Does anyone else pretend to themselves they are female?

[JohnnyA]

My biggest thing is that I was born male , but identify myself as female. I wish I had been born a woman and will always be slightly sad that I'm not. I do like being a man and understand all it's pleasures, but I'll always have a spot in my head that knows I wanted to be on the feminine path.

One way that I've coped with it and it's why I was writing is:
Does anyone else ever use drugs and stimuli to make believe that the feelings they are experiencing are coming from a female body and vagina and breasts. Like if I shave my chest, bath it in body oil, and massage my nipples and pec muscles I can make my chest puffy and if I hold it together it feels like boobs and looks like em. And then if I concentrate on the nipples with other stimuli while I've got my pulled together boobs together I can almost mimic what it would be like for a female to have breasts and have them massages and stroked.

I think my big thing is that I at least want to know what the other half experiences during sex, even if i can get a small part of it. I had a guy give me a rimjob on my anus and it felt incredible and I imagine that might be what it feels like to get licked on the vagina, minus the clit.

Then today I went out and got a Prostate stimulator. It's a vibrator with the motor in the tip so itll touch the prostate. I just tried it out. It felt fantastic. I could feel bolts of pleasure shooting up my body based on the vibes setting. I couldn't make myself cum though, i got close, and my legs turned to goo, but I couldnt climax. I will with practice. When I do cum like this it makes my left left shake uncontrollably like a dog


When I lose myself I can sometimes put aside the idea that Im a man and just concentrate on the feeling and pretend that I'm a girl and it feels so great and feels like it makes my soul feel good.. It's like my soul needs moisturizer over once and a while to feel ok and at peace.

I'll usually smoke weed when I do this to help the tricking myself part and to make it easier to suspend disbelief. Mushrooms, lsd, and xstacy all work too, but I've only done on special occasions.

 

[blade_rocknut]

I don't need any drug to help me imagine, although anything that strips away the chains of society's ingrained gender "rules" would likely heighten the pleasure.

 

[Stella_Omega]

fuck it.

 

[OxonCornish]

Pretending

I know how you feel, i've had the same thoughts from time to time but then i discovered my bisexuality & i've been a lot happier since.
If i was a girl i'd still be bi though. I read a book called Altered Carbon where people can switch bodies & that dealt with the issue of being in a different gender body to a degree.
Well worth a read.

 

[44special]

I don't exactly "pretend" that I'm female, but ever since I was young I have fantasized about being female-what it is really like for a woman when she is penetrated. Not going to get a sex change or anything. That is the nice thing about fantasies, right?

 

[DarkBee]

Only in games, or sometimes when writing stories. Otherwise, no.

 

[blubyuf6]

I feel like a slut when i wear panties and deepthroat my dildo or ride it deep..

 

[JohnnyA]

I feel like a slut when i wear panties and deepthroat my dildo or ride it deep..

Tell me about it, I just got this great little vibe that is curved and has the motor in the tip so it vibes your prostrate. i feel like a little slut when i use it. its quiet too.

 

[reachedme]

I don't imagine that I'm a woman at any time, but I do forget that I'm a man lots of times. I'm comfortable knowing that I'm something in between, not better, not worse, but different.

a beautiful person

 

[FloridaCouple]

Once I was known as Miss Phyllis Levine. But that was at a party, years ago.
I smoked a titibet, and I had a Quaalude and suddenly I'm in fishnets singing show tunes. These things happen...

Ben Sobel from "Analyze This"

 

[haurni]

I'm a guy, I know I'm a guy, and I don't feel that I'm in the 'wrong' body. Still, if I had a choice, I'd opt for female. That way I could be penetrated by guys (still waiting for my first MM anal!) and be with a woman as a woman, which is something I would really like to experience. If there were a gender-switching device, I would be first in line to try it out.

 

[hotangelwolf]

pretending can be fun

yes i do as a matter of fact i look and feel great in a skirt

 

[woman_inside]

I don't exactly "pretend" that I'm female, but ever since I was young I have fantasized about being female-what it is really like for a woman when she is penetrated. Not going to get a sex change or anything. That is the nice thing about fantasies, right?

I'm the same, my biggest sexual fantasy is sex as a female.

 

[moZRMe]

I know the feeling. I often go to sleep fantasizing about being in a female body. Having smooth physic of a woman.

I quite enjoy being male, that's for certain, but a small part of me ponders being a female and what life, and sex, would be like from the other perspective. Do any women here on lit have the same thoughts...in reverse?

 

[Cold_Eyes]

I don't exactly "pretend" that I'm female, but ever since I was young I have fantasized about being female-what it is really like for a woman when she is penetrated. Not going to get a sex change or anything. That is the nice thing about fantasies, right?

Same. For me, a lot of it comes from being submissive. Before I knew about femdom, I imagined myself as a female in many of my fantasies because I didn't know it was possible to be a submissive male. I used to sneak peeks at the romance section in bookstores because I identified with the bodice ripper fantasy so much.

I feel as if I have a sex, but not a gender. In everyday life, I like the fact that I'm male just because it's lower upkeep than being female. However, when it comes to my sex life, I often imagine myself as incredibly feminine, but still physically attracted to females. Ideally, I guess I'd be a "male lesbian," as Eddie Izzard calls it. I tried the crossdressing thing for about five minutes, but I couldn't do it. I need the body to fit the clothes and I'm not even remotely feminine looking. For some reason, I have this desire to be in a lesbian relationship. Part of it is that I can't see the male body as sexy or attractive at all and I want to feel sexy and attractive to my significant other.

The thing I love about femdom is that it destroys the masculine. I think that that is as close as I can get to a feminine alter ego.