If you could change one thing

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in your life that you were certain would make things better what would it be? Would you change your appearance? Some life choice along the way to this point in time? Education? Career? Spouse? Children? Environment?

If you had free reign?

What would it be?

I used to say that I would change the fact that I had my son at the time I did, but had I waited I think I would've gotten divorced and not had *him*... so that's out. I wouldn't have changed my childhood, my parents, my siblings... but maybe I would change the fact that I never moved away from home to experience life in a new way. The chance to invent and create and explore myself like people do when going to college. Maybe. What about you?
 
In all seriousness, I don't know that I would change a thing, maybe though just maybe if I had to I would change one thing I might have applied myself more in Elementary, Junior and High School and the first degree in College. I did in fact apply myself for my second and third degrees.

I doubt there is much I would change, because I am happy with who I am but I might have tried a little harder in school for the most part. I did what I needed to get by up until my second go around at College.
 
"If I could turn back time,
If I could find a way
I'd take back all those words
that have hurt you..."

I would have gotten rid of my first serious boyfriend much sooner. I dated him during my last two years of high school. He was so jealous and possessive of my time that I had to lie to him so I could spend time with my friends without him freaking out. I slowly gave up and drifted away... I missed out on a lot of good times, lost some good friends.

I also only applied to my hometown university because this guy cried over the idea of me going away for school. Then he kind of disappeared on me the summer after high school. GRRR! Asshole. I vowed never to be so stupid over a guy again. Riiggghhht.
 
I have manic depression which has been under control for several years. As sometimes happens even with well-controlled mental illness, a couple of years ago something snapped, and my life unravelled steadily for a couple of years. It was like I was watching myself destroy my own life in front of my eyes (and everyone else's, unfortunately) and could do nothing to stop it. I lost my job, my savings, nearly my house, many of my friends and some of my family. I've since regained my life (tho, sadly, not some of my friends and family).

Incredible, in retrospect, I would probably not change the relapse. You know that axiom, "that which does not kill me makes me stronger"? Well, I don't believe it's trite at all. I had had a part-time business for years, and decided to do it full time. I lost some friends and family, and though that's sad, some people just don't "get" mental illness and that's part of life.

But one of the best things to come out of my very public breakdown is that a whole lot of people were exposed to what mental illness looks like, how people climb out of that black hole, and how they can become the same people you knew and loved before.
 
Damn I would change alot. I would NEVER have cut my hair when I was 16. It was past my butt and I cut it all the way up to my ears. I have regretted it immensely since and refuse to cut it ever again (Aside from a trim)

I would have ignored my frustrations over school and Graduated instead of getting so pissed off that I quit my senior year and got my GED.

I would have finished college instead of dropping out because my dad refused to pay for it unless I took accounting. I would have put my foot down to him instead of just quitting.

I would have never gotten into my last relationship.

I wouldn't have gotten Drunk and High on my 22nd birthday
(Because it fucked like my whole life up)

::sighs::

But still, I turned out ok...
 
I would have confronted the people who made my life hell sooner instead of letting it continue as long as it did.



I would have acted on my desire for women earlier..and not have been so secretive about it...I wish I didn't have to hide it now...I wish the world was such that everybody could just...be
 
Are we allowed to change something based on our life right now? If that were possible, the only thing I would do is not let my son go to church that last night.
 
Chuckus said:
In all seriousness, I don't know that I would change a thing, maybe though just maybe if I had to I would change one thing I might have applied myself more in Elementary, Junior and High School and the first degree in College. I did in fact apply myself for my second and third degrees.

I doubt there is much I would change, because I am happy with who I am but I might have tried a little harder in school for the most part. I did what I needed to get by up until my second go around at College.

Bitch Go to sleep :)
Love ya, Mean it :)
King Nothing
 
If someone makes Adoratrice cry I'm going to start chewing bubble gum and kicking ass.

If I could change?
Sorry, after only 19 years I don't know what I've done wrong yet.. but I'd have to say I do wish I were a bit taller.
 
as you should be:)



and don't even think of trying to stalk her ...that position has already been filled.
 
TN_Vixen..
You're impressed by my ability to act like a twelve year old? :)

Don't worry Adoratrice there's only room in my heart for one stalker type.
 
wouldn't it be wonderful if everyone renounced violence forever? scylis could then conquer the whole fucking planet with just a butter knife.

[Edited by scylis on 01-11-2001 at 10:10 PM]
 
lol...thats why I like you so much...I can relate to 12 year olds!


Goodnight you...sweetdreams.
 
Re: teresa?

TN_Vixen said:

TN_Vixen, Justin was killed that night. Sorry to be the one that told you that.

I'd change my education, I'd apply myself a lot more, take more notice of what my abilities were.
 
just one thing...

At this point of my life, I feel very blessed and extremely fortunate...with everything. But the only thing that has always troubled me, and it is a silly lil' personal thing, would be my height. I wish I was taller. I have always wished I was taller! Had I been taller, I would have had some tremendous opportunities to fulfil one of my dreams. I had many offers but my height was a setback. I know compared to some this might seem petty, but to me it is a big deal...LOL..or should I say a "tall" deal?
 
If there was one thing I could change. It would be, NOT start taking drugs at the age 14. Could have saved me a whole lot of grief and sorrow and years of fucked up lifestyle.
 
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