My Dom and I got in a tiff over the phone... and when we hung up, I masturbated to orgasm, out of pure spite. By doing that, I broke one of his most important rules, NO CUMMING WITHOUT PERMISSION. I started to feel guilty because I don't like to be deceptive so I called him back and confessed. Also, I can't lie to him, I just can't, and I knew he'd ask me whether I've been good once he got back from his hunting trip, so I would've had to confess anyway and he has a policy that if I admit any rule-breaking to him RIGHT AWAY the punishment won't be as severe. He didn't tell me what he was gonna do, but I'm in so much trouble and I know it. But it's not even the punishment that's causing me the anxiety, it's his dissappointment. What can I do to even slightly redeem myself? Or what would you do in my situation?
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What can I do to even slightly redeem myself?
Well, its already a given you accept you screwed up so I won't even bother with that....the first step in redeeming oneself is admitting you messed up. This often comes about through acknowledging "guilt" over something you did or didn't do. Since you state you felt guilty and admit you did wrong, you are past this point...
The second step is confess it. When you have done something you know is wrong against someone else, you can either keep quiet about it and live with the guilt, or you can confess it and hope the other person is willing or open to forgive you. To be sure there is risk involved here that the other person will not forgive, however, this risk must be taken "IF" you want to show that you are sorry about what you did and you have a correct attitude in wanting to make right what you did wrong. In other words don't confess someting if your not willing to do what it takes to make it right, such as "Accepting punishment". Since you have already fessed up to wrong doing....you have already taken a step in redeeming yourself, as based off how your Dom has put into effect the "earlier-the-better" rule...if he is a Dom of his word, then he will take that into consideration.
Third step - Giving time and being patient. Right now you are full of anxiety and just want the whole thing to be done and over with...yet you must give your Dom time to absorb and access the damage you have done, to your relationship and to him. Besides making him angry, you must realize that disobedience is also a form of rejection of him and his authority. This could be very hurtful to him.
So the first piece of advice here is settle down. What's done is done, and part of the consequenses of your disobedience is to have to wait.
The fourth step will no doubt be some form of appropraite punishment with some discussion. This is also part of the consequences of your actions.
second piece of advice, prepare yourself to accept your punishment with grace and dignity. this shows you are willing to take responsibility for your actions which is always an important aspect of any healthy relationship.
5th step would be him giving forgiveness and you accepting it. Meaning once he forgives you, you need to let go of your guilt and trust in his forgiveness and put it in the past. Part of accepting forgiveness is to also make a promise that you will do your best not to let this happen again.
third piece of advice, be ready to accept his forgiveness by letting go of the guilt and be ready to make a promise to do your best not to let this happen again....(i.e....I have learned my lesson Sir, I will do better.)
Or what would you do in my situation?
If I were you....I would be waiting at the door when he walks in..naked and kneeling face to the floor...with a note attached to you that simply says,
I know I have done wrong and I am sorry. I await your punishment, guidance and forgiveness as you choose."
or something along these lines.
Hope it works out for you...good luck.
Well, its already a given you accept you screwed up so I won't even bother with that....the first step in redeeming oneself is admitting you messed up. This often comes about through acknowledging "guilt" over something you did or didn't do. Since you state you felt guilty and admit you did wrong, you are past this point...
The second step is confess it. When you have done something you know is wrong against someone else, you can either keep quiet about it and live with the guilt, or you can confess it and hope the other person is willing or open to forgive you. To be sure there is risk involved here that the other person will not forgive, however, this risk must be taken "IF" you want to show that you are sorry about what you did and you have a correct attitude in wanting to make right what you did wrong. In other words don't confess someting if your not willing to do what it takes to make it right, such as "Accepting punishment". Since you have already fessed up to wrong doing....you have already taken a step in redeeming yourself, as based off how your Dom has put into effect the "earlier-the-better" rule...if he is a Dom of his word, then he will take that into consideration.
Third step - Giving time and being patient. Right now you are full of anxiety and just want the whole thing to be done and over with...yet you must give your Dom time to absorb and access the damage you have done, to your relationship and to him. Besides making him angry, you must realize that disobedience is also a form of rejection of him and his authority. This could be very hurtful to him.
So the first piece of advice here is settle down. What's done is done, and part of the consequenses of your disobedience is to have to wait.
The fourth step will no doubt be some form of appropraite punishment with some discussion. This is also part of the consequences of your actions.
second piece of advice, prepare yourself to accept your punishment with grace and dignity. this shows you are willing to take responsibility for your actions which is always an important aspect of any healthy relationship.
5th step would be him giving forgiveness and you accepting it. Meaning once he forgives you, you need to let go of your guilt and trust in his forgiveness and put it in the past. Part of accepting forgiveness is to also make a promise that you will do your best not to let this happen again.
third piece of advice, be ready to accept his forgiveness by letting go of the guilt and be ready to make a promise to do your best not to let this happen again....(i.e....I have learned my lesson Sir, I will do better.)
Or what would you do in my situation?
If I were you....I would be waiting at the door when he walks in..naked and kneeling face to the floor...with a note attached to you that simply says,
I know I have done wrong and I am sorry. I await your punishment, guidance and forgiveness as you choose."
or something along these lines.
Hope it works out for you...good luck.
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RJMasters said:What can I do to even slightly redeem myself?
Well, its already a given you accept you screwed up so I won't even bother with that....the first step in redeeming oneself is admitting you messed up. This often comes about through acknowledging "guilt" over something you did or didn't do. Since you state you felt guilty and admit you did wrong, you are past this point...
