It's a combo of things. When I first came to Lit and first started posting pix... it was definitely an exhibitionist thing. I got very turned on from the thought of others (men AND women) looking at my pix and getting off to them. Someone, even a complete stranger, looking and getting so turned on that they had to take care of themselves just did something for me. This was back before the govt implemented the whole 2257 thing, when anything could be posted on Lit. A lot of what I posted then was pretty much up close, downright naughty. I even did a lot of camming on different sites way back then.
I got burned out though.. lost a bit of that sexual drive from the exhibition, so I stopped posting. Then I came back after a few months away and decided I wanted to take the more artistic, pin-up girl approach. I did that for quite a long time, and then it was more about wanting to be appreciated artistically. I tried to take that to a professional level, and did for almost 2 years.. but again, got burned out and quit.
I just didn't have any kind of drive in me for the longest time... but I noticed within the past couple of weeks, it's like I've hit a sexual peak again. The other night when I was taking pix, it was back to the thought of imagining someone looking at them and getting turned on. It started out for a dear friend, for his bday.. but then I just thought about how much I'd love to show off again.
I'm pretty self conscious about my looks right now.. my body... so I'm not really sure how much I'll post. I really want to try again though.
Long and rambly.. but hope it answered your question somewhat! lol
Lovely answer. You weren't rambling at all. I always enjoy hearing the women who post here articulate what they get out of it; I find it very interesting.
As for you feeling self-concious about your looks now, there's a big reason why your threads have so many people posting in them.