there is something that she'll pull to make things much harder than they have to be.
I'm just so fucking tired of it. I'm tired of the fighting, the laziness, the constant blame on me. This week alone she has insulted me twice, not the little stuff. The little stuff is constant. She said I wasn't responsible with money, which is why with her in charge of the finances we are over $300 dollars in the hole. I'm trying to turn our oldest against her, forgive me for being nice to my sensitive daughter when she was being a complete asshole.
I am not the one who constantly tells the kids that 'daddy, is the bad guy'. I am not the one who takes three days to do a simple favor. I am not the one who sits on their ass all day watching TV. I am not the one who thinks they should get a reward for doing anything like a responsible parent should.
I'm sorry you had to pick up the girls when I was out of town. I'm sorry the house is a mess because you can't pick up after yourself before you watch TV for hours on end. I'm sorry you have no sex drive. I'm sorry you don't realize that money not yet in the bank is NOT there. I'm sorry that I've spent so much of my time doing the best I fucking can as a father and a husband for you to jump down my case when I falter.
You know what? I'm tired of trying with you and I'm tired of being here. I love my kids, but at some point it stops being healthy for us to be around them like this. I'm just glad that you are so fucking broke that when this is all over you can't move away. I know you would do it. You'd move to Michigan or Colorado where I couldn't visit and then you'd preach to the kids how I'm the bad guy.
I wanted to wait until the kids were older, that way they would know it wasn't anything to do with them. I love my kids, they saved my life and made it worth being alive. It kills me every time one of them says that they don't want me after you finish yelling at them. Fucking forbid that kids act like kids.
As a final note: sitting on the couch while the kids are in the other room does not count as playing with them.
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Sorry for the drama, but I needed to get it out.
Note to self, if plans go to shit learn bus schedules and see if there is a couch you can crash on. Note to self, if back up plan falls to shit, move back home. Note to self, before using fall-back backup plan make sure all avinues are explored, home is not an option to be taken lightly.
I so fucking tired of her playing the victim. I can't talk to her about it, she makes me flustered and I can't think. Would it be worth it?
I'm lonely now, the only difference would be I would actually be alone. I have a place to stay without moving away. Problem being transportation. Two working cars, one lawn ornament. Sell the car and get a bit of helping getting more reliable transportation. That takes time, in that time I could lose my job. If I lose my job then why would I even stay around here? Being close will be hard, too much temptation to just tuck my tail between my legs when things go bad.
Take the van, unless for some stupid reason she wants the van. Never know with her. Yeah, the van is paid off but it is a piece of shit and the car is better for her with the girls. I know there is something that she'll pull to make things much harder than they have to be.
I'm just so fucking tired of it. I'm tired of the fighting, the laziness, the constant blame on me. This week alone she has insulted me twice, not the little stuff. The little stuff is constant. She said I wasn't responsible with money, which is why with her in charge of the finances we are over $300 dollars in the hole. I'm trying to turn our oldest against her, forgive me for being nice to my sensitive daughter when she was being a complete asshole.
I am not the one who constantly tells the kids that 'daddy, is the bad guy'. I am not the one who takes three days to do a simple favor. I am not the one who sits on their ass all day watching TV. I am not the one who thinks they should get a reward for doing anything like a responsible parent should.
I'm sorry you had to pick up the girls when I was out of town. I'm sorry the house is a mess because you can't pick up after yourself before you watch TV for hours on end. I'm sorry you have no sex drive. I'm sorry you don't realize that money not yet in the bank is NOT there. I'm sorry that I've spent so much of my time doing the best I fucking can as a father and a husband for you to jump down my case when I falter.
You know what? I'm tired of trying with you and I'm tired of being here. I love my kids, but at some point it stops being healthy for us to be around them like this. I'm just glad that you are so fucking broke that when this is all over you can't move away. I know you would do it. You'd move to Michigan or Colorado where I couldn't visit and then you'd preach to the kids how I'm the bad guy.
I wanted to wait until the kids were older, that way they would know it wasn't anything to do with them. I love my kids, they saved my life and made it worth being alive. It kills me every time one of them says that they don't want me after you finish yelling at them. Fucking forbid that kids act like kids.
As a final note: sitting on the couch while the kids are in the other room does not count as playing with them.
-~-
Sorry for the drama, but I needed to get it out.
Note to self, if plans go to shit learn bus schedules and see if there is a couch you can crash on. Note to self, if back up plan falls to shit, move back home. Note to self, before using fall-back backup plan make sure all avinues are explored, home is not an option to be taken lightly.
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Chantilyvamp
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will you ever know what you planted
what I long for in the night
waiting for one small sign
while i smolder with desire
what I long for in the night
waiting for one small sign
while i smolder with desire
RedHairedandFriendly
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I want to write today.
I want to job hunt.
I want to go to the gym.
I don't want to do anything either. . .
Somehow this doesn't all mix well together.
I want to job hunt.
I want to go to the gym.
I don't want to do anything either. . .
Somehow this doesn't all mix well together.
SEVERUSMAX
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RedHairedandFriendly said:I want to write today.
I want to job hunt.
I want to go to the gym.
I don't want to do anything either. . .
Somehow this doesn't all mix well together.
Well, my mind often wants to do things with which my body doesn't agree.
carsonshepherd
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Not having a job is starting to make me edgy...
RedHairedandFriendly
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We should find something that both our bodies would agree to.SEVERUSMAX said:Well, my mind often wants to do things with which my body doesn't agree.
SEVERUSMAX
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RedHairedandFriendly said:We should find something that both our bodies would agree to.
Aye, that we should, my fair lady!
TheeGoatPig
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I need to write and release a new story so that I can get more feedback again...
RedHairedandFriendly
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I would like to be loved again... here in the real life, real time. To just snuggle up to someone and be held. Virtual is beautiful, but I need that human touch sometime. . .soon. For without it, the days get longer and the nights grow lonelier.
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