I feel like I've almost had it

[Caressa]

I'm really sorry...but I just need to vent a little...

First of all...I really hate this time of year because it always seems like it's illegal to be single...and there is always this giant push to get coupled up by the 14th. Of course...I also find the same thing happens around New Year's Eve. But what's worse, is that I find myself falling into the trap that gets set by Hallmark or whoever is the evil force behind this "holiday".

Second...I'm really beginning to HATE HATE HATE my job...the people I work with are just evil and hateful and they make me not want to get up in the morning...they honestly cause me to not care about what I do at all...which really annoys me because I hate not giving 100% of myself.

Third...it's is just ugly out today...and I have very little desire to get my butt up and go out. It's dark and gray and I just want to curl up in bed...but if I do that then I'll be curling up in bed ALONE and I don't want to do that either.

Fourth...I need to move out of this town and state...I haven't had the best luck in anything since I've been here. Plus, I just haven't met anyone to spend time with...and I hate being lonely...and I hate missing my friends.


I hate being grumpy....grrrr.

However,
I still firmly believe that everything happens for a reason...good and bad and I know that my life doesn't REALLY suck no matter how much I think it does. Plus, I know I'm cute and endearing and intelligent and I'm lonely because I'm isolated due to my job. And I know that although I hate my job...I still love my choice of careers and I still can't imagine myself doing anything else with my life.

*Big Sigh* I feel better...but I could still use some cuddlin'.

 

[alexandraaah]

I'm probably not your first choice, but...

 

[Desdemona]

Here.... have a great big cyber {{{{{{HUG}}}}}}. Hope you feel better soon.

 

[lilminx]

Sorry to hear that, Caressa. For what it's worth, I'm in the same boat as you for V-day, and had similar problems New Year's Eve. It sucks.
Just remember you're not alone in this.

As for the other things, it sounds like you need a change, either in job or in location. Ponder it. Think about it. think about everything you would have to do to make any of those changes. If it seems like too much, go out and get a new haircut. Sometimes a little change can help when you're feeling like you need a bigger change.


I hope you feel better.

 

[Caressa]

Alex....


Thank you

 

[Mensa]

Second...I'm really beginning to HATE HATE HATE my job...the people I work with are just evil and hateful and they make me not want to get up in the morning...they honestly cause me to not care about what I do at all...which really annoys me because I hate not giving 100% of myself.





Plus, I know I'm cute and endearing and intelligent and I'm lonely because I'm isolated due to my job. And I know that although I hate my job...I still love my choice of careers and I still can't imagine myself doing anything else with my life.

*Big Sigh* I feel better...but I could still use some cuddlin'.

Your job wouldn't be "Public Executioner" by any chance, would it?

 

[Wiggles]

Cuddle Buddy to the Rescue!!

***Huggs***

Valentines has a way of sucking...



and chocolate 's for you.

***Huggs***

 

[Caressa]

As for the other things, it sounds like you need a change, either in job or in location. Ponder it. Think about it. think about everything you would have to do to make any of those changes. If it seems like too much, go out and get a new haircut. Sometimes a little change can help when you're feeling like you need a bigger change.

LOL...well...actually, because of my job I'll be working somewhere new in some new location in a few months...and then I'll be moving on again after the summer to somewhere new yet again...however I don't know where I'll be working in the summer or fall yet, but it's still early.

As for the haircut...I know it's not unusual for girls to say they got a bad haircut...but I actually had my hair BUTCHERED a month ago...LOL...I guess that's what I get for going to SuperCuts (although I've never had a problem there before)


But thank you everyone for for the well wishes...we all have those days...however...I seem to be having one of those years so far...and it's only Feb!

I failed to mention earlier that I had an accident with the company van this past week...but now I'm laughing about it...tee hee

 

[Sorsha]

BIG hug!

 

[Coven911]

*HUGE HUGGGLES AND LOTS OF SNUGGLES!!!*

Caressa,

Hang in there , you are NOT alone! *S* Many of us don't have anyone to cuddle with either.

As for the job, there is always tomorrow??

Coven911

 

[Caressa]

Re: Re: I feel like I've almost had it

Your job wouldn't be "Public Executioner" by any chance, would it?

While I'm not actually a violent person (ok...so maybe I like to wrestle around and I've been known to "girly" punch guys) the idea of the people I work with now "expiring" makes me giggle

 

[Coven911]

mmmmmmm......

Ok, lets WRESTLE THEN!! *WEG* WOOOOOOOOOO HHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

 

[Caressa]

Re: mmmmmmm......

Ok, lets WRESTLE THEN!! *WEG* Nude, oil wrestling!! WOOOOOOOOOO HHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Ok...so I can usually figure these things out but...what is *WEG*?
Wait...is it Wink & Grin...maybe I'm smarter than I thought...lol


I love to wrestle...I'm ferocious...but I never win

 

[Coven911]

I might let you win!!!

WEG = Wicked Evil Grin

And well, if you tease me enough, I just MIGHT let you win! *S*

 

[Caressa]

Re: I might let you win!!!

WEG = Wicked Evil Grin

And well, if you tease me enough, I just MIGHT let you win! *S*

What makes you think I want to win?

Geesh...I haven't wrestled with anyone in a while...how sad...

 

[Coven911]

mmmmmm........but think of it..

But think of it, um....I'll let you go from there! *S*

 

[Caressa]

hmmm...there really is a lot y'all don't know about me

 

[Coven911]

Then why don't........

Then please enlighten us! *S*

 

[Caressa]

Ok....so I need some other opinions at this point...do I get my self together and go out...go do some work and go the gym...or do I stay here curled up on the couch and post?

Decisions Decisions

 

[Coven911]

mmmmmm.........tough choices...

I would enjoy continuing our conversation, but, if you enjoy the workout then I would say do that. *S*

 

[Caressa]

so besides this being a shameless bump....

I just can't seem to pull away from the computer!

 

[Guest]

you are not alone......

I've had my share of crap happen recently, and have put up many venting posts. These people here sure are wonderful, and really have a way of lifting my spirits. I can't pull away from the computer at times as well.

I hate my job, but yours, with the upcoming moves, really seems to be a potential fuck up for the old social life. Yow!!

I would be honored if you would be my Valentine

PM or buddy me if you ever need someone to vent to. I've done that with others when I was down recently, and have really made some special new friends.



And, since you're alone in bed,

But it sounds as if you might already have a playmate......

 

[Caressa]

Nope...no playmates...*Sigh*


I would be honored to be your valentine...I think it's fair to say no one's ever asked me that!


I tend to move almost every 6 months....so I really don't have much of an established social life anywhere

 

[Guest]

Nope...no playmates...*Sigh*

You've got one now...... Buddy me if you dare


I would be honored to be your valentine...I think it's fair to say no one's ever asked me that!

REALLY?? That sucks big time - again, you've got one now


I tend to move almost every 6 months....so I really don't have much of an established social life anywhere

What do you plan to do about this? Besides have me as an on-line play toy, that is.... Seriously, what kind of job would do such horrible things to you???

 

[Caressa]

Online Play toy?

Well...so you want to be my playtoy, eh? I'm not so sure if you want that because I apparently inadvertantly hurt someone's feelings today. The only other thing I have to say on that subject was that I certainly didn't mean to but we all must remember one very important thing about the boards...it's not real life.

That being said....

All I can really say about my job is that I work in theatre...but I'm NOT an actress (at least not anymore). But it doesn't stop me from being a little melodramatic...as you can see by my first post in this thread.