Forgive Me

[jaF0]

A. Doctors are assholes.

B. Hell returns with each sunrise. And moonrise.

C. See the first line of my Sig.

D. Fuck this world.

 

[sirhugs]

A. Doctors are assholes.

B. Hell returns with each sunrise. And moonrise.

C. See the first line of my Sig.

D. Fuck this world.

this is not a medical issue per se.

and I always find Hell to open its mouth in the dusk....

 

[Zeb_Carter]

this is not a medical issue per se.

and I always find Hell to open its mouth in the dusk....

Gee for someone who wasn't going to be around much...

 

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Gee for someone who wasn't going to be around much...

Was it Michael Corleone who said "they pull you back in..." ?

I am now back to fighting form. Not great, but not, I hope, spewing depression and anxiety all over forums meant for fun...

 

[jaF0]

The spirits of the earth
Are so hungry for justice they cry
And the spirits of the sun
Are lined up on our side and they cry

In a crisis we cut away
What we don't need anymore
In the good times we fight our way
We fight our way inside

In a crisis we cut away
What we don't need anymore
In the good times we find our way
We find our way back home

- In A Crisis - Jefferson Starship

 

[sirhugs]

The spirits of the earth
Are so hungry for justice they cry
And the spirits of the sun
Are lined up on our side and they cry

In a crisis we cut away
What we don't need anymore
In the good times we fight our way
We fight our way inside

In a crisis we cut away
What we don't need anymore
In the good times we find our way
We find our way back home

- In A Crisis - Jefferson Starship

lovely, thanks

 

[Zeb_Carter]

Was it Michael Corleone who said "they pull you back in..." ?

I am now back to fighting form. Not great, but not, I hope, spewing depression and anxiety all over forums meant for fun...

Good to hear. Now if only I could write some words to add to all my stories I have languishing on my harddrive.

 

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Good to hear. Now if only I could write some words to add to all my stories I have languishing on my harddrive.

I can send you a few words if you need some.

200 words per day, or more, even when I was in the pit.

Of course, I wasn't writing while I was going through the acute phase of my illness so had a year and a half gap.

 

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I can send you a few words if you need some.

200 words per day, or more, even when I was in the pit.

Of course, I wasn't writing while I was going through the acute phase of my illness so had a year and a half gap.

so new story idea:

Two Lit writers collaborating virtually, get hot & horny. soon masturbating as they work. Then masturbating over Zoom together. Do they eventually meet up? Does hilarity ensue?

 

[CuttingEdge]

so new story idea:

Two Lit writers collaborating virtually, get hot & horny. soon masturbating as they work. Then masturbating over Zoom together. Do they eventually meet up? Does hilarity ensue?

Oh I lived that...

I never met her, but in some ways it was the IDEAL relationship, and I miss her dearly.

 

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Oh I lived that...

I never met her, but in some ways it was the IDEAL relationship, and I miss her dearly.

maybe writing about it would help- I often do that. Usually it works.

 

[Zeb_Carter]

I can send you a few words if you need some.

200 words per day, or more, even when I was in the pit.

Of course, I wasn't writing while I was going through the acute phase of my illness so had a year and a half gap.

There were days when I was typing more than 5,000 words a day, now *crickets*. Some days I could pump out 10,000 or more.

I still have the words in my head. I can hear them. Now though, they just don't seem to want to come out. I did have a change of one of my meds as I was suffering from acute insomnia. It may be time to see my Dr. about different one again.

 

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There were days when I was typing more than 5,000 words a day, now *crickets*. Some days I could pump out 10,000 or more.

I still have the words in my head. I can hear them. Now though, they just don't seem to want to come out. I did have a change of one of my meds as I was suffering from acute insomnia. It may be time to see my Dr. about different one again.

My insomnia gives me more time to write. Mind you mine is untreated...

