ThomasShort
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I am entirely uncertain whether this is the right place to introduce myself, but it seemed appropriate.
This may be a rather long post, as it requires some anecdotal backstory.
One of my primary fetishes - though I dabble - is that of macrophilia. For those of you who don't know, macrophilia is the love of being small around those that are bigger. I.e. being shrunk by a seductive witch, becoming literally in the palm of a gorgeous wenches hand. I find this power play to be very much fun, however naturally it is entirely fantastical. A paraphilia I cannot fully enjoy in the real world.
So, initially I began by roleplaying in IRCs, forums and email and the like, travelling into Second Life to see how that may allow me to experience such an obscure fetish. As I delved deeper I met a hypnotist who said she could make me feel like I was actually shrinking.
I was always one to be dubious as to the power of hypnosis and thought it would have little effect, seeing as it would be entirely text based. So I gave it a shot. It was supposed to make me feel like I was an inch tall in my flat. It didn't. No effect whatsoever. However, because she failed to give proper triggers (key words to turn off the effect and turn it back on) and due to some dodgy wording it left some self-evolving traits behind.
(please tell me if I sound crazy)
In short, the suggestion of "you will feel smaller" began to split and alter as new people began to roleplay with me. Some little half-a-statement had begun to change and adapt to new information. Little pleasures and the such had begun to evolve into suggestions, leaving me with the following, a series of suggestions which mostly only effect my online life:
1) I must address women as Miss unless told otherwise as I am, on some level, 'below' all women. This does not mean I am not equal, et cetera, but merely highly submissive. I have to do as I am told. It seems natural - when online - to just do what I am asked of, and it feels 'wrong' somehow to not do so. In short, I am highly submissive to women. I would say this has come about from many roleplay's as a submissive to women and the term "you are smaller" turning into "you are below", a connotational difference that changed height into hierarchy, so to speak.
2) Roleplay and Second Life Exploration feels very vivid when I go deep. If I play for a while, I can suddenly 'click' and find the whole experience is very much accentuated sensually. I can feel a thigh, smell a perfume, depending on how deep I am. In short, roleplay is more vivid.
3) I find it very hard to imagine myself taller than women. If I talk to you online I will immediately envisage I am shorter than you, regardless of what height you may be. If I try and imagine taller, I find it near impossible. This I have also noticed happening more in real life as well as online; girls just seem goddamn tall.
4) Occasionally I will refer to the amalgamation of these suggestions as "She". A kind of playful personification which sometimes gets out of hand when pushed too deeply into the trance state that immediately takes hold when online or in roleplay. It seems to be a way of simply explaining such a complex array of half-suggestions half-implanted incorrectly. Dreams began to continue roleplays and scenarios I had previously explored with 'She' as a character within them. People have actually spoken with 'She' as well.
5) When very deep, showing me images that are sensual, sexual, 'fun', can put me in little scenarios. These seem randomly generated by however my suggestions work. I.e, show me an image of a lovely lady and I may find myself chatting to her in a café. I know it isn't happening, per se, it is like intense make pretend, which I will go on to explain:
I know I must sound mental talking about hypnotic suggestions that seem to alter how I perceive the world. I would like to add that I don't necessarily think these things. I know full well, deep down, it is all a ruse. It is like a dream or a meditation, whereby you are aware that all is farce (roleplay, make-pretend) but you are so deep in the pretending it is hard to act otherwise. If needed I can easily snap out, i.e. if I am in danger it will just disappear and leave me much the same as before.
I basically don't want you to think I'm some crazy person thinking he has to jump from key to key on his laptop to survive on the internet. I am highly susceptible to changes in my perspective, i.e. if a woman tells me I am something, I will think I am that thing, i.e. again "you are tiny" or "you are a cat" or "you are a Hungarian Poet". But on a fundamental level I know it is all roleplay.
To simplify this very long post into my messed up mindbox: roleplay is more vivid, I do as I am told and it makes me feel short. I also am fully aware of everything I have said, even when I am in said trance-like states.
If you want to know any more, just ask. I know how mental this must read.
