How did you start?

Let_it_come

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These stories could be good to share.

I was always a Daddy's girl. I loved spending time with him & we would watch old war films together. I always used to feel funny after scenes with stereotypical German officers interrogating the heros in different ways. The attitudes of the officers portrayed made me feel really tingly & I would blush. Later in my room I would remember the scenes and play with myself using my hairbrush. I felt no shame about this, but I knew that this was a pleasure that I must keep secret somehow. Time passed & I saw more films & I began to seek out films which showed cruelty because I enjoyed them. I honestly have no idea where this love of cruelty comes from.
My father has a number of WWII curios. One is a German dagger which I used to secretly masturbate with because I associated it with the evil I had seen in our film watching together. I was fascinated by the dagger and would kiss it and run the handle all over myself always ending with it fucking me or sodomising me while I Jilled away. I liked to think that I was blessing it & it's evil in some way.
Later I graduated to boyfriends and have played with the dagger with the boys sometimes if I thought that they would understand. With my current b/f a trip to my parents is never complete without dagger play - he cums on it & I suck it etc. the things you can do with it are endless & for us fascinatingly sick & buzzy.
I've struck lucky with my present SO, but I have encouraged him & maybe even trained him to an extent. Previous B/Fs all took much more training.

So that's how I started as a Sadist. The Sadistic feelings seem to be wired into me and I learned to secretly enjoy them and then share that pleasure with those I loved if I thought they could take it.
How about you?
Were you born a Sub or a Dom?
What's your story?
How did you discover your sexuality?

As always with me - Join in only if ya wanna -

Jenny

(I MISS THAT KISS!!!) :D
 
I started pretty unaware. In fact I wrote a story about it here at lit -- "The New Year's Surprise" -- click on the link in my siggy. I was going out with this young man, and he took me by surprise down the path I have been on now since I was 18. I've never looked back. There is no way I could ever be in a vanilla relationship (purely vanilla).
 
shy slave said:
Oh FFS

Use the damn kiss. :rolleyes:

Here's some spare ones
:kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss:

Now back to your usual posting....

Happy to kiss you all!
... You do know that I like 'Golden Snowballing' don't you?
Pucker up!!

:kiss: Jen.

S'good to be back! ;)
 
Damn, this is tough to answer.

Mainly, it's tough because I went through so many stereotypical "awakenings" before actually being in a relationship where kink became a component.

Y'know, there was the babysitter who indulged my Houdini aspirations (Now that I'm an adult, I wonder about her, especially her knowledge of ropework and tie-ups), the schoolteacher I had a crush on (this was in a state and in a time when teachers could spank kids - and she did...), the usual BS. All of which didn't create or start my interest in such things, it simply gave them focus, let me acknowledge them and think about them.

There was a relationship I was quite some time ago, where we wrote down our fantasies, stuffed 'em in a hat, and pulled them out to read them. It was some goofy couples building exercise from a women's magazine. Well, maybe not too goofy; we spent a lot of time tying each other up and spanking each other's asses, until the relationship flew apart for unrelated reasons. I suppose that was my "Start".
 
Let_it_come said:
Happy to kiss you all!
... You do know that I like 'Golden Snowballing' don't you?
Pucker up!!

:kiss: Jen.

S'good to be back! ;)

Oh God why did I give you those damn :kiss: back.

I hate myself now

:(
 
I think from the stories so far you can see that we are all inately the way we are. God knows why!
Discovering the names for our feelings & being able to focus on what it was we wanted sexually seems to be the common way we started & then began to explore.

As somebody who enjoys Sadistic feelings the usual assumption is that I was abused or disciplined too much as a child. That I was 'taught' to love in a perverted way. Either that or that Sadism is a pathalogical condition needing treatment. Not so. I come from a very loving family.
I believe Sadism to just a part of human nature which some have more than others. That's all. Everybody could potentially be mildly Sadistic in the same way that they could be mildly Masochistic (although I've yet to discover my inner Masochist! Being hurt just makes me want to hurt back even more!).

I'm sure that equally Doms & Subs are just 'born that way', yes?
Although I would be interested the stories of how you came to realise that that was what you were.

S'interesting, is all.

:kiss:
 
saw_man1 said:
You are so weak.

I know, I know

I just couldn't stand it anymore.

I railed about the use of kisses then can't take the consequences when she doesn't use them.

*bangs head even more on desk*


Now off to eat chocolate which further proves your thory of my being weak

Damn, Damn, Damn
 
graceanne said:
Chocolate? Did I hear someone say chocolate? :nana:

Do you get Green & Black's Organic in the States? They do fantastic ice-cream too...
Oh and Roccoco down the King's Road is wonderful for choc. also -
What's the best U.S. choc.?

:kiss:
 
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