newbiegirl
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- Jan 16, 2005
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Hi all,
As you can see I'm new to Lit. I've read the stories online here for a few years running and never posted before because there was never any reason to. A friend of mine (and one of my six other housemates!) sort of seduced me and I don't really know where to go from here.
It started a few weeks ago with a few jokes and, being as naive as I am, I wasn't sure if there was something to it until tonight - after a few shots in the bar – when she had me pinned against the wall and was kissing me... Suffice it to say we moved to her room but I just wasn't willing to follow through. There was enough heavy petting and a little finger action, but it ended there.
So this is the problem:
I wasn't comfortable to take my clothes off. I'm 22 and have never really been with anyone. I spent some time on the streets and had a few run-ins, which have left me more than a little nervous and uncomfortable in 'personal' situations. I've also put on a bit of weight in the last year or so since my brother passed away in March of '04. To top it all off, having had a number of bad experiences, I've never even given myself an orgasm, or tried.... (Super personal, I know, and am sorry - but I really don't know what to do.)
Point being that I have no real idea to make her feel good, am not presently comfortable enough to proceed farther, and we live in the same house so there's no avoiding the situation. To top off the thin walls, our five other housemates are always around to it's hard to talk or 'feel'
things out. Professionally, I'm not a shy person, but personally, I can be brutally so.
I really don't know what to do, but I'm well aware of the fact that something will happen regardless. I do find her attractive, and I know that she got me drunk for the sole purpose of fooling around, but she expects me to be comfortable with taking things all the way now (with her having had at least a few boyfriends). Also, with my brother's death, my other brother being diagnosed with the same condition, and my niece(4) and nephew(7) now without a father and living in a one-room motel with my wonderful sister-in-law a few provinces over, I'm not exactly emotionally stable right now.
So, to finally conclude this rant, with everything else, a full course load, working part-time at the bar, and my housemate looking for a good time - I'm feeling a little unpleasantly fucked.
I'd really appreciate any help or advice you could offer, and I hope I haven't wasted anyone's time with this posting.
Thanks for reading.
t
As you can see I'm new to Lit. I've read the stories online here for a few years running and never posted before because there was never any reason to. A friend of mine (and one of my six other housemates!) sort of seduced me and I don't really know where to go from here.
It started a few weeks ago with a few jokes and, being as naive as I am, I wasn't sure if there was something to it until tonight - after a few shots in the bar – when she had me pinned against the wall and was kissing me... Suffice it to say we moved to her room but I just wasn't willing to follow through. There was enough heavy petting and a little finger action, but it ended there.
So this is the problem:
I wasn't comfortable to take my clothes off. I'm 22 and have never really been with anyone. I spent some time on the streets and had a few run-ins, which have left me more than a little nervous and uncomfortable in 'personal' situations. I've also put on a bit of weight in the last year or so since my brother passed away in March of '04. To top it all off, having had a number of bad experiences, I've never even given myself an orgasm, or tried.... (Super personal, I know, and am sorry - but I really don't know what to do.)
Point being that I have no real idea to make her feel good, am not presently comfortable enough to proceed farther, and we live in the same house so there's no avoiding the situation. To top off the thin walls, our five other housemates are always around to it's hard to talk or 'feel'
I really don't know what to do, but I'm well aware of the fact that something will happen regardless. I do find her attractive, and I know that she got me drunk for the sole purpose of fooling around, but she expects me to be comfortable with taking things all the way now (with her having had at least a few boyfriends). Also, with my brother's death, my other brother being diagnosed with the same condition, and my niece(4) and nephew(7) now without a father and living in a one-room motel with my wonderful sister-in-law a few provinces over, I'm not exactly emotionally stable right now.
So, to finally conclude this rant, with everything else, a full course load, working part-time at the bar, and my housemate looking for a good time - I'm feeling a little unpleasantly fucked.
I'd really appreciate any help or advice you could offer, and I hope I haven't wasted anyone's time with this posting.
Thanks for reading.
t