How has your mind wandered through the years

[dodgeboy2]

I'm a 65yo who had a lot of mm sexual encounters in my early years before settling down and marrying, my wife in the early years sucked my cock well (by far not the best but also nowhere near the worst either, only issue for me is she isn't a swallower) and for short time allowed me anal access which I think kept my mm cravings buried deeply. After a while the blowjobs ebbed until there were none which was ok but shortly after her allowing anal just stopped on day. Sex was still good with her and she has kept herself in very good shape and does crave both receiving oral from me until she orgasms then missionary sex most times until I do, sometimes I am lucky and she takes the top and rides me but those are very few and infrequent. I spoke to her about her abstaining from providing me anal and oral several time but to no avail saying she just doesn't want to anymore.

Sorry to make this post so long but my mind since this started had wandered to gay/bi/trans porn more and more as I crave another's cock & ass so very much, I won't call it an addiction but man it might just be getting close.

So the question, where has your mind wondered through the years?

 

[widereceiver]

You probably should consider yourself lucky that you and your wife still find each other sexually desirable. The desire I had for my wife dwindled and eventually died some time ago. She’s still my best friend and we share many things together but sex is not one of them now. I’m not sure if it’s accurate to say my mind wandered. Maybe. But I think I did make a conscious decision to just follow my sexual feelings wherever they took me. Once I discarded all of my defense mechanisms which protected my belief that I was straight, it became clear to me that I was gay. This didn’t happen overnight— far from it. I resisted admitting it to myself for a long time but it was just inescapable. Now I wouldn’t consider that my mind wanders around until I think about gay sex. There’s no wandering. It’s just there. I’ll fall asleep tonight thinking about sex with a man and I’ll be thinking about the same thing when I wake tomorrow.