End of the year. Time to evaluate.

[Xander]

So it's almost X-mas. And one of the most important years history is about to end.
SO I'm curious. How has the year 2000 been for you??

Me, well it has litterally changed my life in both good and bad ways. I'll get into details later. Because I'm a bit late as it is right now.

But let's hear it. How has this year been to you?? Good, bad, both or no change at all??

 

[Skibum]

I have totally changed my life in 2000.

I posted my first stories on Literotica, I met the most amazing woman on Literotica, I collaborated on stories with said amazing woman, and I have tied my future to that same amazing woman.

Thanks, CreamyLady! You have made 2000 the best year of my life, and I know that 2001 will be better still because of you.

[Edited by Skibum on 12-24-2000 at 08:35 AM]

 

[R Nitelight]

2000 was a great year, and I'm optimistic that 2001 will be even better. It's the first New Year in memory that I actually have things I want to accomplish.

 

[Juliangel]

Well it hasn't been to great. I had a lot of nights like last night, getting more and more frequent so life really sucks.

 

[sweetfeet]

2000?
When I think of where I was and who I was a year ago, I have no regrets about 2000.

 

[Guest]

Y2K

There has been more cons than pros for this past year. But, I thank God that I now have Ravenloft in my life! http://smilecwm.tripod.com/net2/love.gif I hope that nothing but good times are a head for 2001!!!

~Tiggs~

 

[teresafannin]

I am hoping for better things in 2001, this past year has been so difficult for me. One good thing, however, is that I have made some new friends here & I still have my fiancee by my side. After the last 15 months, 2001 has to be a better year for us.

 

[Andra_Jenny]

It was our first year with our beautiful baby from China. Wouldn't trade it for the world. Now I'd trade her for 20 minutes alone (not really)!

 

[Ambrosious]

I got my K-Y. Getting naked. Grabbing the salami...wait.
E-VAL-uate? Sorry, I thought it was time to ejaculate.

 

[Merelan]

Uggghhh, thanks I just had a salami sandwich too, now I feel ill.

Over all the year has been super. I have the love of two wonderful men, my health, a safe home. I have a family who doesn't fight and argue too much.
On the other hand my best friend and her husband are still dealing with bad cancer and are so very far away right now and my baby brother is missing somwhere out in the west. But as I said, overall it has been a remarkable year.
A year of self discovery, of a higher awareness of my connection with the Earth and what the heck I should be doing. In the last 12 weeks especially, I have had the chance to stop and slow down, and see that a mad wild rush is not the way I choose to travel this particular trip. Big changes coming in the New Year.
New job, new house... hopefully... better connection with my family and friends, those here, and those abroad.

 

[ShyGuy68]

In the last year I have evolved personally quite a bit, and I know that it'll last a while longer before I'm done with that.

I have also had the pleasure of finding Literotica and the BB, where I have met some very special friends that are very dear to me. And I want to thank them for helping me evolve too.

 

[Xander]

As promised, Xanders' Y2K

Well, I can without a doubt say that the year 2000 has been nothing less than completely life altering. Much thanks to literotica.
When I joined this BB, a little over a year ago. I was nobody. Just another guy, blending into the masses. I didn't have much of a life, and what I did have I hated with a passion. Back then I used the net as an escape valve, so I wouldn't go completely insane. Okay okay, I may still be crazy, but it's your kind of crazy
Anyways, basically I didn't live a year ago. I survived.

After a while here I made my first friend of this site. Some of you may remember her as Endlessly, and we still talk when we have time. And I still make music for her in case anyone is wondering. And will continue to do so on a slightly larger scale when I get to the states.

Everyone who has passed through, and who is still here. Has had an impact on my life this past year. In some way or another.
I've met love here. And you have made me feel special, and that I can't thank you enough for.
I've met the most incredible woman, right here. And she is my friend
Even in a time like this, where everything has gone wrong, and I am left to my own devices. I find happiness and good times here. Among people where I am proud to call some of you real friends.

