Isolated Blurt Thread

[SEVERUSMAX]

I have so many blurts, I wouldn't know where to start.

Keep my away from the venom thread. That's all I ask.

Hugs, Vana....

 

[Nirvanadragones]

did i really leave it that open? i intended to leave it a little open...but not enough to hint at more... i wouldn't know what to write if i were to do another part. Maybe a 2nd part if ideas boil up in my head for Vday next year

i am trying to keep sane. I am writting a stat's report...please...i need to be here to be sane. *pouts*

ps. i echo what Rox says, and admire your determination to want to help more. Tell me, are you there for work as such? i remember you mentioned having a workshop on HIV and AIDs at work a little while back- is this part of that? *is ignorant- educate me*

Your story: There is definite potential for " more"


My trip: Too much to share on here. Sorry, Sweet.

 

[Fallenfromgrace]

Your story: There is definite potential for " more"

My trip: Too much to share on here. Sorry, Sweet.

I shall consider it- just for you

Understand

______

My poems are up. And wow i got a really lovely review and mention of all three of them today. My biggest smile factor is that 'My Ashes' was appreciated to the extent it was- makes me feel so much more at peace with myself- 1st having the courage to post it, and then the kind words in the review.

*humble sigh*

I miss you. so very much.

 

[SEVERUSMAX]

It's been months....several, in fact....I hurt you....you hurt me....we were friends before...surely, we can be friends again, without you feeling like "the other woman".....one would think, anyway....it's so odd...one never expects to use such terms...one expects that avoiding monogamy would eliminate such issues...and it usually does, but you have to make this so damn hard...all because I can't give you everything that you want....don't you think that what I COULD and DID give you has any value? Circumstances have conspired to make it impossible for me to give you more than friendship....but isn't friendship of value as well? Does it always have to be all or nothing with you? I know that you want more, but be reasonable....I'm a good friend, am I not? You've thrown that away over your unhappiness with not being able to have more than friendship.....even now, it makes no sense to me...none at all...

 

[lightsaver]

I thought I was gonna die yesterday during the drive. Woke up this AM and my nose and mouth were so irritated from blowing and going. Actually feeling pretty good now. Can't keep me down for long......well, actually that's not true.

hahahaha good to know info there, thanks!
How is the unpacking process going?

 

[Guest]

I wonder what would happen if I walked out the door at lunch and knocked off early without saying so. Would I get fired? What would happen if I skipped school? It's just lab work anyway. What if I holed up in a hotel room tonight? I'd get decent sleep not to mention escaping all that estrogen in the house and I might even get laid—that's if I didn't fall in a coma first.

That's not responsible thinking, I know, but sometimes I wish I were 25 again before responsibility happened. I wasn't exactly happier then, but at least I got some fucking, and fucking sleep.

I can't believe I'll be 30 in June.

 

[Tom Collins]

I've had occasion to wish I could go back in time, but then I think about how I'm not just wishing I was a writer anymore, and I know that I can't skip all the things I've been through since I was 25 because then I'd never get here, and that would just be sad.

 

[Roxanne Appleby]

Thinking of Vana as I read this:

I learned a very good lesson when, 20 years ago, I worked in Tanzania. This well-endowed and beautiful country was broken-down and economically destitute to a shocking degree. A shard of mirror was a treasured possession; a day’s wages bought a man one egg on the open market. It was quicker to go to Europe than to telephone it. Nothing, not even the most basic commodity such as soap or salt, was available to most of the population.

At first I considered that the president, Julius Nyerere, who was so revered in “progressive” circles as being halfway between Jesus Christ and Mao Tse Tung, was a total incompetent. How could he reconcile the state of the country with his rhetoric of economic development and prosperity for everyone? Had he no eyes to see, no ears to hear?

But then the thought dawned on me, admittedly with embarrassing slowness, that a man who had been in power virtually unopposed for nearly a quarter of a century could not be called incompetent, once one abandons the preposterous premise that he was trying to achieve what he said he was trying to achieve. As a means of remaining in power, what method could be better than to have an all-powerful single political party distribute economic favors in conditions of general shortage? That explained how, and why, in a country of the involuntarily slender, the party officials were fat. This was not incompetence; it was competence of a very high order. Unfortunately, it was very bad for the population as a whole.

from City Journal, Winter 2007
"How Not to Do It: Nothing works in the omnicompetent state."
Theodore Dalrymple
http://www.city-journal.org/html/17_1_oh_to_be.html

 

[Roxanne Appleby]

To Zade:

 

[amy_li]

Microsoft sucks.

