I miss...

[TheEarl]

I miss buying you flowers. Nothing was quite so much fun as walking past a florist's stall and just picking up a bunch of lilies, simply because I knew it'd make you smile.

I miss getting gifts for you. I'd spend hours wandering around jewelry stores, or little wicca shops and end up buying you about five things, because one would never be enough. I miss the way you'd smile, then clip me around the back of the head and point out that I hadn't the money to get them. The smiles for the rest of the evening were worth any amount.

I miss coming home after rugby to see you. I'd be limping and bruised, but I knew that I could drag myself upstairs and you'd hug me and love me and show that you cared.

I miss the way you always used to smile when I came into your room. I loved the thought that I made you happy just by being there.

I miss kissing you. I miss being able to just stretch over and kiss the top of your head while you're watching television.

I miss watching films with you. You'd lean against me and you were always worried that you were 'squisheling' me. You didn't understand that it was the most comforting sensation in the world.

I miss holding you in bed. You would lie by my side and the closeness and the trust implicit in our positions made me feel so warm.

I miss having you there as the person I come home to each night.

I miss hearing my phone beep for a text message and rushing to see if it was you.

I miss you so much that every time I think of something we did together, I can feel a ball of hurt and misery well up inside me and I have to turn away, to hide my face so that no-one can see how much I'm falling apart.

I miss you.

The Earl

 

[impressive]

This makes me ache -- and gives me that pre-tears tingle at the base of my nose.



At least you had it at one time, sugar. I'm still working on that.

 

[LadyJeanne]

I'm sending you warm hugs and kisses, wrapped in a bow, dearest.

 

[cloudy]

Earl,

I know this won't help you at all, but I just felt I had to let you know this...

So many men in this day and time either can't let their feelings show, or have such a terrible time even letting women know that they experience them. Your post above shows that you don't have a problem with it at all, and, if I were younger, and closer to your area, I would count myself very lucky indeed to have found such a man.

You had it once, and I don't doubt that you'll have it again, and even better.

 

[Daisy May]

I can't find my tissues.

That was beautiful! So open!

(((hugs)))

 

[Guest]

*HUGS* Earl.

I know no words can help you, but know that I care.

You will have it again, sweetie, and you will make someone incredibly happy, and them you in return.

Lou

 

[English Lady]

Earl...words escape me right now *hugs* you're doing best by letting it all out love.

 

[LadyJeanne]

There's a delicious little princess out there right now yearning for an Earl, wishing he'd hurry up and find her so she can give him all her lovin'. It will happen, sweets, just have faith.

 

[logophile]

Your words are familiar to my heart. I am so thankful to you for putting them out here.

 

[she_is_my_addiction]

I understand quite well the feelings connected with this. Maybe too well.

Thank you.

 

[Edward Teach]

That took guts Earl. Hope things work out soon.


Ed

 

[Svenskaflicka]

I have only one word, Earl:


"ORANGES".












Those of you who know me know what I'm talking about.

 

[minsue]

 

[doormouse]

Wow, that was beautiful.

Until you find that special gal, J_L and I will keep taking nudie pics to keep you warm.

 

[Svenskaflicka]

And I will continue teasing you, to keep you grinning.

 

[SeaCat]

Earl,

What you said takes guts to admit openly, especialy for a man in this day and age. Rest assured that things will work out, and you will again find someone special. (I know that I did.) Just don't try to rush it my friend. All that will do is make you even unhappier.
Take your time, enjoy life, and accept the friendship of those who know you.

Cat

 

[she_is_my_addiction]

Are we allowed to add our own parts to your "I Miss"?

 

[~hellbaby~]

Who's the fool who said all the good men were taked...There should be more willing to express themselves like you,that was heartwaring and beautiful