PollySays
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A closed thread for LitShark.
Gardner, Kansas. 1947.
Her Daddy always said she was a pretty thing. Told her she has the looks of her Momma. Told her someday, she'd make a pretty little wife and a pretty little Momma of her own.
Daddy sure talked nice when he didn't have the booze.
When he had it, the words weren't so nice. He talked with his fists over his mouth, and he was surely talkative at those points. His hands had many a lecture on her face, on her body. Left her a crying thing in the corner of her room, wondering what it was that she did to get it.
She missed her Momma something fierce. Everyone praised her Daddy as such a brave man, such a proud man, raising a girl like her on his own. He would talk about how it could be lonely. How he missed so many things they used to do together.
Some things, he didn't miss too much anymore. Marie was used to relive them.
Ideas would come to her head. Maybe I can join Momma. Wouldn't be too hard. Maybe I can find myself a man. Be that pretty little wife. Maybe I can just run away forever.
Marie liked that last one pretty nicely. Run away forever. Going to Momma seemed a rather final choice. Marie liked too many things here. Daddy made it hard to remember that, but she had her fair share of things to miss. And didn't Father Ganigan say that suicide was a sin? That meant no Momma. Marie didn't want to be left to the pits of Hell. Daddy reminded her of the Commandments every time. Honor thy father. Commandments of Daddy. Shut your pretty little mouth.
She had heard of kids running away to join the circus. Escape the life they hated so much to become someone who had no rules, no worries. Simply be a happy face, make others smile. Now why wouldn't something like that be appealing? Marie liked to smile. She liked to see others smile. Hard to do that with a bruising eye. A broken finger. Others didn't smile at things like that. They acted like they didn't even see you.
Surini Brother's Circus. A pretty poster, spread across the grocer's window. Marie had stared at it the whole time Daddy talked to Mister Moore, awed by the vibrant colors promising a weekend of events beyond that of the wildest imaginations. Events too amazing to be real, it screamed in the brightest of blues. Feats to remember for a lifetime.
Why just remember? Marie wanted to experience them forever. A clown's smiling face had to be a better sight than her Daddy's leer every morning.
She begged his permission to go to the show with her friends, waiting until the alcohol purchased had left the man in that nightly haze. Daddy's bedtime ritual. Agreement. Leaving Daddy to pass out in his chair, she returned to her room, planning her escape. Daddy was a good man, when he wanted to be. But the drinks made him so hard to live with. The beatings, worse. The fondlings, pure hell. And what came after. Marie refused to let stay in her head.
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The tent was huge, so much bigger than she imagined, as she and her friends made their way to the fairgrounds. A billowing cloud of yellow and red, waving in the breeze with its flags and streamers, calling everyone to come and see. Marie was actually enjoying herself among this, two friends joining her with smiles of their own, a trio of girls set upon spending a day in laughter.
One with intentions of staying.
That tent was the main attraction, but it's surroundings were full of acts of its own, vendors calling out foods and trinkets. Smaller shows vying for attention, promises of the unique and the strange, sights one would never forget and even the most daring of minds would recall in shock. Certainly not things of Marie's interests. Why on Earth would anyone even want to view such horrific sights?
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Marie O'Hara Age 18