The Nitelight
Literotica Guru
- Joined
- Oct 3, 2001
- Posts
- 592
......... I'll just say fare thee well.....
Life takes some funny turns, doesn't it?
You cruise alone for 37 uneventful years, and you resign yourself to a long and uneventful lifetime.
One thing's pretty certain, though.
You're going to die alone, and no one's going to miss you.
Then, you buy a computer.
You go on line.
You wind up here.
And everything changes.
You meet someone.
You find someone.
And you have a truly miraculous year.
She's a million miles away.
And somehow, though tentitive plans are made, she never gets any closer.
Just knowing she's in the world changes everything.
There's endless hesitation before closing your eyes at night, but finally a reason to open them in the morning.
You start to see possibilities.
Maybe the world doesn't have to end with you.
But you always thought it would.
That's why being a failure never bothered you.
But now you have to make something of yourself.
For her.
And the next generation.
The personal growth I've experienced this year has been astronomical.
I started getting out more.
I started taking care of myself.
And I got a job.
Low paying and menial, perhaps.
But steady.
And something that a future might be built on.
It was like something out of a storybook.
And they all lived happily ever after.
Sitting here typing this, I know more than ever that we are going to live happily ever after.
It just might not be together.
There's a fork in the road, and right now we're taking different paths.
We're still communicating, but we're not together anymore.
There is great sadness and great heartbreak on both sides.
But it was good.
And it was significant.
And tribute must be paid.
The ultimate tribute, I feel, is to continue the personal growth.
To become the man I wanted to be for her.
Keep working hard.
Keep saving money.
Maybe jumpstart the writing career again.
It's going to be hard work.
And it's not going to leave me much time for this place.
Which is not the true reason I'm leaving (possibly) forever.
The truth is we've carved our initials on too many of the Literotica trees.
Everything about this place reminds me of her, and of what we nearly had.
Besides. It's a little cramped here now, and I think she needs you more than I do.
Keep an eye on her.
She's still precious to me.
Good thing I only write short, snide posts, huh?
So, I guess this is goodbye.
(Oh, like you'll really miss me. When's the last time I made a list? Huh? HUH??????? )
I'd like to thank most of you for your tolerance.
I'd like to thank some of you for your friendship.
And I'll see you when I come crawling back.
Love,
The Nitelight
Life takes some funny turns, doesn't it?
You cruise alone for 37 uneventful years, and you resign yourself to a long and uneventful lifetime.
One thing's pretty certain, though.
You're going to die alone, and no one's going to miss you.
Then, you buy a computer.
You go on line.
You wind up here.
And everything changes.
You meet someone.
You find someone.
And you have a truly miraculous year.
She's a million miles away.
And somehow, though tentitive plans are made, she never gets any closer.
Just knowing she's in the world changes everything.
There's endless hesitation before closing your eyes at night, but finally a reason to open them in the morning.
You start to see possibilities.
Maybe the world doesn't have to end with you.
But you always thought it would.
That's why being a failure never bothered you.
But now you have to make something of yourself.
For her.
And the next generation.
The personal growth I've experienced this year has been astronomical.
I started getting out more.
I started taking care of myself.
And I got a job.
Low paying and menial, perhaps.
But steady.
And something that a future might be built on.
It was like something out of a storybook.
And they all lived happily ever after.
Sitting here typing this, I know more than ever that we are going to live happily ever after.
It just might not be together.
There's a fork in the road, and right now we're taking different paths.
We're still communicating, but we're not together anymore.
There is great sadness and great heartbreak on both sides.
But it was good.
And it was significant.
And tribute must be paid.
The ultimate tribute, I feel, is to continue the personal growth.
To become the man I wanted to be for her.
Keep working hard.
Keep saving money.
Maybe jumpstart the writing career again.
It's going to be hard work.
And it's not going to leave me much time for this place.
Which is not the true reason I'm leaving (possibly) forever.
The truth is we've carved our initials on too many of the Literotica trees.
Everything about this place reminds me of her, and of what we nearly had.
Besides. It's a little cramped here now, and I think she needs you more than I do.
Keep an eye on her.
She's still precious to me.
Good thing I only write short, snide posts, huh?
So, I guess this is goodbye.
(Oh, like you'll really miss me. When's the last time I made a list? Huh? HUH??????? )
I'd like to thank most of you for your tolerance.
I'd like to thank some of you for your friendship.
And I'll see you when I come crawling back.
Love,
The Nitelight
