High School Crushes.

[Angel]

All through high school, I had the biggest crush in the short span of my life on my best friend. He was funny, sexy as hell, sweet, loyal and I could talk to him about everything - except for the fact that I was head over heels in love with him.

He was always there for me when I was down, when a guy dumped me or when I just needed to talk and I would have rather never tell him how I felt and ruin the friendship than to risk losing my best friend in the world. The first two years after high school we kept in touch and hung out and then for the three years after that we just sort of lost touch.

A few weeks ago I caught up with him via E-mail and we've been out a few times, and he calls at least every other day if not more just to talk. Well that was also the person I broke my self imposed 6 months of no sex with a week ago.

It's weird - three years and when we saw each other again it was as if we'd never been apart. He's still the person I can laugh with and act stupid with and not worry about looking silly. And the crush is STILL THERE DAMNIT. I don't know why I'm even posting this, I think I'm just venting and confused as hell about what to do. He's my friend and I'm still scared to death of losing that. I didn't realize how much I missed that in him until I saw him again after three years.



Okay I'll shut up now.

 

[bluntforcemama]

I know that feeling.... and I started dating my best friend when I was in highschool, but alas, we couldn't make it work. 5 years.... and then we had to take separate paths. But it was worth those 5 years. He'll always be one of my best friends, and hopefully the GodFather to my children. I wouldn't trust anyone else to raise my children than him and myself and future spouse.

 

[Willing and Unsure]

here's a thought...

if he's your friend, then he should be ok with you telling him how you feel... especially if you can tell him anything. and besides that... do you really want to go through the rest of you life wondering what might've happened? i got some good advice recently on a very similar topic... and i'm glad i took it... but here's the advice... do you want to go through life having said sumthin and know the truth, or not said sumthin and wonder forever if there ever could have been anything? for all you know, maybe he has the same feelings and doesnt want to say anything to you for the same reason

 

[Mistress]

As I told you before Angel, I'm happy you guys are together. From what you've told me he sounds like a really good guy.

 

[Tabby432]

No advice...

Just, Oxly Rodriguez...thank you Angel! Haven't thought about him in years.

 

[scylis]

high school crushes? had.. ok, HAVE one on my Precalc teacher.. she was fresh out of college and smart.. funny.. beautiful (to me, at least).. and.. i may have been imagining things, but a few times, when i actually tried to pay attention, whenever she would answer a question from my side of the room, she'd look at me and our eyes would meet and.. i stopped paying attention, b/c i'd get all red in the face and..excited..b/c thoughts would fill my head of bending her over that transparent projector and.. well..
in order to pass the class, i needed to get a perfect on this last little project (semi-research paper on a famous mathematician) and it would be graded on a curve: the best one is an A and the basis for grading.. mine was far from the best, and i stammered and stumbled when giving a little summary to the class before handing it in.. yet i still got a perfect grade on it.. and i passed..

 

[Angel]

We're not *together*. I don't enter into romantic relationships lightly or easily - I never have. I put alot of thought into them before I go for it if at all. I'm not willing to waste my time until I'm sure something is what I want and is right for me rather than just a warm body for convenience. Often, I miss out on things because of my unwillingness to enter into it until I am sure in my heart that it's right - but I figure if he can't wait then he wasn't right for me and what I believe in anyway.


And he knows how I am.

 

[unusuallyconfused]

To be five years out of high school again, hmmmmmmmmmm. I am starting to feel ancient. Sounds like you have a wonderful friend. I would think that is a great prerequiste to a relationship. It seems like a very logical step.

Barbara

 

[Angel]

Some people just aren't what I need - no matter how much I like them. And if they can't wait until I get to where I need to be to enter into a relationship then I know that they are definitely not what I need.