Etoile's Corner

[Etoile]

Good relationships take work... they don't happen magically. You have to keep at them to keep them working.

And you are most welcome, Etoile. Now I just have to figure out exactly what kind of doll it is that I am. Raggedy Ann? Porcelain? One of those scary little Chucky the Clown dolls that goes around killing people at night?

That first statement actually isn't as totally obvious to me as it should have been. I have only had two relationships that lasted longer than six months: my wife, and my Daddy! So when things happen to me, I don't realize that it's necessarily normal or obvious. Thank you for pointing it out even though it seems like like it should be a no-brainer.

Well, we are an American Girl household around here! My wife has Felicity, her little sister (who is 21 now) has Addy and Samantha, and for my birthday January 2004 the two of them pooled their money and bought me an AG doll that looks like me! (They're from the Girls of Today collection, mine has light brown hair, light skin, and green eyes.) I named her Cordelia!

I bet I wouldn't have said that in a thread that wasn't called Etoile's Corner, but I'm free here! mwahaha!

 

[FungiUg]

Fancy that, Etoile being a little girl who plays with dolls. Who would have suspected?

 

[Etoile]

Well, the little girl part should have been obvious!

 

[Etoile]

This is my 4000th post...I figured I would make it in my own thread!

By the way, the wife and I are going on vacation next week! We haven't been on a real vacation in a looooong time. So if anybody wants postcards, please E-MAIL ME your address. (Don't send PMs, my inbox will get filled quickly!) You can get my e-mail address by visiting my website and looking in the contact section of the sidebar. Make sure to tell me your Lit name so I know who's who!

 

[Etoile]

Okay, so, normally I am the queen of waxing. I love chiming in on threads over in How-To that relate to waxing, especially Brazilians. I've been getting waxed ever since I started my relationship with Daddy four and a half years ago.

I went to get waxed today before our cruise. And it has not hurt that bad since the very first few times I got waxed.

Oh my GOD! I don't know what exactly was different, but I think it was a combination of things.

1. It wasn't for Daddy explicitly
2. My wife tells me we are probably pre-menstrual, and I know that's a bad time to get waxed! But I don't menstruate (thank you Depo Provera) so I didn't realize it was close to That Time
3. I didn't get the girl I wanted. I needed to get waxed this morning, not any other day or time, and the girl I wanted - who usually does a really good job - wasn't available. This new one didn't soothe the skin at ALL after each yank. Fuck!
4. I let it go for longer than I probably should have before getting waxed. I hadn't been to up see Daddy for a long time (prior to last weekend), so there was no reason to get waxed. So the hair was really long!

I am STILL hurting, and it's been more than 12 hours. This is just incredible. I couldn't even check to see how she'd done when it was over because I was in so much pain I just wanted to be out of there! As a result, I realized I hadn't let her finish the Brazilian, so I got a pretty crappy bikini wax instead. Fortunately my wife will help me shave nice and smooth before we go on the trip.

Let it never be said that a person can avoid the pain of waxing completely...I thought I was WAY past that stage but today really brought me back to reality!

 

[FungiUg]

There's good pain. There's bad pain. And then there's waxing.

...and I hate it when I don't get the girl I want too. But I don't think that has anything to do with waxing!

 

[Etoile]

Heh! What's funny is that it doesn't normally bother me too much. It's just kind of like a little biting sensation each time she yanks. But this time...holy fuck! I even had to ask her to take a break because I was getting too worked up from the pain. (It doesn't help that the light is always right in your eyes and making the room very warm, either.) Damn!

 

[FungiUg]

Oooh, waxing AND interrogation! Damn, I'm in the wrong job!

 

[shy slave]

Oh I was going to book my first ever wax come pay day before my holiday with Him, but now I am chickening out again

Oh Etoile past posts had convinced me that wax was best, but now what do i do?!?!

Perhaps I should get a doll and wax it, if the doll screams then no way will I have it done!!

Where are you and your wife going on hols (sorry vacation ) and when?

 

[Etoile]

Oh I was going to book my first ever wax come pay day before my holiday with Him, but now I am chickening out again

Oh Etoile past posts had convinced me that wax was best, but now what do i do?!?!

Perhaps I should get a doll and wax it, if the doll screams then no way will I have it done!!

Where are you and your wife going on hols (sorry vacation ) and when?

Oh, it can still be worth it if you don't like shaving! Personally I cannot STAND shaving so waxing is really my only option. (We investigated laser but it's far too expensive.) I won't lie, though: your first time WILL hurt. I was in terrible tears my first couple of times, actually. It takes a while to get used to, but if you get waxed on a regular basis it does actually thin out the hair so there's not as much there to hurt anyway. It's also definitely worth it if He likes you to be nice and smooth.

