I have one like that and I'll never publish it anywhere again because it's very much based on real life. I wrote it for me. Posted it for a little while, then took it down. I wanted people to fucking *hate* the MFC for her poor behavior because it was 100% my poor behavior towards a friend. I was young, stupid, and incredibly afraid of someone actually being genuine in their care for me, because if the care is real and not just about getting something from me, then I have something very real to lose. I still struggle with that.
So, writing out the worst experience of my life is probably also the worst edited thing I've ever done because I was writing it through tears and am tearing up thinking about it now. I don't regret writing it. I do regret ever posting it.
The thing I don't regret posting is the letter that went along with it. That one I wrote fully numb.
