Fickle?

[raven2]

*chuckles*

I did a Personal Ad on Lit in the BDSM section for one. To me my online Dom was in fact more of a guide and quite wonderful. I want that back but I've about given up, perhaps trainer would be another good word?

Fury

I was wondering where that term came from. I thought it had something to do with the academy. If he was from the personals, you are probably better off without him.

 

[FurryFury]

I was wondering where that term came from. I thought it had something to do with the academy. If he was from the personals, you are probably better off without him.

That I agree with you on.

Still it's not nice to get attacked that way but I knew he wasn't my type.

Fury

 

[raven2]

That I agree with you on.

Still it's not nice to get attacked that way but I knew he wasn't my type.

Fury

What way would you like to be attacked?

 

[FurryFury]

What way would you like to be attacked?

*giggles*

You are so naughty!

Fury

 

[@}-}rebecca----]

*chuckles*

I did a Personal Ad on Lit in the BDSM section for one. To me my online Dom was in fact more of a guide and quite wonderful. I want that back but I've about given up, perhaps trainer would be another good word?

Fury

Miss Fury as you know a Mentor doesn't cross lines into participating in sexual behaviour as it undermines their role as a teacher/guide. A trainer well, I am only experienced with that term in reference to fiction. Though anything is possible I guess.

So I have to go with DVS on this one. If your looking for a 'guide' online and want to encompass sexual activities you have to ask yourself whats in it for them ? Its hardly philanthropic work in this context.

Don't let the creeps undermine you enthusiasm or self esteem. Its them not you Miss Fury

hugssssssssssssssss

 

[raven2]

*giggles*

You are so naughty!

Fury

Let's see.......there's ravishment and bondage and oral servitude and flogging and........

 

[FurryFury]

Thanks Miss Rebecca!

However one would think that if one were fun, then another would continue to want to play with you.

As to the terms I used, I did so to indicate the sort of things I was looking for. I know what I want and nothing else will do. I am quite tired of looking.

I had a talk the other night with a Dom. He admitted that he found the resistant type that did what they could to get more, including lying or acting the brat more to his taste.

See I'm no fun. I want to give submission to someone. I don't want to fight it or manipulate it. Where is the challenge in that?

Fury

 

[FurryFury]

Let's see.......there's ravishment and bondage and oral servitude and flogging and........

All wonderful things they are too.

I have to go now.

Y'all play well, I'll be back but maybe not tonight.

Fury

 

[raven2]

Thanks Miss Rebecca!

See I'm no fun. I want to give submission to someone. I don't want to fight it or manipulate it. Where is the challenge in that?

Fury

Oh, you and I could have a lot of fun together. I get tired of fighting it sometimes.

 

[@}-}rebecca----]

Thanks Miss Rebecca!

However one would think that if one were fun, then another would continue to want to play with you.

As to the terms I used, I did so to indicate the sort of things I was looking for. I know what I want and nothing else will do. I am quite tired of looking.

I had a talk the other night with a Dom. He admitted that he found the resistant type that did what they could to get more, including lying or acting the brat more to his taste.

See I'm no fun. I want to give submission to someone. I don't want to fight it or manipulate it. Where is the challenge in that?

Fury

I 'think' I understand how you are meaning submission . I am not sure thats attainable as sincere as you mean it in the context of your very honest requirements. Outside of scening play/sense it takes alot of work/emotion/trust on both parties to achieve. Perhaps more than a Dominant online or RL would consider with a potentially transient (though sincere , wonderful, exuberent ) submissive/partner. Finding the real 'McCoy' will be a needle in a haystack, in the mean time you can't keep letting these people who don't know you affect your sense of self worth. Maybe a break for a while huh ?

Remember time as well. Takes quite a while to build trust. That has to come before submission . 'Play' in my opinion should have no part in it in these early stages. Playfulness is fine though ........winks

 

[FurryFury]

I 'think' I understand how you are meaning submission . I am not sure thats attainable as sincere as you mean it in the context of your very honest requirements. Outside of scening play/sense it takes alot of work/emotion/trust on both parties to achieve. Perhaps more than a Dominant online or RL would consider with a potentially transient (though sincere , wonderful, exuberent ) submissive/partner. Finding the real 'McCoy' will be a needle in a haystack, in the mean time you can't keep letting these people who don't know you affect your sense of self worth. Maybe a break for a while huh ?

