First Experiences

[Pachet]

Age 11. I read Salem's Lot, and there was something about the vampires...after I read the book, I fantasized about a vampire coming to my window, demanding to be let in, and biting me. I'd envision it over and over, changing the scene a bit. In the fantasy he'd bite me, and it would hurt, but then I'd become "his". That always felt so good, the thought that I was his property now, submissive (although I didn't know that word in a sexual sense at the time) to him, doing his bidding. In the fantasies he'd be mean to me sometimes, but not overly cruel, and he appreciated that I was his loyal... pet, I guess. That's the first really D/s thing I remember fantasizing about.

 

[Marquis]

When I was 12 I wrote a story about being a rich and powerful man who would rape women in his limousine. My mom found it and was utterly horrified. I don't know what possessed me to write that, but mom was not happy. As a kid I would tie up my sisters and this also horrified my mother although I didn't know why, we were just playing and had no sense of the mature implications of the game.

When I was 17 I started dating a girl who read noncon stories on Lit and showed them to me. She expressed a desire to act out some of these fantasies and we went for it. Of our earliest experiences, for some reason the one I remember most:

I locked her out of her house naked. She looked so skinny and vulnerable and pathetic and tugged at the door in a mocked up act of desperation. It was incredibly arousing and I have been a dom all of my entire life and nothing else will ever satisfy me.

 

[MeekMe]

When I was 12 I wrote a story about being a rich and powerful man who would rape women in his limousine. My mom found it and was utterly horrified. I don't know what possessed me to write that, but mom was not happy. As a kid I would tie up my sisters and this also horrified my mother although I didn't know why, we were just playing and had no sense of the mature implications of the game.

When I was 17 I started dating a girl who read noncon stories on Lit and showed them to me. She expressed a desire to act out some of these fantasies and we went for it. Of our earliest experiences, for some reason the one I remember most:

I locked her out of her house naked. She looked so skinny and vulnerable and pathetic and tugged at the door in a mocked up act of desperation. It was incredibly arousing and I have been a dom all of my entire life and nothing else will ever satisfy me.

That's hot, Marquis )^o^(

I haven't heard much from the dominant POV so this is wonderful! Thanks!

 

[bigwarwood]

I, at an early age, was not shy with showing a submissive side. That changed as I matured, but the personal realization of that element was never forgotten or hidden. I had male and female lovers. Some played with that part of me, at least those that recognized it. Had a girlfriend that enjoyed fingering me and I enjoyed her comments while doing it. It's unforgettable to hear, that's it, now do you want the fourth one. Another turning point was when my spouse, on that day, showed a true desire to take me with gusto, I still remember the point when she was working it like few ever had and I just exploded and uttered, fuck me baby, make it yours and she said, like this bitch, and showed a level of no mercy that bound us forever. That was another moment of realization and self awareness in what I wanted and loved and could tap and let others tap, lol. But enjoying a switch, it is somewhat fulfilling to see a tear track from the corner of her eye and hear her say, make it hurt!

 

[nicole001]

okay this is a bit an introduction of me First time here, so if I share too much, just let me know

I had a relationship with an older man for quite some time, started when I was ~18, he was 30. It lasted almost 10 years. Initially we had very good vanilla sex. Then after a year he started to try new things, he bought sexy clothing for me and shoes. He was very proud of me and he said he wanted to try that I dressed very sexy and went shopping in Rotterdam (I remember well). He would then walk 20 meter behind me and look how others looked at me. That was a huge turn on for him and for me too. I always feel it as a big compliment when men look at you.
(It is the same when you are in a sauna, when a guy next to you gets an erection, that the biggest compliment; guys can tell you a lot of bullshit and lies, but when a guy gets an erection by looking at you, that is the biggest honest compliment you can get).
Anyway, months later he asked me to dress sexy at home, when his friends came for watching football, and that was supersexy, especially as I saw how proud he was for me. We did this several times, and the attention I got was great!
Then for my holiday I got a breast enlargement from him and that was super!
After some time he asked me if it was okay if his friends could see the result, so again when they came over, dressing sexy, i showed them my boobs, they even touched it. This was for me a sensation, looking at my friend peter being very proud when his friends touched me, and feeling very desired. It also felt great to do what he wanted. At this point the D/S started for me. Next time his friends came I had to show more, it took only a month when his friends touched me everywhere and it was followed by sex. Peter mentioned to me that it really turned him on to see me have sex with other men. I felt it very exciting to "be given away" to others for sex. I started to look on the internet and created my own fantasies. One is to be naked, handcuffed, collared and brought on a leash to a group of men that can do what they want.
Unfortunately Peter did not like bondage, and my fantasy became so strong that it hampered our relationship and it is now over.
So not a good ending and not really a BDSM experience, though I thing that being given to other men for sex has a D/S aspect

 

[LucyH]

I read a terrible book with more plot holes than plot, but the sex was fascinating. There was a girl who was the "pet" of a couple of affectionately sadistic vampires. I thought, "I want to be her. Only without the stupid plot."

Except that sort of thing (ignoring the vampire part) just doesn't work for me IRL, and since I got the confidence to be the one on top, that's what I've wanted more often than not.