And now that I'm about to turn a whole new page in my life, and start all over again. I am not afraid or erveous about it. Because I know there is people like you out there.

And I bet the two people who made this place, never thought it would have such an impact on so many.
I've had the priviledge to meet Laurel and Manu a few times while I was in San Diego. Sit down and have dinner and an actual conversation with them. Even walked down Rodeo Drive in Beverly Hills with'em.
Meeting them was incredible, for the simple fact that what they have made here, has quite literally changed my lust for life for the better.

Of course, there has been bad experiences as well, One was also life altering. I wont get into that here.
And those who can remember Dee_cole will now know, that if there is one member who has come here, I would take pleasure in stringing up on a meat hook. He would be it!

yes, Y2K has been life altering for me. And even though I, through the year, have received blows, beatings and defeats, that under normal circumstances probaly would have killed me. I am so thankful and greatful for finding this place. And because of that 2001 looks pretty darn good. New life, new country. All by myself. And I can't wait for it to start.

So there you have it. Xanders Y2K evaluation

 

[Wizard]

Just talking with skitten as to what we were doing this time of year last year and it was sitting right here talking on the board...................................

 

[Cheyenne]

I changed quite a bit in 2000, too. I found Lit.

Sometime pre-Lit, I had a conversation with a very good friend of mine. He hates having to go to the store to buy tampons for his wife, and tried to equate that uncomfortable situation for him with me going into a store to buy condoms. Except I said I'd have no problem doing so, and I didn't understand why he thought I would. He told me he wasn't surprised since I was different from most women, more open about sexual things, more bold. That conversation stuck with me. At Lit, I'm NOT different. I'm normal. Most of the time, anyway.

A year ago, I'd never have taken pictures of myself naked, much less posted them anywhere, OR sent them to anyone. I didn't know what cyber sex was, and only had a vague notion of what phone sex might be. I wouldn't have had any kind of an online relationship with anyone. I would never have considered meeting someone from the cyberworld in RL. And I didn't know any of you. So much has changed in a year!

In my RL, I was promoted this year, and I go into 2001 facing a lot of new challenges.

2000 has been a pretty good year over all. There was some heartbreak, but that just reminds me that I'm human. I'm looking forward to 2001 and another year with all of you!

 

[naudiz]

Here's to survival, Xander. Way to go.

2000 started badly. Nervous breakdown. On the bright side, everything else that happened after that could only get better, and it has. I started this year as someone who was sick, not going to get better, and not seeing a lot worth living for. I've been taking baby steps, getting better one day at a time, emotionally and spiritually if not physically, but that will follow in time I'm sure. I've found reserves of strength I didn't know I possessed. I've grown more in 365 days than the twenty plus years preceding them.

Above all, I've stopped feeling sorry for myself. A year ago, the idea of working again was too painful to even consider. Today, I'm making plans to take a job that pays twice what I was making when I was healthy. I'm not out of the woods yet, but at least I'm on the right path.

I still have bad days, but those bad days are now the exception instead of the rule. That I can post this at all without getting anxious is a telling sign of how much I've changed over this year for the better, and 2001 is just looking all that much brighter.

 

[Renegade]

Well my year was mostly good with only a few bad things happening. Nothing bad to realy note other then my best friends grandmother passing away this year. His family treats me like I'm a member of it so that was a very sad time. Fortunatly, things have gotten much better for them and life has gone on. Other then that, 2000 has been a very nice year for the old Latino Heat.

Finaly got out of school after having to take an extra year of high school to make up for a very screwed up freshman year. This was realy something because I had just about given up on being able to graduate. But I still tried so that I could atleast not look back years later and wonder what could have been. Much to my surprise, I was able to pass my last class just in time to get out of there.