 

[Tom Collins]

Fuck, I am so bored, and pissed that it's nearly time to go back to work. *sigh*

 

[Fallenfromgrace]

I am getting fed up. Im spending the weekend in bed.

 

[rgraham666]

If semiotics IS communication, then why can't you?

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

Fuck, I am so bored, and pissed that it's nearly time to go back to work. *sigh*

OMG! TC... that is NEMO!!!!!!!

 

[Fallenfromgrace]

OMG! TC... that is NEMO!!!!!!!

Don't tell me you have never seen that pic before?

It did the rounds on the net about 60million times right after Nemo was aired in Cinema's. It made me teary when i saw it for the 1st time coz its EVIL!

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

Don't tell me you have never seen that pic before?

It did the rounds on the net about 60million times right after Nemo was aired in Cinema's. It made me teary when i saw it for the 1st time coz its EVIL!

I wasn't obsessed with the Internet when NEMO came out. . .so nope this is the first time for me. I would have really pitched a fit had it been Dorrie.

 

[Tom Collins]

OMG! TC... that is NEMO!!!!!!!

RAOTFLMFAO

 

[Tom Collins]

I wasn't obsessed with the Internet when NEMO came out. . .so nope this is the first time for me. I would have really pitched a fit had it been Dorrie.

I think it's hysterical, but then I have a seriously skewed sense of humor.

Bad Tom, Bad Tom...*smacksmacksmack*

 

[Chantilyvamp]

OMG! TC... that is NEMO!!!!!!!

lol, oh i hadnt noticed that...... good one tom

 

[Fallenfromgrace]

I wasn't obsessed with the Internet when NEMO came out. . .so nope this is the first time for me. I would have really pitched a fit had it been Dorrie.

Hehehe...ive gotten used to seeing it around, but Nemo is an awesome movie

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

I knew you were a bit fishy, Tom. I think it is quite funny.

I love NEMO... Love it... we still crack jokes about it around here.

 

[Tom Collins]

lol, oh i hadnt noticed that...... good one tom

Spank you, Chantily. Must say that's some kinda succulent tokhes on display in your AV.

 

[Tom Collins]

I knew you were a bit fishy, Tom. I think it is quite funny.

I love NEMO... Love it... we still crack jokes about it around here.

Oh, yeah, me too. I've seen it about a dozen times.

"Look! Something shiny!" *giggle*

 

[Fallenfromgrace]

You rock!

Just so you know, I and I'm sure many others here are full of admiration of youe conscientiousness and dedication to doing these hard things. I am totally confident that it will all pay off for you in the form of an interesting and gainful career. There are some here who could tell you what it's like to get up every day and force yourself to go into a boring or even hateful job that doesn't even pay all that well. The hard work you are doing today is your ticket out of that trap, and into a life with greater opportunity to pursue and find happiness.

This goes for Lucky, too.

Big hug and for our hardworking students.

I knwo i quoted this earlier and replied...but this is different.

I feel like such a fraud. I sat at uni 1pm- 7pm and got ZILCH done.

I am SO stressed with my workload and all other aspects of my life right now that i can't focus on my work. I'm so stressed and unfocused that i am distracted EVEN MORE easily, and i just cant bear to do the work.

I have no dedication to these thngs...i say i do but i never get it done.

If i put in the time and the effort and actually felt like all this was in my grasp then i'd do so so so much better than i am right now.

I have high hopes- a specialism in Psychology has my name on it somwhere, and in front of my name is 'Dr.' or at least that's how i envisage it. Problem is that image is like a fog...i try to grab it but my hand falls straight through- and the image is gone. I know full well what i have to do to get there, but it's like that thing where you can never find the measuring jug when you tear the kitchen apart, and then you realise all too late that the jug was RIGHT THERE! in front of you.

I know what i need to do, but i just cant do it. I thought i wanted it enough to work for it- i keep telling myself that, and making empty promises to my friends that i'll work- that are really just verbalised promises i make to myself that i make everyone bear witness to so that i cant back out. But i always do. As much as i try to convince myself i want it enough- apparently i dont.

I just dont want to feel this way about somethign i really want to do.

 

[CrimsonMaiden]

I just finished a story for the last category I needed. All are now filled!