Adoratrice
Inculpable
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- Aug 14, 2000
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Have you ever gotten in your car and just drove away...with no destination?
My husband & I are going to keep the children out of school tomorrow, fill up the tank,throw 2 days worth of clothes in a bag and see how far we can get before we have to turn around and come back to reality......or not,might just keep driving. I have a very real feeling that there is something out there that I am supposed to be seeking, doing ,knowing. I can't stand one more day in this house/social prison.....putting on aires, pretending to be fulfilled and happy, driving my minivan and singing Girl Scout songs.
Is it just spring fever ?......I don't think so.
Is it my upcoming birthday ?......perhaps, more so the wisdom and unrest that comes with age.
I can actually feel something building inside me telling me it is time to make a major change in my life...I want to sell my house,find a wonderful little old farm house where I can plant a garden ,I want to take my children out of the school system that is so desperatly failing them in every conceivable way,I want to teach them about life instead of having to explain the death that is surrounding them.
I want out.
I have what some would see as the perfect life.Take it I never asked for it and I don't want it. It's not mine.
Have you ever felt this way?
My husband & I are going to keep the children out of school tomorrow, fill up the tank,throw 2 days worth of clothes in a bag and see how far we can get before we have to turn around and come back to reality......or not,might just keep driving. I have a very real feeling that there is something out there that I am supposed to be seeking, doing ,knowing. I can't stand one more day in this house/social prison.....putting on aires, pretending to be fulfilled and happy, driving my minivan and singing Girl Scout songs.
Is it just spring fever ?......I don't think so.
Is it my upcoming birthday ?......perhaps, more so the wisdom and unrest that comes with age.
I can actually feel something building inside me telling me it is time to make a major change in my life...I want to sell my house,find a wonderful little old farm house where I can plant a garden ,I want to take my children out of the school system that is so desperatly failing them in every conceivable way,I want to teach them about life instead of having to explain the death that is surrounding them.
I want out.
I have what some would see as the perfect life.Take it I never asked for it and I don't want it. It's not mine.
Have you ever felt this way?