gurl sub seeks direction

[iwillmindU]

hmmmm, ok, well i guess if i come here, go away, come here, go away, i'm not certain that is lost, but i think i need to be shown my true path. (do i say it?) i'm 47, and 5'8" 149, and evolving slowly into who i am; on hormones and becoming, i think, much easier to deal with than in my youth. Having not been in bonds for a while, i'm not sure if i will struggle against them or not. i am still sassy, still love that single-tail, and the cane, but i have never sought punishment. i'm not sure if i will ever find the best person to lead me but i know that they are looking for me, because finding that good secretary and vacuum person is not easy these days. Or real nymphomaniacs; which are not common either.

Master or Mistress is really unimportant; i think that ability and experience trump all. i have been enjoyed by many and controlled by few. i am always not necessarily difficult at first, just unsure of what is expected of me most of the time. Those who have owned me have only been bi or lesbian Mistresses, because i am a gurl in an unconventional sense. Not having been owned by a Master, i don't know what would be expected by one, but i have been played with by several, and some of my very best experiences have been having a Master use that single tail on me. i don't know, i think that i was just extremely lucky to have gotten the chance to enjoy it.

i am no one's slave, i really am a submissive. i have a mind of my own, and use it for the benefit of the One who is everything to me. I am not looking to cam, have unending forever email exchanges or phone sex with any person; these things are for those who can't or won't commit to a real relationship with someone else for reasons that are unimportant. i promise you are not going to find anyone who can vacuum a home in 5 or 6 inch heels better than i can. i don't cook well at all, but i make up for that by how long i can go in the bedroom. i am not an active person sexually; medically, i have never been able to be, for reasons that i will explain to someone when it matters. i don't screw anyone, i am the screwee .

i guess that it is because i am so responsive that those who have owned me always wanted to share my bottom with a trusted friend, and those experiences were always the most fun. What is interesting with one person is just awesome with two; you never know what is going to happen and when, and it's so exciting! (yes, i am smiling really big)

i know this person is here. i know this because i can feel it. They kick back and read things here with amusement, interest, and inquisitiveness. But, like any exceptionally experienced person, they have a keen eye, and are forever paying attention to those things that flash light in their eyes momentarily; they will stop, and look closer.

i hope that now you will stop, and look a little closer. is this where i take my clothes off?

 

[iwillmindU]

wow, it sure is quiet in here; is everyone to busy sucking each other off or what?

 

[strangedaze]

So you want to give yourself completely, to feel the freedom of letting someone else control you, their desire flowing through you, pounding into you, possessing you?

 

[iwillmindU]

hmmm, is that what that is?

 

[strangedaze]

hmmm, is that what that is?

i guess not, at least not for you, what is it for you?

 

[iwillmindU]

well i can only tell you how it is for me, and no two people are alike...when i am chained to the bed of the One most important to me, there is no higher place that you can attain; that is the status of being an owned slut. To simply be in the presence of the One who watches over you is everything, and to be apart is torment; a living hell. Giving your all can never be enough, because more is expected of you, and to be watched and observed means that you have their attention, which is good, but you could be in trouble also.

To suffer strictly to suffer is to be abused. To suffer for the pleasure of another is a higher calling, and not all can fulfill it. Most people who think they are Dominant do not have the control over themselves enough to control me. It takes a strong person to use a single tail on me and not cut me to ribbons. All that i know is that i speak from the heart, and being submissive has nothing to do with sex. you give of yourself to please, and it is in the act of pleasuring the One who you are there for that is the greatest reward that you can receive, in my opinion.

 

[tonyp]

hmmm

to give yourself - to do what you r told, to perform at their request. I have use for you - you would be looked after treated well but you have to earn your supper

 

[iwillmindU]

to give yourself - to do what you r told, to perform at their request. I have use for you - you would be looked after treated well but you have to earn your supper

Well Tony, it's like this:

I know my value, and

Want and need are not the same thing. If you don't need me sufficiently in your life, I don't want to please you.

 

[iwillmindU]

i decided to give my post a bump just to keep the bi-curious guys off the top lol

AGAIN hahahaha

 

[iwillmindU]

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[iwillmindU]

What is it that many people say?

Friends first, then lovers, then...I think that friendship is the true bond that holds a relationship and keeps it strong. When you are in a place with someone you love, and you KNOW that very few, if any people have stood there ever, and you are with that special person, it is like a snapshot in your mind; it never leaves you, never goes away. I guess that's why I enjoy doing landscape photography so much. I always seek out places that are untouched and pristine to take the photos that have become my favorites, although I think that I have not arrived through this particular form of art where I could end up, with the appropriate effort. Do you like to go to mountaintops, lush meadows, dense forest, the ocean; places like these? If so, we have much in common, on far more than just a personal level. For many years, I don't know, I guess all of my life, I have hoped to find someone that enjoys these things, too. Like the other things I have mentioned in my posts, I know they are here. Perhaps this is too intimate, maybe perhaps this is something that they have done with a former love, maybe someone that they lost; because it is exceptionally intimate, and not something that you can just do with anyone. All that I know is that this is something that I want to do throughout the remainder of my life, on a full time basis, at some point in time in the future, and if this really speaks to the core of your person, talk to me, let's get to know each other in depth. It might be the best decision that you ever made.

 

[iwillmindU]

Don't be a stranger...

Tell me your thoughts and if any of what I've written strikes a chord with you...

 

[iwillmindU]

jealous boys are so funny

 

[djs9164]

Replay

xxxxx

 

[iwillmindU]

I am 44 year old Top male. Dom at times who just adores gurls. Yes I konw the term. If you want to chat I am on yahoo maxthedog9164. Lets see what happens.

yum maybe; I guess that depends on if you actually check your yahoo thingy