Have Any of You Females or Males Dealt With...

[MaddyBaby]

An eating disorder of some type? I was wondering if any of you fellow Literoticans have or are dealing with such a disease.

I have, and do.. considering it isn't something that ever really goes away.

If it's too personal a question, then it's okay... but I was wondering if anyone else could relate.

Mads

 

[riff]

I don't have an eating disorder.

But I was just telling a friend that I think I have become OCD about this place.

 

[ExLimey]

I have but probably not to the degree or in the direction that I'm assuming you mean.

I have a problem of snacking when I get bored. If I'm busy I can go all day without eating, but if I'm bored I can't seem to go more than an hour.

About six years ago I weighed about 265 lbs and today I'm down to around 195. I follow a diabetic diet (cut way down on carbs) and I've been that low for the last year and a half. It's probably the most difficult thing I've ever had to do. It is still about 95% mental. If I eat and don't feel satisfied mentally, I can continue eating all night. Then I have to deal with the guilt I what I did. How I combat this is to not have any snacks in the house and/or chew gum.

That's probably not what you had in mind but I realize what a hold food can have on some people.

 

[MaddyBaby]

Eating Disorders can be over eating as well... I mean, it maybe not as common as Anorexia Nervosa, or Bulemia, but... it does happen quite a bit.

It is a mental thing... and the snack syndrome? Yeah, I can relate with that.

As for you Riff... you poor dear. OCD isn't good either.

 

[freakygirl]

I was anorexic starting at the age of 9...

my parents dealt with it by sending me to my grandmas house to live (she had a huge farm, and cooked like the older southern woman that she is). I was fattened up (cured in thier eyes) and sent home.

I'm still fat.. and "healthy" looking according to the older generation of my family..

I'm still struggle with the "eating".. I prefer not to do it.. but in my older and wiser years.. I know that isn't how to fix it. I am seeing a counsler, eating right and exercising.

Maybe someday I'll have control of it...instead of it having control of me..

I lack self esteem big time.. ask anyone on the board that knows me..

 

[ExLimey]

I lack self esteem big time..

I know what that's like. I'm 70lbs lighter and people tell me I look great, but I still feel like 265 lbs inside.

 

[MaddyBaby]

I agree Perky, and thank you for sharing your story. I've been Anorexic for 6 years myself... and right now, I feel pretty in control... but I also know that it -can- take over my life again.

It IS a disease, and you don't just get rid of it one day... it's something you deal with for life... whether it being a driving force in your life, or just something small in the back of your mind.. - it's there.

I, too, have a self-esteem problem... even though it may seem I do not. I haven't been around long enough on the boards for anyone to discover that, I don't think... but I dunno. But, seriously Perky... some people think by "making a person look "healthy again" means they are cured... I definitely can relate to this sentiment.

 

[SweetBrat73]

Eating Disorders can be over eating as well... I mean, it maybe not as common as Anorexia Nervosa, or Bulemia, but... it does happen quite a bit.

It is a mental thing... and the snack syndrome? Yeah, I can relate with that.

As for you Riff... you poor dear. OCD isn't good either.

Over eating is more common than ppl think it is. Anorexia and bulemia just get more attention because ppl kill themselves more with it. Over eaters usually die slower...they get bad hearts and high cholorestoral(sp?) and an number of other problems.

Where ppl with anorexia and bulemia are treated as having an eating disorder, ppl that have problems with over eating are usually treated for the other health problems that come from over eating. That isn't helping them either. They have to change the way they eat, what they eat, and why they eat so much.

I've never had an eating disorder and I hope I never do, but I've seen what these problems have done to other ppl and their families. I wish all of you that have one of these disorders all the best...it's a long hard road. I applaud your effort and hope you keep up the good work


Brat

 

[MaddyBaby]

Thank you very much for your input and comments, Brat. Very informative about the over eating info.

It is hard dealing with a disorder, and the sad thing is, many people never admit to themselves they have one.. or even acknowledge it, until it's too late and they have some kind of damage.

Anyway, thanks again Brat.

Mads

 

[Azwed]

My exgf was bulemic/Aneroxic all through Middle School. She didn't do it much if all in HS, but about a year ago she started being bulemic again. She won't admit it but we were still together then and I sort of saw the signs.

She is doing better now. She still does not eat as much as she should and all the under-eating has changed her digestitive system. She has a very hard time digesting fat or protien now.

Her family screwed her up so much and thats where most of it comes from. She is obssesive compulsive and a perfecitonist because of them too.

That makes her run so much that it fucks her up even more.

 

[Phoenyx]

When I was younger I had an eating disorder. I never ate and I was very underweight. I had to be hospitalized at one point and take pills to make me eat.

After a while I syatred eating but not after some agony on my parents part and hosptital visits.

 

[Aphrodisiac]

I don't know if it would fall under eating diorders but I also share that "snack" syndrome... then I will also go thru a period where food just in general will not call out my attention and I will go days without eating ... but I don't think its serious.... during those time I am suffering some stressful situation.

 

[KillerMuffin]

When I was in the Navy I was on the fringes of two eating disorders. One was bulimic and I don't know which of the two the other had. There was a total of 407 people in that command from the CO on down to the newest recruit off the plane. Out of 407 people 2 of them were starving themselves to death. It made me really angry because they only thing the command did was make sure these two women were fattened up enough to pass along to the next command. They never initiated counseling procedures. They never initiated a medical board. They never did one damned thing to help these two women beyond ignore the problem until they were too underweight to transfer when their time came. Then they used methods like confinement, forced feedings, and non-judicial punishment to make them fat enough to get passed on. I'm sure that once they reached their new duty station they returned once again to their "normal" eating routines until it was time to rotate out to a new command. Then they were fattened the same way. It pisses me off because it's the CO's job to take care of his sailors, and that includes their health. The man dropped the ball. It happens far too often because people don't know how to deal with these things so they make them an SEP. (someone else's problem for non-Douglas Adams fans).

