Humiliation, by order of my mistress

[wanna_be_dyke]

FIrst time poster

My mistress has ordered me to put my humiliating journals up, so people can read them, knowing how embarrasing it will be...so here they are

http://wanna-be-dyke.livejournal.com/
http://chrissesslut.livejournal.com/
(they contain many gay themes and crossdressing)

 

[myinnerslut]

you will find that this isnt the sort if thing lit is usually used for, and the responses may be varied.

 

[wanna_be_dyke]

I apoligise then, I thought it would be all right if I put warnings and whatnot. I only really did it because I was ordered to, and I shall find someone else next time

 

[Etoile]

Oh lordy. You're a biological male, right? I'd be real careful using the word dyke. The word is kind of important to some of us.

 

[Adakgirl]

So you find it humiliating and embarrassing being a cross dresser and about having gay fantasies? I will read your links...I may have it wrong.

Nope, I was right you don't find it humiliating or embarrassing at all. How could you be humiliated and embarrassed by total strangers reading your journals when in your journal entries you write about how you are supposedly put on display by your mistress in front of a live audience? Because you don't express any embarrassment about that at all. Is your mistress a real person? Seems to me that your service to her, your punishments from her, your communication with her...almost everything revolves around you getting what you want, or complaining that your not getting what you want or begging to get what you want.

This "punishment" of being allowed to ejaculate but not allowed to orgasm. I am a bit confused on this. A male can certainly learn to hold back and control his ejaculations for long periods of time before release. But have you been taught or have you taught yourself orgasm control as well? I am curious about this .

I can keep myself from having an orgasm because I have been taught to do that by being denied. But I have yet to learn to cum on command and I don't see how could I possibly masturbate without getting some enjoyment from it, whether I am allowed to orgasm or not. I simply could NOT not enjoy it. Did that make any sense?

 

[Etoile]

If you're not enjoying it, is it really masturbation? Seems like it would be just playing around with yer parts.

 

[Adakgirl]

I agree. But I don't think thos poster is going to come back to answer my questions...I think all of this is pure fantasy made up shit.

 

[pinky_love]

can ya cum without having an orgasm? is that not just leaking

i read one of the journals too, quite good i thought but i thought it was fiction was it supposed to be true?