is there something wrong with me??????

[sookey]

i am a 21 year old female. i am a lesbian. my gf and i have been together almost 4 years now.
she was married before she met me, and they had 4 children together. so we see him often.
the past 2 months i have been having thoughts of my gf's ex husband.
i even went as far as making up a fake email and talking to him over the internet.
we have had cyber sex, i know how big his cock is and he still doesn't know its me. i love the thought of him fucking me his hard cock going inside me. i really get turned on thinking about him stroking himself.
i love my gf and i want to stay with her but everytime i think of her ex i get wet. i do not want to have a relationship with him or anything like that.
i do not feel this way about any other guys. just him.
whats wrong with me?????

 

[Ezzy]

I think it is the idea of being able to have what you gf had for the years of her marriage that is pumping up the volume. Just don't follow through if you value your current relationship, if you act on the feelings you are going to blow away what you have now, (that's my opinion for what it is worth).

It is something of the taboo or forbiden friut that excites you, is my guess.

 

[sookey]

i think you are right. i think it is the whole thought of the forbidden fruit. i was with guys before i met my gf, but i have never thought about going back to cock.
this will not lead anywhere.
thanks for your advice

 

[M's girl]

I have no idea of course but here is just a thought: is your relationship with her solid or do you (sometimes) feel a bit insecure? Does he feel like a threat to your relationship sometimes? This is along the same lines as what Ezzy said, but from another point of view.....

Think about it....

 

[jcallny]

There must be an age gap between the both of you. I would say that there are other ways to indulge in your desires. For instance you can get away and have sex with any guy.
The age gap and the children might mean that you have a secret desire to ave children. Also you might have just the desire to feel what she has felt before.
Email me so I can help you.