I am cursed in love.

[Guest]

Tonight I hurt two men who had been dear to my heart...one more than the other...and, despite I know there is nothing I could say that is worthy enough, I hope that one can find it in his heart to forgive me. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be allowed happiness. Everytime someone gets close all they do is get hurt. I don't do it on purpose, but I think I do it unconciously(sp?). It's pathetic... I could share any "personal" sexual thing about myself...to strangers even, but I have trouble opening up about my feelings. I have been hurt so many times that I have built up a wall of defense around my heart, and whenever someone gets too close they get hurt. I pray that it doesn't happen this time. I think I could really be happy with this man if I let myself, and it scares me. Anyway, sorry ya'll for ranting here. Once again, I apologize to the man I hurt.

~Lindsay



(Flame away trolls...I am done.)

 

[Jeff726]

Me still loves you, Lindsay. *kiss*

I know how it feels to be hurt in love all too well.

Anytime you need a friend I am here for you.


Love Ya,


Jeff

 

[R Nitelight]

Tiggs

Not troll here. Just a sympathetic friend saying been there/done that.

 

[Nobody Special's wife]

TIGGS

My Dear you know that people says things out of fear not meaning to hurt the ones they love!!! I know this from experience...Eric has a hell of a time with me because I don't show emotion all the time I'm here If you need me

 

[Mackdaddy_74]

Sorry to hear it,Lind.If you need to talk,you know where to find your Co-Mod.

 

[SimplySouthern]

Linds~

With a heartfelt apology such as that....any man would be a fool not to forgive you.

Often, when talking with someone face to face or over the phone(chat would be the same I assume) I forget the important things I want and need to say. I say write the man a nice letter or email and take the time to say all the things you need and want to say.

Sometimes the risk is worth it.

If you need to talk...you know where to find me, Sweets.

 

[Ravenloft]

Linds, I love you. There is nothing short of... Well... You know... That you could ever do to change my love for you. And I know that you would never do such a thing to me. The only thing I fear is not being there to show you how much I love you and losing you to someone else... Its happened before, I don't want it to happen again...

 

[Guest]

Thank you all for listening...

And, Jason, I am still sorry about the events of the night. I love you too. I guess I hadn't realized how serious all of the events were, and I'm sorry that you had to find them out in the manner that you did. If it takes more than just this one life with us together, I will make it up to you somehow. You have been a Godsent and a mountian of strength for me this past week. You have shown your love for me time and time again. :*o) I would be honored to someday be your wife...

 

[dj74]

oh god linds please don't leave me i love you more then anything

 

[Nobody Special]

HUGGS to you Tiggs I know some of how you are feeling.. and you know I'm here if you need some one to talk to.. Huggs and Kisses to you..

And yes Tiggs, the Wife can be very cold and emotionless at times. But I have done something for her that no one else has been able to, showing her her own emotions again.. and being patiant with her and learnign about her and being able to read her emotions, even tho she hides them extreamly well.. I guess I just know where to look for them.. and YES she does press some buttons to see how far she can go till I break and I know you are doing that too (but not to me) and I know that Jason is a very patiant person and tho he hides his emotions very well too, I can also read them too, BUT TIGGS... You have to remember Jason is also a SURVIVOR too...

AS FOR dj74.. please make sure you know what your getting into b-4 trying to make a joke out of some thing that is not to be joked about.. PLEASE...

E



[Edited by Nobody Special on 11-13-2000 at 07:57 PM]

 

[Guest]

Eric, thanks. He's not making a joke. He's the other one whom I mentioned in my first post...

 

[Nobody Special's wife]

If you ever need anything I'm here
And no matter what you have a friend for life

love christy

 

[Nobody Special]

Ok thank you Tiggs.. and I do appologise to you dj74.. Just looking out for the freinds that I have.. Hope that there are no hard feellings

 

[Sammyjo]

Oh no....look what happens when all I think about is sleep and not my friends. I spilled it to you the other night, I expect the same

I know we have just recently gotten to know each other, but I value your friendship. If you ever need anyone to talk to, just call on me...I'm here for you.


*Mental note to self: Send picture of rapidly hardening nipples to Tiggs to cheer her up*

 

[Ravenloft]

If you did Sammyjo, she would grin from ear to ear! HEheh!

 

[Sammyjo]

I tried to get her to ask last night, but she didn't...don't want to force the old girls on anyone

 

[Guest]

Sammyjo...

Damnit girl! Send those nipples to me now!

 

[Guest]

P.S.

Thank you all to those who "listened", and especially to those who posted back. With the exception of four, it looks like those who responded were Ravenloft's friends... Coincidence? I don't know. Anyway, I am thankful to get the events of last night squared away and dealt with. Like I said said, I never meant to hurt either one of them...and I'm thankful that the one I truly love forgave me. I love you Jason. http://smilecwm.tripod.com/net2/smlove2.gif

 

[Guest]

I can sympathize with you!