Remember time as well. Takes quite a while to build trust. That has to come before submission . 'Play' in my opinion should have no part in it in these early stages. Playfulness is fine though ........winks

Dear Miss Rebecca,

I'm glad you think you see what I mean. I had that once, and too briefly and I want it back. If it isn't attainable again, if it gives no pleasure to the Dom, well then, it is a dream I shall hold dear and dream.

I won't apologise from using words that many might find to be strange terminology in order to try to convey what I was truly hoping to find and create. I did what I thought would give me the best understanding and possibilities. I'm not sorry for it.

However this particular person I spoke of who slammed me yesterday didn't really affect my self worth. He clearly wasn't what I was looking for. I wasn't invested in him. He, in fact, showed through his anger how unlike the person I'm looking for he truly was. He may indeed be like DVS's description for all I know. I have no idea. *L*

My self worth is, perhaps, tenuous because it always has been and the ones that did mean a great deal to me, they did not stay. Not the first one. Not the most profound one. Not the ones that brought me possibilities. Not the one who played a bit and then moved on, who is the reason mostly for this thread. None of them stayed with me for long enough, and what would be long enough anyway? *c*

That makes a girl wonder, you know? What is not compelling enough, fun enough, interesting enough, willing enough, about me, that one would stick around for? It's not like I take up that much time after all. Unless they are spending every moment thinking about me, which I doubt. I'm not demanding but patient and happy when we do connect. *shrugs*

And yes, I have not forgotten about time. It takes a lot of time (usually) to get to know another so I might build the trust I need to go with them into D/s. I can't feel like I'm doing things for a stranger. Though in some cases this board might make you feel you can trust people on it and know them somewhat with mutual respect.

I agree about the break. It may be time for one. My dream my have to remain that regardless, even though I did have it once, too briefly. I cherished it then and I cherish it now. *smiles*

Fury

PS, I agree playfulness is fun and I am almost always playful.

 

[Recidiva]

Everyone has some level of attachment to their idea of reality and can use it to avoid seeing what's right in front of them, but some level of fickle is desirable if only to avoid this:

The Strange Obsession of Dr. Carl Von Cosel:
In 1934, Dr. Carl Von Cosel worked at a Key West hospital, treating patients suffering from then-incurable tuberculosis. He fell in love with a 22-year-old patient named Elena Hoyos . When she died, Von Cosel got permission from her family to build her a mausoleum. There, Von Cosel used formaldehyde to preserve the body, visiting it nightly.

Later, Von Cosel secretly moved Elena's body to his home, living with it for seven years, until his deception was uncovered by Elena's sister. Horrified at the discovery, Elena's sister took what appeared be a wax dummy to the local morgue to be autopsied. The "dummy" was actually the decayed corpse of Elena Hoyos; her bones held together with piano wire, her skin had been treated with wax, her eye sockets filled with glass replacements, and she'd been perfumed to mask the odor of decomposition.

Declared sane, Von Cosel was not charged with a crime because the statute of limitations on grave robbing had expired. Elena Hoyos was eventually buried at a secret location. Von Cosel, separated from his love, used a death mask to create a life-sized dummy of her, and lived with it until his death in 1952.

"The sick ones don't scare me, at least they're committed" - Catwoman

 

[FurryFury]

Um, do I resemble that or something?

*shivers*

Fury

 

[Recidiva]

Um, do I resemble that or something?

*shivers*

Fury

Good Goddess, I hope not, creepy

 

[FurryFury]

Oh, you and I could have a lot of fun together. I get tired of fighting it sometimes.

I almost never fight. I hate fighting. When forced to fight it gets really ugly.

Yes, I'm sure we could have a lot of fun together.

Fury

 

[FurryFury]

Good Goddess, I hope not, creepy

Thank goodness!

I was worried!

*L*

Fury