That is me... basically.
Hello?
This may be a rather long post, as it requires some anecdotal backstory.
One of my primary fetishes - though I dabble - is that of macrophilia. For those of you who don't know, macrophilia is the love of being small around those that are bigger. I.e. being shrunk by a seductive witch, becoming literally in the palm of a gorgeous wenches hand. I find this power play to be very much fun, however naturally it is entirely fantastical. A paraphilia I cannot fully enjoy in the real world.
So, initially I began by roleplaying in IRCs, forums and email and the like, travelling into Second Life to see how that may allow me to experience such an obscure fetish. As I delved deeper I met a hypnotist who said she could make me feel like I was actually shrinking.
I was always one to be dubious as to the power of hypnosis and thought it would have little effect, seeing as it would be entirely text based. So I gave it a shot. It was supposed to make me feel like I was an inch tall in my flat. It didn't. No effect whatsoever. However, because she failed to give proper triggers (key words to turn off the effect and turn it back on) and due to some dodgy wording it left some self-evolving traits behind.
(please tell me if I sound crazy)
In short, the suggestion of "you will feel smaller" began to split and alter as new people began to roleplay with me. Some little half-a-statement had begun to change and adapt to new information. Little pleasures and the such had begun to evolve into suggestions, leaving me with the following, a series of suggestions which mostly only effect my online life:
1) I must address women as Miss unless told otherwise as I am, on some level, 'below' all women. This does not mean I am not equal, et cetera, but merely highly submissive. I have to do as I am told. It seems natural - when online - to just do what I am asked of, and it feels 'wrong' somehow to not do so. In short, I am highly submissive to women. I would say this has come about from many roleplay's as a submissive to women and the term "you are smaller" turning into "you are below", a connotational difference that changed height into hierarchy, so to speak.
2) Roleplay and Second Life Exploration feels very vivid when I go deep. If I play for a while, I can suddenly 'click' and find the whole experience is very much accentuated sensually. I can feel a thigh, smell a perfume, depending on how deep I am. In short, roleplay is more vivid.
3) I find it very hard to imagine myself taller than women. If I talk to you online I will immediately envisage I am shorter than you, regardless of what height you may be. If I try and imagine taller, I find it near impossible. This I have also noticed happening more in real life as well as online; girls just seem goddamn tall.
4) Occasionally I will refer to the amalgamation of these suggestions as "She". A kind of playful personification which sometimes gets out of hand when pushed too deeply into the trance state that immediately takes hold when online or in roleplay. It seems to be a way of simply explaining such a complex array of half-suggestions half-implanted incorrectly. Dreams began to continue roleplays and scenarios I had previously explored with 'She' as a character within them. People have actually spoken with 'She' as well.
5) When very deep, showing me images that are sensual, sexual, 'fun', can put me in little scenarios. These seem randomly generated by however my suggestions work. I.e, show me an image of a lovely lady and I may find myself chatting to her in a café. I know it isn't happening, per se, it is like intense make pretend, which I will go on to explain:
I know I must sound mental talking about hypnotic suggestions that seem to alter how I perceive the world. I would like to add that I don't necessarily think these things. I know full well, deep down, it is all a ruse. It is like a dream or a meditation, whereby you are aware that all is farce (roleplay, make-pretend) but you are so deep in the pretending it is hard to act otherwise. If needed I can easily snap out, i.e. if I am in danger it will just disappear and leave me much the same as before.
I basically don't want you to think I'm some crazy person thinking he has to jump from key to key on his laptop to survive on the internet. I am highly susceptible to changes in my perspective, i.e. if a woman tells me I am something, I will think I am that thing, i.e. again "you are tiny" or "you are a cat" or "you are a Hungarian Poet". But on a fundamental level I know it is all roleplay.
To simplify this very long post into my messed up mindbox: roleplay is more vivid, I do as I am told and it makes me feel short. I also am fully aware of everything I have said, even when I am in said trance-like states.
If you want to know any more, just ask. I know how mental this must read.
That is me... basically.
Hello?