Figuring out my little kinks

[Raven6766]

Figuring it out

I have always had a feeling that I was different and liked different things. For me getting tied up as preteen play was a turn on.
I joined Lit for the stories and found that I like enjoyed and read several of the BDSM threads and really started to feel that I could explore more. After a bad experience with one dom, I found a dom who provided a good experience. I left him for marriage, but it is a vanilla relationship that I am looking at leaving now.
I came back to Lit and have realized and decided that a sub is truly who I am. It not only suits my personality it is where I am most comfortable.
I have also found someone, a dom, who I know will nurture and help me grow there.

 

[littleautumn91]

Acctually, I am new to the Daddy side of thing...

I hang out a lot on Twitch, in the we hours of the morning, due to night terrors, there I am part of a comunity, and well respected. I had been repressing my Dom side for my wife (read beat down and depressed) and started talking another damaged soul (I have White Knight Syndrome), when she told me she was both a little and a kitten. We discussed bondage, and because of my experience with puppies and ponies, I could relate. The more we talked the deeper friendship got. She is a lesbian, but soon I started to Dom her, but she never really took the kitten roll, she took the lg role, and called me Daddy. My heart soared, so I did more research, and realized I had been this type of Dom sense I started being a Dom. Like all good things it came to end, rather abruptly, when this kitten talked back to her owner, and said "The only thing wrong with him is he has a dick." Well that raised the owners ire, and found out I am litteraly double her age, so she ended our friendship.That said somthing was awoken inside of me, I began to feel again, I liked it best when she called me Daddy, and I treated her like a lg.

She gave me a lot of strength, saw how much abuse I had taken, and helped me move towards my Divorce, yes I miss her friendship, she has a much younger Daddy, is allowed to talk in public with me again, but never allowed to play video games with me (Dom's we are so Jelly)

DaddyAsh, thank you for sharing i love that you opened yourself up and recognized the Daddy inside yourself.

 

[cookiecat]

DaddyAsh, thank you for sharing i love that you opened yourself up and recognized the Daddy inside yourself.

Agreed! I always enjoy hearing how people make these self discoveries.

Thanks, litleautumn91 for starting it!

 

[MastersDelight]

I always knew I wanted something a little different from sex, even before I could put a name to it. I wanted to be dominated, to relinquish control, for once not to be aware every aspect of what's going to happen to me. When I started my vanilla relationship with my now hubby and Master we were always a little kinky. Rough sex, dirty talk, light bondage, that sort of thing. I wanted more, I just didn't know what "more" was. Then I read 50 shades. I hated their relationship, Mr. Grey was about as appealing as a dead fish and Ana was a stupid girl with no sense of self preservation. But the sex, the set up, the act, I wanted that. I NEEDED that. I searched for information and found Lit. I read threads and stories and put names to things I didn't even know I wanted deep down. I fantasized, afraid to out myself to hubby.

When the movie came out I dragged him to it just like every other desperate housewife. I hoped that maybe it could be a catalyst for conversation later and I could feel out how he felt about the acts in the movie without outing myself if things went bad. He too despised the unhealthiness of their relationship but was intrigued by the sex. We had a honest and frank conversation, I revealed a little, and to my surprise so did he. I showed him Lit and let him explore a while at his own leisure. Then we talked again. We tried a few things here and there, dabbled in impact play, bondage, edge play, and tested the D/s roles. Then talked about our play, what we liked and didn't like, what we wanted to try next time. We sat down and made separate lists of hard/soft limits, then compared and compromised. Those lists are ever changing, as we explore and test each other. I'm so lucky that I can explore this life with my hubby and Master, he's really come into his own in all of this, and I'm overjoyed to finally KNOW what I am and what I crave.

 

[guns44]

I always knew I wanted something a little different from sex, even before I could put a name to it. I wanted to be dominated, to relinquish control, for once not to be aware every aspect of what's going to happen to me. When I started my vanilla relationship with my now hubby and Master we were always a little kinky. Rough sex, dirty talk, light bondage, that sort of thing. I wanted more, I just didn't know what "more" was. Then I read 50 shades. I hated their relationship, Mr. Grey was about as appealing as a dead fish and Ana was a stupid girl with no sense of self preservation. But the sex, the set up, the act, I wanted that. I NEEDED that. I searched for information and found Lit. I read threads and stories and put names to things I didn't even know I wanted deep down. I fantasized, afraid to out myself to hubby.

When the movie came out I dragged him to it just like every other desperate housewife. I hoped that maybe it could be a catalyst for conversation later and I could feel out how he felt about the acts in the movie without outing myself if things went bad. He too despised the unhealthiness of their relationship but was intrigued by the sex. We had a honest and frank conversation, I revealed a little, and to my surprise so did he. I showed him Lit and let him explore a while at his own leisure. Then we talked again. We tried a few things here and there, dabbled in impact play, bondage, edge play, and tested the D/s roles. Then talked about our play, what we liked and didn't like, what we wanted to try next time. We sat down and made separate lists of hard/soft limits, then compared and compromised. Those lists are ever changing, as we explore and test each other. I'm so lucky that I can explore this life with my hubby and Master, he's really come into his own in all of this, and I'm overjoyed to finally KNOW what I am and what I crave.

You are a lucky woman. My wife is sort of a vanilla but I know she kind of desires the 50 shades kind of sex. Problem for us is that that's not me, I'm not comfortable as a Dom in the bedroom, I am more of a sub myself. But I'm glad for you guys, figuring out what you like, and wish you the best, and much pleasure with your links