During the summer, I got to see some more of america that I hadn't visited before. After having visited a Horror movie message board since early '99, I finaly registered for the site this year. Through that board, I made my first internet friends and have become very popular among some great people. In late July, I followed a link from a Celeb story site that brought me to Lit for the first time. After reading the storys for a few days, I found the message board and registered for the role play section. There I had a great time posting among some great writers who I also became friends with. In time, I became friends with users like Tiggs, RoseThorn, Bobtoad, and Ravenloft outside of the site through IMs. And I just basicly had a great time for the most part through most of 2000.

The year 2001 looks to be just as good, if not a better year for me as well. Have some very good people to call my friends, being considered for a Moderator job at that horror board, looking into some college options, and am involved with a very special lady that I hope to meet in person soon. Things are looking up for me, and hopefully they wont be changing for the worst anytime soon.

Here's to a Happy New Year for all.

 

[brazenblaze]

I probably don't have any business posting here, I don't know any of you very well. I've only been on the BB since this month, but this group has made a big difference in my life.

2000 has been a big year of changes for me... I picked up and moved across the country, to a state that I loath. But that move got hubby and I out of jobs that we loathed, and gave us more time with our kids. Then as soon as we arrive here we find out that hubby has to leave the country in 3 months and be gone for 6. No friends here, No family, just the job and the kids.

Playing the single mom for two kids has never felt so tough. I felt so alone and like I didn't have anyone in the world that gave a shit.

Started spending time on the net and met some people and some temptations. Then one night when I was reading some stories here, I discovered the BB. Everyone made me feel at home and helped me over a couple of bad spells that could have ruined my marriage.

You guys have made me laugh harder than I have in months, and sometimes you've even touched me to the point of crying.
With this place to run to when the RL gets crazy, next year has to be wonderful.

Merry Christmas to everyone, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[Ticklish Girl]

Well, for me 2000 was a "rebuilding year", as they say in the sports world.

A year ago I was exhausted, depressed and not very pleasant company. This was mostly due to my stress-filled, mind-numbing, soul-crushing job. I finally came to my senses and realized that if I didn't make some radical improvements in my life soon I'd end up in Heart Attack Country. I quit the job, took my bronze parachute, and decided to devote myself to my Great American Novel. Towards that end I bought my computer and got my Internet connection. And with that I went into Y2K.

In general, I have to say that this was a very good year. Without the stress and insomnia that haunted my old life, I'm a completely different person. I sleep better and feel more relaxed. I don't snap people's heads off anymore (unless they really, really deserve it, LOL). And while I haven't completed the Great American Novel, I have made some progress in my writing career. My biggest accomplishment is my newfound ability to write sex scenes. A year ago I couldn't do it. Now I can, although it still feels a little awkward.

Socially, I've made a number of friends thanks to the Internet. I've met some terrific people from the Yankees message boards, and we've had some wonderful parties. For example, last July we bought a block of seats for a game at Yankee Stadium, and prior to the game we had a huge tailgate party in one of the parking lots. We even had a guest appearance from Roger Clemens (his sister is a poster on the board). Nothing like that has happened at subsequent parties, but we do have a good time. And of course I found this site, which I enjoy more and more as time goes on. I'm hoping to make some friends here as well.

Another significant thing that happened to me this year was my initiation into the world of cyber sex and role playing. After some initial awkwardness, I started really enjoying it, and I quickly developed a little core group of people to play with. One of those people turned into a very good online friend as well as a terrific cyber partner. We have these long, deep conversations that last hours but seem much shorter. It's possible that we'll actually meet in 2001. One of us has got to cross the Atlantic in order for that to happen. I'm hoping it's him -- I kind of like having the home field advantage. I don't know what's going to happen there -- I've been disappointed with online romance before -- but I'm enjoying the ride.

I'm pretty optimistic that 2001 will be just as good. And it's nice to have optimism in my life again.

 

[CreamyLady]

Oh, my. What a year.