 

[riff]

Thank you very much for your input and comments, Brat. Very informative about the over eating info.

It is hard dealing with a disorder, and the sad thing is, many people never admit to themselves they have one.. or even acknowledge it, until it's too late and they have some kind of damage.

Anyway, thanks again Brat.

Mads

What about thinking it is normal? Some people don't change their behafviors because they do not see the behaviors as normal or something that needs to be changed.

 

[MaddyBaby]

True, Riff... which can be taken also as acknowledgement. As much information, stories, shows, news reports, movies and other programs related to it... it's easy to pick out the symptoms.

For the person who has the disease, it's true that sometimes they don't see it... and until they do see it.. nothing can be fixed.

Good point.

 

[alltherage]

I have never had an eating disorder. My problem was drugs and alcohol so I know a bit about compulsive self destructive behaviors. Self image, and worth would seem to be the connective thread between these problems. I shudder now at some of the people, place and things I was associated with at one point in my life. What truely frightens me looking back is just how comfortable I was in hell.

 

[DustyWolfe]

I was seriously anorexic for about 6 years. I'm not really anymore because I force myself to eat. No one would be believe it now though because I'm fat lol. My dr put on Depakote because of my living situation and I gained 75 pounds. The first 40 was in a little over a month's period of time.

How do I not give in?
I remind myself that I am only doing my body more harm than good and that this is a bad thing. I try to remember that it makes for a serious speed bump in most relationships. Even friends get sick of it eventually....

 

[KillerMuffin]

Oh my gawd, I hate depakote. I'm on it for epilepsy and the first time they stuck me on it I ballooned 20 pounds in about a month and half. It makes me apathetic as well so it's a friggin' pain in the ass. I finally managed to kill all the extra depakote weight in 8 months, it was about 30ish pounds I think, and then I got slapped back on it last month. I've gained 5 pounds in two weeks. I don't have an issue with my weight, though. For someone with past issues with weight that's got to be horrible to deal with. Have you discussed this with your doctor? Can you get a new one? I know that, depending on your condition, gabapentin (neurontin) can be an alternative to depakote. However, I am not a good one for medical advice, I'm just an inmate here. Ask the doc.

I went hunting for meds the other day because I'm getting off the ones I'm on if I have to superglue the doc's hair into a french braid. I typed in my condition the meds I'm on into the google and did a little surfing.

 

[alltherage]

I have had many battles with meds in my life. Once a long time ago I found myself in an emergency room. I was a little wacko at the time and the er doc ordered a nurse to give me vitimen H. My mom worked in hospitals for years so I knew he meant Haldol. I went more completely off because at that very moment I was feeling as though I was surely mad. I was restrained and loaded up with that crap and the experience has stayed with me for years. That incident was one of my moments of clearity that led eventually to my getting out of the cycle I was in.

I wish everyone who shared on this thread strength and hope and peace.

 

[fgarvb1]

if i don't lay off the cookies, cola, and candy i am going to have donelap disease.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Can't take Neurontin because I'm hypoglycemic and have a bad family history of diabetes. Neurontin will turn an hypoglycemic into a diabetic.
I have the feeling though that once I get out of my situation I wont need my meds

I still fight anorexia every day though. Some days it's all I can do to eat anything. I at least make sure I drink juice or something.

 

[Sabineteas]

No eating disorders for me, but like Alltherage, I drank too much and was a user. It took me a long time to realize what I was doing to myself and why.

I don't use anymore and if I drink it's one glass of wine. But it took a long time to get off alcohol and drugs. I don't consider myself an alcoholic, but I am an addict, just one that doesn't have drugs. If they were around me, I can tell you I would be so tempted. It's something that I won't ever get rid of, the knowledge that I can't use anything just once.

 

[sigh]

my son is autistic and i've tried several meds to help him control his behavior which has been violent at times...the first was buspar and over a couple of months i saw him turn into an eating machine...he forehead would bead with sweat and he'd stare off with glassy eyes as he wolfed down anything he could lay his hands on

i took him off that against the doctor's advice...in fact, i never took him back to that doctor again because he insisted it wasn't the drug that was doing this

not long ago his new doctor and i decided to try a medly of meds...one of them is risperidone, a new generation antipsychotic with a documented impact on weight gain, and sure enough, my son began to pack on the pounds but i was reluctant to stop the medication because his behavior is better than it's been in years...so then we added a stimulant to help him focus and to control the eating

god i hate that...using one drug to control the side effects of another, but things are going better now, so we'll see

unfortunately the damage is done, he's only ten years old and 5'1" and now weighs over 165 pounds...hell he's an inch taller than me but outweighs me by 70 pounds...i'm scared for him...really scared

 

[DustyWolfe]

Sigh,
There are a few drugs that can be taken without the major side effects to control weight. They aren't stimulants either, or at least the one I am thinking of. It's called Topamax, you might ask about it. Sometimes they can give Ritalin or Concerta with certain drugs.

I hope this helps
Dusty

 

[Vinny]

Bulemia

I was so insensed about getting back in the military that I became bulemic. Now I no longer do that.