In love/confused/freaked-out -_-

[CuriousNiceGuy]

Ok..classic story:"I like a friend of mine.What do I do?"
Except there's something a bit off right here..
Ok, I have this good friend of mine who is good-looking has good attitude and character and guess what - just my luck, I've fallen for him..
The fact is that between our little group of friends we talk with terms like: "How are you baby/love/hottie/enter-similar-word?"
I haven't misunderstood any of these words till recently.
So this guy I like, who btw is named Angel(in greek it doesn't sound this weird XD), was always acting a little too flirty in my eyes.
One of our first encounters:
I crouch so I can tie my laces and I hear him say:"Yeah..that's the position I like to see you." And I look at him and he was of course refering at me. I let this go(I'm not out so I didn't answer appropriately ).

From that time we've come closer. He always talked to me like everyone with the love and babe stuff except he did some things he didn't do with others.
-We had this staring fight. I stared, he stared and whoever looked away lost. Usually me with an embarassed red face.
-Recently he started asking me to rub his back while we are having coffee, and whenever I stop he whines and I rub again.
-He asks incredibly WEIRD questions just out of the blue(even before I came out to him)
i.e:Everyone talking about stuff and he suddenly turns to me:"How often do you jack off? What do you think of?"
-When we go to the porn section of a videostore he keeps asking ME to rent a dvd for him(no he is NOT shy) and sometimes to watch porn together.
-When I came out to him his first question was if I wanted to blow him and he later said that he could now have a threesome with me.
-He asked me just yesterday if I have jacked off thinking of someone we both know.(of course I answered yes )
-He sometimes speaks with this damn cute voice and has this damn cute face and asks favors(you know the puppy eyes your b/f or g/f does when they want to pwn your mind) and it gets on my nerves that he always makes me do stuff he wants.I have never even once seen him do that with anyone else.

Is it just me or there may be something between him and me?..
He does act softer around me too..and he seems more carefree around me(though that's probably cause I am a somewhat carefree person too)
I am TOTALLY confused and in love. I'm freaked out that our friendship may come to an end cause I have feelings for him.. Do you think it's just me that he may have some feelings too?.. Damn Cupid..Your dexterity really sux..

 

[ezervet]

Man, that is a rough situation, and i feel for you. been there myself (i posted about it a while back).

The only advice i can give, make sure you're not just projecting what you want onto what you have. I'm pretty sure thats what i did with my friend, after a lot of honest introspection. for me, it came down to the fact that things between us really hadn't changed between us, i had just started thinking about everything in a "gay" light. (haha, sorry, i just couldn't think of a better way to put it) but then, there are plenty of people out there who've fallen in love with good friends, i've known plenty of them.

My own advice? If you think its real, go for it. Try to tell him how you feel. Life is too short to wonder what might have been. Be prepared to be shot down, but don't let that get in the way. Romance always involves a certain level of risk, whether you're pursuing a man or a woman.

 

[CuriousNiceGuy]

Yeah..I remember you posting about a similar situation.
Anyway.. I just don't know what's going on anymore. I thought if I came out to him he'd at least be a liiiiiiittle more careful of what he says to me...
He has confused me greatly and I really don't know what to do. When we're sitting in a cafeteria and someone leaves from next to him he ALWAYS asks me to sit next to him in a cute voice. Today I was cold and he offered to gimme his jacket -_- (I don't think ANYONE has ever done that in my whole life. Oh, that was a lie. I remember once my cousin offered his jacket to his GIRLFRIEND!). It's just that in my mind I have this list of things that 'just buddies' don't do and he has done every single thing. No..he even adds some to it..
Maybe I'm overanalysing things and like you very accurately said I'm seeing things in a 'gay light'...Dunno..

The thing is that I like him as a friend AND as something more. Of course I'd prefer if something could happen between us, but really I just want to clear this thing out without damaging our friendship..

 

[ezervet]

I honestly wasn't trying to be a downer before, and i wasn't trying to convince you that your friend wasn't interested.

It sounds like theres a real possibility that something could happen. I think you've just got to talk to him, as hard as that is. If he's a good friend, he'll understand and he won't be offended. Tell him that he's doing is confusing to you, because it makes it seem as though he's interested in more than a platonic relationship, and ask him if that is indeed the case. You'll just have to put it out there, because you'll get absolutely nothing if you don't; not the the joy of having been right or the closure of knowing that you're just friends. Its what i would have done if i had thought that there was really a chance that he was interested.

Of course, theres always the "get drunk and make a pass at him," school of thought, but thats really not my style.

 

[CuriousNiceGuy]

Lol, don't worry you weren't a downer. It's not like I haven't thought that all this is just my imagination or my inner 'wish'. Actually I'm really glad I have someone to talk to about this. I don't want to tell my best friend about it cause that would probably lead to a more complicated situation and I wouldn't even feel comfortable when those two met.
So thanks for listening and ging me advice I appreciate it

Well, it's true that telling him looks like the only way (I have tried loosing me up by drinking with him but it still wouldn't come out.. -_-).
I'm just really terrified that our friendship will be ruined. And it's not that it's just a friendship like only for fun. We listen to each others problems and such. I wish there was another way.. I've thought of staying away from him for a while, but that not really what friends do..although it seems a lot easier.

I guess it will come down to the moment I find the courage to tell him this.
I'll try your words. They don't seem 'aggressive' and it's something that would actually come out of my mouth thanks again!

 

[ezervet]

No thanks necessary, thats what we're all here for, right? I know that there's practically no one else I know that I could discuss these kinds of things with, even if they are someone I am out to.

So I hope it all works out well! It takes alot of courage to do something like this, but however it turns out, I'm sure you'll be glad you did it. I'll be sending out some good vibes for ya, though I'm not sure how well they handle a seven hour time difference.

Keep me up to date, and if you need to talk or anything, keep on posting here or hit me up with a PM.

Whatever you decide to do, good luck!