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I'm into SPH, I genuinely get turned on by it. It wasn't always that way though.
I wasn't aware penis size was really a "big" deal until I think my early teen years. At the time we had the internet by then and all used it, but I wasn't really looking up penis size statistics or anything at that point. It was still pretty new at that time. But we did start talking about it among friends. None of us new what a normal size was, big or small, or what it was supposed to be when we became adults. What I do remember is, all of us boys were liars and we were all universally "6 inches" long lol.
I obviously knew I wasn't that long, I'm not sure when I first measured, but I definitely knew I wasn't 6 inches long. I wasn't embarrassed or anything at the time, because I was still growing and just assumed I'd grow up into an adult with a huge penis!
I didn't start having reservations about my size until closer to the end of high school. I didn't want to be seen flaccid, definitely not completely flaccid, because I didn't want anyone to think I was small. And I still lied about penis size, because by then I knew average and that I was smaller than it. Yet, I didn't feel like I was lying, because I hadn't accepted that I was already as big as I would get. It was also easy to fool myself, because my sexual experience was limited until I was much older, so there weren't any women to confirm one way or another.
However, in the year after I had finished high school, I started checking out statistics online and comparing. I had a couple experiences where I was partially exposed or nearly exposed, that got me thinking about my size more critically. I realized I was done growing and started to measure without cheating or rounding up. I was a little disappointed at first, but that lasted a short amount of time. It didn't take long before I was getting turned on by it. I satisfied it by comparing myself to the statistics and the like. It took me a long time before I found SPH. I had been into humiliation with my fantasies ever since I had started masturbating. So it's no surprise I found my way to SPH.
So for me, I guess it was weird. Until I accepted I was small, I would have probably been embarrassed to have had my size exposed. When I finally KNEW I was small, then the SPH kicked in! At that point, I was embarrassed about my SPH kink, but not ashamed my penis was small.
What was your experience? Were you ashamed about being small at first and it evolved into a kink? Was it always a turn on? Are you regular size or big, but it became an extension of your existing humiliation kinks?
I wasn't aware penis size was really a "big" deal until I think my early teen years. At the time we had the internet by then and all used it, but I wasn't really looking up penis size statistics or anything at that point. It was still pretty new at that time. But we did start talking about it among friends. None of us new what a normal size was, big or small, or what it was supposed to be when we became adults. What I do remember is, all of us boys were liars and we were all universally "6 inches" long lol.
I obviously knew I wasn't that long, I'm not sure when I first measured, but I definitely knew I wasn't 6 inches long. I wasn't embarrassed or anything at the time, because I was still growing and just assumed I'd grow up into an adult with a huge penis!
I didn't start having reservations about my size until closer to the end of high school. I didn't want to be seen flaccid, definitely not completely flaccid, because I didn't want anyone to think I was small. And I still lied about penis size, because by then I knew average and that I was smaller than it. Yet, I didn't feel like I was lying, because I hadn't accepted that I was already as big as I would get. It was also easy to fool myself, because my sexual experience was limited until I was much older, so there weren't any women to confirm one way or another.
However, in the year after I had finished high school, I started checking out statistics online and comparing. I had a couple experiences where I was partially exposed or nearly exposed, that got me thinking about my size more critically. I realized I was done growing and started to measure without cheating or rounding up. I was a little disappointed at first, but that lasted a short amount of time. It didn't take long before I was getting turned on by it. I satisfied it by comparing myself to the statistics and the like. It took me a long time before I found SPH. I had been into humiliation with my fantasies ever since I had started masturbating. So it's no surprise I found my way to SPH.
So for me, I guess it was weird. Until I accepted I was small, I would have probably been embarrassed to have had my size exposed. When I finally KNEW I was small, then the SPH kicked in! At that point, I was embarrassed about my SPH kink, but not ashamed my penis was small.
What was your experience? Were you ashamed about being small at first and it evolved into a kink? Was it always a turn on? Are you regular size or big, but it became an extension of your existing humiliation kinks?