We are leaving tomorrow! We are taking a cruise. We leave from Baltimore, Maryland and travel down to Charleston (South Carolina) then to St. Maarten (a Dutch/French island), St. Thomas (US Virgin Islands) and San Juan (Puerto Rico). We are spending two additional nights in PR before flying back home to DC.

 

[Betticus]

Oh my! I love a Brasilian wax job on a woman. Makes going down a whole lot more fun. Totally addictive, can't pull my mouth away from a nice, cute, tasty pussy.

 

[snowy ciara]

I just shave it. But I don't have lots of hair down there. pencils in some Etoile stalking when she returns

 

[Betticus]

I just shave it. But I don't have lots of hair down there. pencils in some Etoile stalking when she returns

Hmmm.. Hot shaved teen pussy! There is a God after all.

 

[InnerDarkness]

as I laid in bed last night...

Etoile...I have probably missed it someplace in all your posts, but do you have a D/s relationship with your wife, or just your Daddy??

always curious

 

[Etoile]

We're baaaack! Damn, that was a nice vacation. Of course now I have hundreds and hundreds of spam messages and other crap in my inbox, but I'm glad to have my computer back. http://www.amanita.net/images/smilies/compgirl.gif

 

[Etoile]

Re: as I laid in bed last night...

Etoile...I have probably missed it someplace in all your posts, but do you have a D/s relationship with your wife, or just your Daddy??

always curious

eeeek, you thought about me while you were in bed?!

My D/s is pretty much exclusively with Daddy. My wife and I occasionally do some play but it's very light. She is fully aware of just how submissive I am, of course, but we're pretty vanilla together. (Okay, not totally...we're probably somewhere in the range of butter pecan!)

 

[ownedsubgal]

just wanted to say welcome back

 

[Etoile]

just wanted to say welcome back

Thank you, dear one. I've missed you! Drop me an e-mail if you get a chance?

 

[shy slave]

Welcome back

I have missed you

I hope you had a wonderful time and are relaxed and rested for the run-up to Christmas xx

 

[snowy ciara]

Don't mind me, I'm just stalking Etoile..

 

[Etoile]

Welcome back

I have missed you

I hope you had a wonderful time and are relaxed and rested for the run-up to Christmas xx

Aw, thank you!

Xmas? Oh boy, I haven't even thought about that yet! My current thing to look forward to is the U.S. presidential election on Nov 2nd, so I can FINALLY stop being bombarded by political ads! I'm also eager for the suspense over who will win to end...it's SO CLOSE that I really have no idea. (go kerry go!)

 

[Etoile]

Don't mind me, I'm just stalking Etoile..

eeek! Now I have two stalkers! You should hook up with FungiUg, you two can save on gasoline

 

[Noor]

I know this is a bit old but I didn't have time or clarity to post about this earlier.

Jealousy, self esteem and cyber sex:

I don't tend to get jealous much but I do get upset if my partner's other activities are interrupting our activity together.
I can understand being upset when a partner is imming with others but not you, I am not sure that is jealousy as much a feeling of loss. It is especially hurtful when the other person is someone who "means nothing," or a casual friend at best.

Self-esteem is really doubting if you are worthy of your partner, so perhaps having to hear that they love you repeatedly could be that. However, occasionally you need reassurance because something feels wrong or seems off, and the real fear that they will leave comes up. No one is immune to these feelings, they happen from time to time, and should be explored.

It is important to tell people how you feel, to reassure them that if things go wrong you will come and discuss it before making plans to leave. Also to not take people and relationships for granted. In the past month I have seen a fair amount of unexpected death and that has really be driven home to me.

Cybersex and cheating depend on your agreements within your relationships, as does anything. If your partner is cyberring with someone else and not you, then I think there is something to be concerned about.
In cyberring, there is the possibility of getting attached which inn turn could be a problem if they begin to choose the cyber over you. This could also happen in any other activity where you open yourself to people outside your relationships, either by spending a lot a time with someone or interacting in an intimate way.

 

[FungiUg]

eeek! Now I have two stalkers! You should hook up with FungiUg, you two can save on gasoline

Several thousand kms just to save a wee bit of gas? *chuckle*

Not that I'd object "hooking up" with snowy... her glowing red butt might though.

 

[Etoile]

It is especially hurtful when the other person is someone who "means nothing," or a casual friend at best.

Wow, I think you've really tapped in to a lot of what my immediate distress was about. I do appreciate you posting even though it was a while after the discussion was taking place. My feelings have mostly disappeared about this particular issue, but it's still helpful to look back on it.