jadefirefly
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- Apr 20, 2005
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Hello, guys. It's been a while...
Apology is not my strong suit. Never has been, and unfortunately I don't think it ever will be, although I'm working on that. But I made boo-boos, and for that I am sorry. I don't know if an apology will be enough to make up for it, but I truly am sorry.
Beachgurl, LadyCibelle, and others that I promised help to and completely failed to follow through on: I offer the deepest apologies for dropping the ball on you guys. I can't begin to explain how bad the holiday season was at my job; how chaotic my home life is; how frustrating it is to be working on someone else's computer; how stressful and thought-consuming (albeit rewarding) my current relationship is.
None of those explanations would really provide a good excuse for not just stepping up and admitting I couldn't handle it all, anyway. I should have just said something, but the stupid ego part of me that can't admit I need help, often can't admit that I just can't do something, either.
I sort of got my smack in the head with a clue-by-four last week when, unexpectedly (and after nearly 6 months) I got an email from Lit, welcoming me to the volunteer editors program. When it occured to me how long it had really been... I felt really stupid then.
I am so, so sorry you guys. I hope that this complete failure to show any sort of responsibility on my part hasn't permanently damaged what little reputation I may have had around here... I'd really like to actually be a useful VE. Things have calmed down enough now that I think I may actually be able to. And I promise that this time I'll step up to the plate and admit if I can't do something.
Any chance I might be welcomed back in around here? *sheepish smile*
--Jade
Apology is not my strong suit. Never has been, and unfortunately I don't think it ever will be, although I'm working on that. But I made boo-boos, and for that I am sorry. I don't know if an apology will be enough to make up for it, but I truly am sorry.
Beachgurl, LadyCibelle, and others that I promised help to and completely failed to follow through on: I offer the deepest apologies for dropping the ball on you guys. I can't begin to explain how bad the holiday season was at my job; how chaotic my home life is; how frustrating it is to be working on someone else's computer; how stressful and thought-consuming (albeit rewarding) my current relationship is.
None of those explanations would really provide a good excuse for not just stepping up and admitting I couldn't handle it all, anyway. I should have just said something, but the stupid ego part of me that can't admit I need help, often can't admit that I just can't do something, either.
I sort of got my smack in the head with a clue-by-four last week when, unexpectedly (and after nearly 6 months) I got an email from Lit, welcoming me to the volunteer editors program. When it occured to me how long it had really been... I felt really stupid then.
I am so, so sorry you guys. I hope that this complete failure to show any sort of responsibility on my part hasn't permanently damaged what little reputation I may have had around here... I'd really like to actually be a useful VE. Things have calmed down enough now that I think I may actually be able to. And I promise that this time I'll step up to the plate and admit if I can't do something.
Any chance I might be welcomed back in around here? *sheepish smile*
--Jade
