For DH

[redelicious]

Anyway, how Does one get from idea to actuality? From play to the real thing? I seem to do it only Accidentally. So Frustrating!! Having gotten 'there' a few times, I Know it can be done, I know we can do it, he doesn't seem to be resisting any of this, and in fact, Loves some aspects but... it's like pushing a car to get it started, it feels like, while someone else steers and turns the key and sometimes it catches but I can't seem to get this baby rolling fast enough to get it running!

*sigh* I can so sympathize. Mind if I lurk here to see if you ever learn the answer?

 

[sunfox]

I've missed your rambling thoughts, Phoenix.

 

[Phoenix Stone]

Gonna seriously ask to have 'But I digress...' engraved on my tombstone when I die. (Nope, not gone to heaven or hell -- off on a tangent instead.)

(I've missed you, too, Sunfox. )

I've missed your rambling thoughts, Phoenix.

 

[Phoenix Stone]

You are most welcome. Be nice if Somebody gets some use/answer out of this!

(Feel free to post any thought/suggestions/ramblings of your own here, too. I mostly started this here as a self-imposed containment of meanderings, cuz of a tendency to go off on this self-involved tangent on other people's threads, and wishing to not annoy by doing what i need to do. But anyone else is welcome to say whatever they feel like. I'm not as picky as some about staying on topic.

And even if I'm blathering on about my own problems, it's nice to know it's not in a vacuum, frankly. Kinda feels more hopeful.

*sigh* I can so sympathize. Mind if I lurk here to see if you ever learn the answer?

 

[phoenixstone]

hmmph.... yup, what the hell....

Reviving my old whiney thread, at least for the moment. (wish I could have my old av back.)

Is Sunfox still around? And redelicious and...

well, as it turns out, I dunno. Looks like I stopped posting and left literotica a couple of weeks before deciding to get divorced.
(Do we think first and our actions follow or the other way around?)

Need to read back and see if I ever told here the reason I decided to stop trying. (Non-proclivities-related.) Gonna look before posting because dh has taken to reading my posts and I don't want him to feel sad.

but it would be really, really nice to have someplace to go to tell stuff. (kinda like a blog, I guess.) And no, AA et al, I don't wanna see a shrink. Never worked for me anyway. Action does.

What action is the question.

Hugs to anyone who remembers me (even if you thought I was a pain in the butt )



Ps. there's just something about not having it rolling around in your head that helps. Not very Zen-like, but there it is. Better than feeling like you are in a locked ward in your own head. Better than the horror of taking to the PTA/soccer-mom types I'm mostly around in rl. Singing loud, alone in your car, can only take you so far....

Nice thing is no one has to read it, but it's not just one more place to be alone.

(I'd change the title if I could so newbies would have a better idea before opening the thread, and not waste their time.)

Yup, a place to be as truly sad as I am, and be a pervy exhibitionist about it at the same time. What could be better than that?

Nothing, I say, except the frosting on the cake of being able to use repellent smilies like this one at the same time. (So which do you think is ickier? smilie-frog? dancing-banana? eek-face?)

Ooh, I'd forgotten how much I'd missed giving a:

 

[rosco rathbone]

Carry on.

 

[phoenixstone]

Carry on.

Thank ya, Sir.

I'd plant a big, wet one right on your (probably quite hairy) toes, but that would Surely raise the ire of Him-From-Whom-I'm-Planning-To-Be-Soon-Divorced

-- Not that we won't be still living together....

...And uh, Dh, Sweetie? Do I Have to get spanked for this?!
Remember I'm Not a painslut? Right? DON'T like pain. (Well, maybe a little biting....)
Just like a little ds now and then, remember?
Ya know, discovering your Inner-Dom right as I'm leaving... AND discovering that He likes to spank, is really Not Fair!

I mean that tieing me up and shaving me thing was cute -- doesn't a razor feel sensual there? -- and oh, I Do like to be forceably made to give head while my hands and feet are tied -- embarrassing as I still find the idea --

...but the spankings when I flirt or talk online in a way you don't like has Got to Go...! (ooch, my butt is getting sore already in anticipation. think I'll go take a hot soothing shower. byee.)

Who said that just because you're getting divorced you can't keep it fun?

(And do we even HAVE a smilie for that kinda attitude??)


edited to get that g-d-damn banana outa there

 

[phoenixstone]

note to self...

include the above in Chapter Four of the "Idiot's Guide To Online Sammying (no rl experience required)"

Chapter 4. Two at Once: Or How to Sammy at Both Ends.

 

[phoenixstone]

...And Miss Taken, Beloved, Luna, Innerdarkness -- still around? Mr. Blonde is gone, right? My pal, BridgeBurner?

Hmmm, went over to the pics thread and didn't recognize very many. 'S ok.

'G'Nite, anyone out there.

kisses and hugs for those who need them. Gonna go cuddle now.