<blurt>I've been extremely angry since I heard the news of Colly passing away. Some of that anger has spilled over into my recent posts and I apologise if I've offended anyone. In part, losing Colly brought back all the anxiety of last year and my own diagnosis with illness that threatened to be more serious than it turned out to be. Then the business of the chain story, the theme I'd chosen to write about, the similarities between Colly and the character (based upon a real person), their sexuality, their untimely deaths at approximately the same age - this actually shocked me to the core. I'd sent my synopsis to Colly just two days before, and I'm struggling to deal with that. I can't tell you how much I wsih I'd never sent the synopsis. So forgive my anger, it's with myself and not with you.<blurt>

out) AND every time we do get together for a drink or something, you mention it...