One of my best friends father's passed away yesterday. She found out from a voice mail. I don't know whay I'mhaving so much trouble dealing with it. I hardly have any words to say to her, but my eyes are struggling to hold back tears right now. I think it's so hard because she hates being shown sympathy. She's too strong for that. I myself show it very blantantly, so it's hard for me to keep it all inside. I'm not used to that. She has a boyfriend, but she relies on me more for emotional support. She keeps talking about how much she loves him, but that if they weren't dating that she and I would be dating. That makes things even more complicated. How much can I do for her? She keeps asking me to help in all these matters that I would easily do as a boyfriend, but she has one and he should be doing them. She asks him, but he's too busy. Blah blah blah. Her father just died and he can't even help. I have to go to work and feel horrible about it because I want so badly to be by her side and help her through all of this. I may not know much, but I think I do a good job of comforting people in times of crisis like this. I'll probably release what I'm feeling, which is a many plethora of things, on the drive to work. Which I'm running late to. That's what they get for trying to call me in so early. I'll get there when I can and they can deal with it. School comes first. At least that's what they keep telling me. I better just be off now. I'm feeling way too much to stop anytime soon.



