BrownEyes26
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I am just wondering if I am aberrent. I am scared to falli in love, and at the first sign of feelings, flee the scene. Just wondering...
Is anyone else out there scared to fall in love?
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Kymberley
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We must be related
I ran everytime it looked like the relationship would lead to something more serious than sex. I was so afraid to involve my heart in anything that would get it broken.
I didn't want to subject my kids to this either, so I avoided all relationships where I was expected to be seen outside of the bedroom with that person.
Finally, it found me. I was not looking for it, even thought about running when I realized there was more to me wanting to just fuck him.
We are living together now, first time in many years for me and the boys, and it is his first time ever. I am happy, my kids are happy and he is happy.
I wonder though, if I wasn't with him, would I still be running?
I ran everytime it looked like the relationship would lead to something more serious than sex. I was so afraid to involve my heart in anything that would get it broken.
I didn't want to subject my kids to this either, so I avoided all relationships where I was expected to be seen outside of the bedroom with that person.
Finally, it found me. I was not looking for it, even thought about running when I realized there was more to me wanting to just fuck him.
We are living together now, first time in many years for me and the boys, and it is his first time ever. I am happy, my kids are happy and he is happy.
I wonder though, if I wasn't with him, would I still be running?
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I echo Kymberly.
I know I'd still be running.
I know I'd still be running.
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MidnightAngel
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I used to be terrified of falling in love. Then I found someone truly wonderful. Trust...that's the main issue with me. Finally found someone I can really trust. *Contented Sigh*
cymbidia
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I'm on the painful side of love right now, as many know.
I gave my heart without reservation, without restraint, and thought that love completely reciprocated. When it ended, i was crushed beyond any hurt i'd ever felt before and, sometimes, didn't know how my heart could continue to beat past the all-enveloping pain.
It's better, now.
It doesn't hurt so terribly every second, now.
It's far too early for me to even contemplate giving my heart again; it's still bleeding, just not hemorrhaging anymore. However, there will come a time when i'll warm to someone, when there's again someone who's special beyond all reckoning in my life.
And again, i will offer my love fully.
Life without the possibility of love, no matter the pain that *might* be involved, is like never seeing a rainbow: you can certainly go your whole life without ever seeing one, and you can be happy, too - but you're missing something ephemerally magical if you do, something which changes you for the better, even slightly, with every occurrence in your life.
I gave my heart without reservation, without restraint, and thought that love completely reciprocated. When it ended, i was crushed beyond any hurt i'd ever felt before and, sometimes, didn't know how my heart could continue to beat past the all-enveloping pain.
It's better, now.
It doesn't hurt so terribly every second, now.
It's far too early for me to even contemplate giving my heart again; it's still bleeding, just not hemorrhaging anymore. However, there will come a time when i'll warm to someone, when there's again someone who's special beyond all reckoning in my life.
And again, i will offer my love fully.
Life without the possibility of love, no matter the pain that *might* be involved, is like never seeing a rainbow: you can certainly go your whole life without ever seeing one, and you can be happy, too - but you're missing something ephemerally magical if you do, something which changes you for the better, even slightly, with every occurrence in your life.
Mistress
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Yes.
I"m still recovering from a couple of broken hearts, and whenever I feel myself start to crush, I flee for awhile. I'm too scared to try to makea new relationship.
I'm frightened at the thought of being hurt more then I have....
I"m still recovering from a couple of broken hearts, and whenever I feel myself start to crush, I flee for awhile. I'm too scared to try to makea new relationship.
I'm frightened at the thought of being hurt more then I have....
JennyOmanHill
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BrownEyes26 said:I am just wondering if I am aberrent. I am scared to falli in love, and at the first sign of feelings, flee the scene. Just wondering...
Falling in love has a scary moments for me. It is not something I ever looked for, but it happened. This time the man has also fallen in love with me! I still have times where I'm frightened (just a little!) and find I hesitate in accepting his loving words and kindnesses. I'm so thankful for his patience with me dealing with my emotional "baggage"!
cymbidia
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Mistress, take a while.
Crush and flee, crush and flee, if you must, but be thinking out your pain and fear and hopes, too, until your heart is healed.
Don't forget the wonderful gifts love makes to you life. Don't forget the personal growth, andthe gift of precious reality that departed person gave to you, while he was there.
One of these days, if you remain open, a new 'he' will come along for you - and this new 'he' won't go. Then you'll have the "happily ever after" we're all looking for, no matter the form or tenor that will take for each of us.
It can only happen if you remain open to the possibility, though.
Pain is part of life, darlin'.
It's one of the ways we grow in understanding of ourselves and our needs, and there's no avoiding it. Remember the good stuff that happened with the ones whose absence in your life you're mourning - and let the bad ease away, like water drains from a sponge slowly over time and leaves the sponge intact and ready to be saturated again.
As water is to the function of a sponge, so is love to your soul.
You've got to feel your way through the pain and out the other side, and you've got to end up open to the possibility of love, again, too. The good one derives from the presence of love in her life are worth the risk.
Crush and flee, crush and flee, if you must, but be thinking out your pain and fear and hopes, too, until your heart is healed.
Don't forget the wonderful gifts love makes to you life. Don't forget the personal growth, andthe gift of precious reality that departed person gave to you, while he was there.
One of these days, if you remain open, a new 'he' will come along for you - and this new 'he' won't go. Then you'll have the "happily ever after" we're all looking for, no matter the form or tenor that will take for each of us.
It can only happen if you remain open to the possibility, though.
Pain is part of life, darlin'.
It's one of the ways we grow in understanding of ourselves and our needs, and there's no avoiding it. Remember the good stuff that happened with the ones whose absence in your life you're mourning - and let the bad ease away, like water drains from a sponge slowly over time and leaves the sponge intact and ready to be saturated again.
As water is to the function of a sponge, so is love to your soul.
You've got to feel your way through the pain and out the other side, and you've got to end up open to the possibility of love, again, too. The good one derives from the presence of love in her life are worth the risk.
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