I have gone through some major changes. I began to write in earnest. I grew a skin. I've met wonderful people, and some real stinkers, too.

A relationship with a man who taught me that I was worthy of love and friendship has evolved into friendship. This man has developed prostate cancer, and I will be there for him, as his friend, through his surgery and recovery. (Note: he has asked me to remind every man who might read this board to please get checked; his was caught very early.)

A man who began as a friend, and has evolved into something much, much more, is rearranging his life and we will be together next summer. We talk about the adventure of learning to live together, to see how we grow together, and I can't say that summer is far away. Time moves as it needs to, and it has been just galloping lately.

My thanks and love to everyone on the board, especially Laurel for being a marvelous Den Mother. May 2001 be a year of growth and adventure for everyone, without crocodiles. I feel we could use a teeth-free year.

Happy New Year.

 

[Juspar Emvan]

Humbled and regrowth

Not sure about my right to comment here either.

Still whatca gonna do?

This time last year my mind numbing, ambition sucking, time consuming, hell pit of a job had led me to a state of depression where I'd left my girl friend and kids and had started the internet abuse at work that would eventually loose me said job. My confidence was at an all time low after 18 months of failing to find a new and better job.

I lost the job in January, got a new one right away on about half the pay. Moved out of my parents house for living, and out of the city for working. Found new friends who had interests actually outside of work and home. Discovered the ability to party like I was 18 again (not that long ago really - just feels like it.)

All that was great but the spectre of an unresloved relationship and my kids always haunted me.

Finally in late November I came to a conclusion that I was going to make an extended overseas trip on 2001. The Big OE is considered a normal part of developement for a huge number of young adults here. My inherited family had never allowed me that luxury and I rebelled.

Decision made, suddenly everything else was clear. I've resolved issues with my girlfriend and will be moving home soon.

Summary: Lost job that sucked, got new job that makes me happy, had fun and partied hard in moderation, got back to the woman I love and the kids I miss. Yehaa.

 

[Sammyjo]

I remember when I used to be content with my life. That was pre-internet for me...sometime in early 1998. I wasn't "happy" nor was I depressed. I was merely living. I met two wonderful men in 1998 online. In their own ways they helped me get through some tough things, and become what I thought was a better me. Turns out, I wasted two years of my life being a total slime ball to both of them...and not just them, many more people.

Talking to my high school sweetie yesterday and I realized that I'm just not someone who is good with people. Which is why I distance myself from people on this board. If you have had the pleasure of really getting to know me...you know that I am a caring person who will do anything for her friends. I am not only the person you see here, I am so much more. I tend to hide my true feelings because I don't want to get hurt...only those that know me well will get a glimpse of this other side of me. Yes, I've opened up once in a while here, but that's nothing compared to the things I've said to Xander, Ravenloft, Tiggs, CW (to name a few).

2000 has opened my eyes a bit. I realized that I was steering myself down a path of destruction. In the last almost two months, I think I've calmed this down a bit. That is the problem with living for someone else...you aren't completely happy. I've since realized that I need to live first for me, and then my daughter...after that, well, then I can start adding other people to the mix. Unfortunately, some people don't quite get that...too bad for them I guess. Other than focusing my life solely on my daughter and I again, 2001 will be no different than 2000 or any year before that. You may see me less on here, you may eventually not see me at all. I may give up the internet for good. It doesn't seem to be making my life any better...and in some ways it has brought more pain to my life...pain that I could just as well leave behind me.

On that note, I should get ready for the day...much to do.

Have a Happy New Year!

 

[JadedHeart]

Well for me the year 2000 was a year of extreme highs and lows. I had one of my dearest friends taken from me suddenly, but I found a new friend that helped me to see that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. When I had reached rock bottom and didn’t think I could lift myself out of the abyss, he was there to help pull me out. He was always there for me, and I couldn’t ask for a better friend. I’m sad for what I lost, but I will always be eternally grateful for what I have found!