SaddenedSub
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- May 23, 2018
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My master passed away. I had him with me online for 3 years. I also do have a boyfriend. This isn’t for him.
I struggle being able to reach orgasm now and have since he passed recently.
He had built my sex drive very high. Every morning I was to edge and get close as many times for 30 minutes and was not permitted to ever cum.
I also was required to edge 2-3 per day when I could and not cum.
Every evening he would decide if I was allowed to cum that day and how many times. Sometimes he would deny. Sometimes he would tell me to cum a specific number of times and that was I to cum in a certain amount of time.
Many others things he took over for me as well which are also gone and I am lost.
My boyfriend does not know and he would not ever be interested in this. So I am lost.
I am seeking advice to get past this. I cry daily. I still edge for him and each evening want to cum for him and am struggling. It’s as if I am blocked.
I occasionally am able to reach orgasm with my boyfriend but it is quite different.
I am open to any suggestions.
I struggle being able to reach orgasm now and have since he passed recently.
He had built my sex drive very high. Every morning I was to edge and get close as many times for 30 minutes and was not permitted to ever cum.
I also was required to edge 2-3 per day when I could and not cum.
Every evening he would decide if I was allowed to cum that day and how many times. Sometimes he would deny. Sometimes he would tell me to cum a specific number of times and that was I to cum in a certain amount of time.
Many others things he took over for me as well which are also gone and I am lost.
My boyfriend does not know and he would not ever be interested in this. So I am lost.
I am seeking advice to get past this. I cry daily. I still edge for him and each evening want to cum for him and am struggling. It’s as if I am blocked.
I occasionally am able to reach orgasm with my boyfriend but it is quite different.
I am open to any suggestions.