I copied my approach from some famous writer (forget who know) who explained "It is my job to sit at my desk until I write 100 words each day. Sometimes |i write more, but I do not get up until I write 1000. Sometimes they are good words, sometimes I throw them out... " (my paraphrase from memory)

It helps my depression to accomplish just that little bit. doing it first thing makes it easier to feel that the day is a success no matter what else (doesn't) happen (s).

 

[CuttingEdge]

I struggle with insomnia so bad too.

It is not that I cannot go to sleep: I can do that anywhere and any place, as I could even fall asleep on a roll of barb wire I think, it is that I wake up after only a few hours.

I have seen doctors for it, but they feel it is affecting my health, and I think my health is causing it. I mean I do have a tumor on my brain and lymphoma. I think it is the latter in any case because I do not just wake up...I wake up with a burst of adrenaline, like some murderer just woke me up with a knife to my throat. An instant, heart-pounding suddenly full-awake feeling.

I get that every night about 1:30 AM. Sometimes I go back to sleep after a few hours, and nights like tonight, I can't.

 

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I struggle with insomnia so bad too.

It is not that I cannot go to sleep: I can do that anywhere and any place, as I could even fall asleep on a roll of barb wire I think, it is that I wake up after only a few hours.

I have seen doctors for it, but they feel it is affecting my health, and I think my health is causing it. I mean I do have a tumor on my brain and lymphoma. I think it is the latter in any case because I do not just wake up...I wake up with a burst of adrenaline, like some murderer just woke me up with a knife to my throat. An instant, heart-pounding suddenly full-awake feeling.

I get that every night about 1:30 AM. Sometimes I go back to sleep after a few hours, and nights like tonight, I can't.

Mine is related to the ostomy. Like you, I get to sleep easily, but I have to get up a few times a night to drain my pouch. Sometimes I get back to sleep, but lately, not so much. I decline medication because insomnia is better than a burst ostomy device.

That led to my Insomnia story ideas thread.

I figure if nothing else, there is a Story Idea on the meta side about a Lit author who cam't sleep but ha writer's block, so sits at the keyboard. Gradually, fantasies arrive...or are they real?

 

[CuttingEdge]

Mine is related to the ostomy. Like you, I get to sleep easily, but I have to get up a few times a night to drain my pouch. Sometimes I get back to sleep, but lately, not so much. I decline medication because insomnia is better than a burst ostomy device.

That led to my Insomnia story ideas thread.

I figure if nothing else, there is a Story Idea on the meta side about a Lit author who cam't sleep but ha writer's block, so sits at the keyboard. Gradually, fantasies arrive...or are they real?

I fully understand then...

As for a story idea, I am not sure if this works for anyone, but near me there was a guy that got insomnia, and who was a pilot. So he would fly his small plane to New York City, a few hours by plane, and then go into the ghetto areas at midnight and watch all the crazy people walk through the all-night dinners there. He said he saw a lot of crazy stuff.

Myself, I think he had a prostitute fetish, but do not know that for sure. Either way, it could be a story idea.

 

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I fully understand then...

As for a story idea, I am not sure if this works for anyone, but near me there was a guy that got insomnia, and who was a pilot. So he would fly his small plane to New York City, a few hours by plane, and then go into the ghetto areas at midnight and watch all the crazy people walk through the all-night dinners there. He said he saw a lot of crazy stuff.

Myself, I think he had a prostitute fetish, but do not know that for sure. Either way, it could be a story idea.

You say "prostitute fetish" like it's a bad thing.

As opposed to a Story Idea in its own right.

 

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My problems have returned. Nothing fatal but problematic. I don't know if I will be posting or not.

Just want you to know if I'm not here I am okay, sort of.

 

[JJA122]

Wishing you good fortune.

 

[Carnevil9]

Best of luck, SH. Do what you have to do. We'll be here when you are ready to return.

 

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the situation has stabilised. I am trying to resume regular posting. Will see the lost time kills my contest entry getting done before the deadline, as RL continues to be annoyingly busy.