The second step is confess it. When you have done something you know is wrong against someone else, you can either keep quiet about it and live with the guilt, or you can confess it and hope the other person is willing or open to forgive you. To be sure there is risk involved here that the other person will not forgive, however, this risk must be taken "IF" you want to show that you are sorry about what you did and you have a correct attitude in wanting to make right what you did wrong. In other words don't confess someting if your not willing to do what it takes to make it right, such as "Accepting punishment". Since you have already fessed up to wrong doing....you have already taken a step in redeeming yourself, as based off how your Dom has put into effect the "earlier-the-better" rule...if he is a Dom of his word, then he will take that into consideration.
Third step - Giving time and being patient. Right now you are full of anxiety and just want the whole thing to be done and over with...yet you must give your Dom time to absorb and access the damage you have done, to your relationship and to him. Besides making him angry, you must realize that disobedience is also a form of rejection of him and his authority. This could be very hurtful to him.
So the first piece of advice here is settle down. What's done is done, and part of the consequenses of your disobedience is to have to wait.
The fourth step will no doubt be some form of appropraite punishment with some discussion. This is also part of the consequences of your actions.
second piece of advice, prepare yourself to accept your punishment with grace and dignity. this shows you are willing to take responsibility for your actions which is always an important aspect of any healthy relationship.
5th step would be him giving forgiveness and you accepting it. Meaning once he forgives you, you need to let go of your guilt and trust in his forgiveness and put it in the past. Part of accepting forgiveness is to also make a promise that you will do your best not to let this happen again.
third piece of advice, be ready to accept his forgiveness by letting go of the guilt and be ready to make a promise to do your best not to let this happen again....(i.e....I have learned my lesson Sir, I will do better.)
Or what would you do in my situation?
If I were you....I would be waiting at the door when he walks in..naked and kneeling face to the floor...with a note attached to you that simply says,
I know I have done wrong and I am sorry. I await your punishment, guidance and forgiveness as you choose."
or something along these lines.
Hope it works out for you...good luck.
Ditto what he said. Don't lie, confess, and accept. Also, don't beat yourself up! You're human, you make mistakes. If your dom is expecting perfection, then he's gonna be really disappointed. And quite frankly, being honest about it will go a long way. It's not like he would find out otherwise, so he knows your repentant when you TELL him. *hugs*
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graceanne said:
Can't I am too tired...I have to get some sleep time.
Besides I only know how to two-step...
Step 1: I step on the dance floor
Step 2: Make a fool of myself
I just skip the dancing and drink beer. The only time I dance is when I have drunk enough beer that step 2 doesn't seem to matter all that much anymore.
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RJMasters said:Can't I am too tired...I have to get some sleep time.
Besides I only know how to two-step...
Step 1: I step on the dance floor
Step 2: Make a fool of myself
I just skip the dancing and drink beer. The only time I dance is when I have drunk enough beer that step 2 doesn't seem to matter all that much anymore.
*sigh* The story of my life. lol Probably god telling me to go to bed. I just hate to sleep whenI feel this good! *pouts*
Yes, but the girl has to do all the actual dancingRJMasters said:Can't I am too tired...I have to get some sleep time.
Besides I only know how to two-step...
Step 1: I step on the dance floor
Step 2: Make a fool of myself
I just skip the dancing and drink beer. The only time I dance is when I have drunk enough beer that step 2 doesn't seem to matter all that much anymore.
The guy just holds her ass 
Well, I know why I did it. I did it out of spite for him and it was a very bratty and childish thing to do (even though children generally don't masturbate to get back at people... at least I hope not...). When he comes home, I'll be kneeling at the door in his favorite outfit (I would be naked but he's never ordered me to be naked before he got there so maybe he likes to watch me undress), freshly shaved, chores done, ready to kiss his feet. I'm not exactly fond of kissing feet and he knows this so for us it's a particularly distinct demonstration of submission.
Still though, I'm feeling pretty nervous. He won't be home for a few days and I know I'll spend that whole time running over every way he can possibly punish me in my head.
Why did I have to go and be disobedient? Before he left he gave me a short list of rules I had to follow in his absence (do the laundry, X amount of cigarettes a day, no cumming, etc) and I promised myself that I would be REALLY good so that he can be proud of me when he came back and I was doing a pretty good job too until I just HAD to screw it all up last night. Oh well, you're right RJ, what's done is done. No use to waste time and pout over it, especially since it wouldn't be a terrible idea to squeeze in a few extra chores. *Maybe* he'll throw me a bone if I have the place spotless for him.
WELL, I'm off to get some stuff done now. Thank you for your advice RJ and Netzach.
Still though, I'm feeling pretty nervous. He won't be home for a few days and I know I'll spend that whole time running over every way he can possibly punish me in my head.
Why did I have to go and be disobedient? Before he left he gave me a short list of rules I had to follow in his absence (do the laundry, X amount of cigarettes a day, no cumming, etc) and I promised myself that I would be REALLY good so that he can be proud of me when he came back and I was doing a pretty good job too until I just HAD to screw it all up last night. Oh well, you're right RJ, what's done is done. No use to waste time and pout over it, especially since it wouldn't be a terrible idea to squeeze in a few extra chores. *Maybe* he'll throw me a bone if I have the place spotless for him.
WELL, I'm off to get some stuff done now. Thank you for your advice RJ and Netzach.
