Do you feel embarrased?

[impressive]

... it's like I'm standing butt-naked, soul-naked, at the entrance to The Magic Kingdom saying, "Hurt me, please."

That's the way I feel with poetry. Prose doesn't hit me that way (usually).

 

[elsol]

Yeah, I do get embarrassed.

But only when I write something PARTICULARLY nasty

Him and her made love... whatever!

She asked for the handcuffs... still going strong!

She wanted a little spanking... YEAH!!!

She spanked me... well, uh... *cough*cough*... Dear readers, please remember that me is not really ME... but me in the story *cough*cough*

Sincerely,
ElSol

 

[elsol]

It's my fear. Egomaniacal or not, when I put something I've written out there, it's like I'm standing butt-naked, soul-naked, at the entrance to The Magic Kingdom saying, "Hurt me, please."
Yui

So I'm sitting in my comfy chair after a whole two hours of sleep and I read this.

*KAPOW*

And I get the image of a line of Snow White's dwarf waiting for their turn to put Yui over their lap...

Just not cool... well, yeah it is cool... but still.

Sincerely,
ElSol

 

[mlady_france]

So I'm sitting in my comfy chair after a whole two hours of sleep and I read this.

*KAPOW*

And I get the image of a line of Snow White's dwarf waiting for their turn to put Yui over their lap...

Just not cool... well, yeah it is cool... but still.

Sincerely,
ElSol

*giggles* That's a fun image to wake up to.

I really don't have much experence in the writing regaurd, but I still get embarassed when i walk into a sex shop. I'm still at the age where I get carded, and it turn me red all over every time. And then there was the 3 month period where I kept running into old highschool friends every time I went in. And the worst was the time my car broke down outside of the shop and I had to call my mom to come get me. After telling her where I was, there was the words of dissapointment which I could handle, then the worst of it came: she asked me what I bought!

 

[Softouch911]

Mythrana, you sound not so much embarrassed as self-conscious about exposing yourself. I have two things I can suggest that have worked for others.

Try choosing a location or character or narrator that is very much unlike yourself. Write of Southeast Asia as dr._M just did so successfully. Or write about a character who is living in some other place or other period of time -- a story like that is under discussion right now in the SDC if you're interested. Or write from the POV of a narrator who is not your -- I have a story that was very personal to write, so I told it from the POV of a woman.

These are just tricks, but they work.

If all else fails, don't write it. Get a tape recorder or an I-Pod with a voice mic and just talk it into the machine. That works for some people.

Hope I helped.


Softouch

 

[Svenskaflicka]

I do cover up my notepad or click away the window if one of my coworkers walk by, but it's more due to the fact that I don't want to get caught slacking at work than it is because I'm embarrassed.

(The only thing that embarrassed me was that my boss read one of my Group Sex stories...)

 

[BardsLady]

The only time I'd ever get embarassed about writing my erotic fiction is if the Actor I'm writing about leaves me a private message... hehehe Which hasn't happened yet. *ahhh the wishing, the hoping*

Other than that... *shrugs* Sometimes I get dragged into my own imagery and I start squirming in my chair as I write.

 

[Kate.E]

I only read a few replies cuz I'm far too lazy. If it helps any, I get embarrassed too. I'm on a writing course at the moment, developing a novel and it covers rape as well as consensual sex, hetro and gay sex. I find it very challenging for a number of reasons - as a lesbian, I'm writing about what might go through a man's mind as he's having sex with a woman - which isn't easy but extremely embarrassing in case I've got certain details incorrect (hell, I don't know what kind of wierd shit men and women get up to).
It's more difficult in tutorials and now we have to submit work to the class for criticism - which is a good enough excuse as any for a heart attack. My girlfriend reads most of what I write and she's my biggest critic, so at least I know my work has passed the test first.

You only need to really panic when your mum wants to read it

 

[yui]

That's the way I feel with poetry. Prose doesn't hit me that way (usually).

Very interesting, Imp. Do you think it's because you are less secure (or more emotionally exposed) in you poetry than you are in your prose?

So I'm sitting in my comfy chair after a whole two hours of sleep and I read this.

*KAPOW*

And I get the image of a line of Snow White's dwarf waiting for their turn to put Yui over their lap...

Just not cool... well, yeah it is cool... but still.

Sincerely,
ElSol

This is a disturbing image, ElSol, simply because I can see it in my head. I shouldn’t be able to see it. I'm a sick, sick girl…

 

[CharleyH]

I only read a few replies cuz I'm far too lazy. If it helps any, I get embarrassed too. I'm on a writing course at the moment, developing a novel and it covers rape as well as consensual sex, hetro and gay sex. I find it very challenging for a number of reasons - as a lesbian, I'm writing about what might go through a man's mind as he's having sex with a woman - which isn't easy but extremely embarrassing in case I've got certain details incorrect (hell, I don't know what kind of wierd shit men and women get up to).
It's more difficult in tutorials and now we have to submit work to the class for criticism - which is a good enough excuse as any for a heart attack. My girlfriend reads most of what I write and she's my biggest critic, so at least I know my work has passed the test first.

You only need to really panic when your mum wants to read it

My Gran read mine :| Seriously, sort of, ok, I took out the REAL sex. I have been comissioned to write a series of stories from a man's POV, which suddenly, and as I was mentioning to Lou, is the reason I came here, but what is so embarrassing? A bit dirtier perhaps?

 

[impressive]

Very interesting, Imp. Do you think it's because you are less secure (or more emotionally exposed) in you poetry than you are in your prose?

Much more emotionally exposed -- probably because it's so condensed.

 

[cantdog]

Poetry means every word. There is no stronger written exposure.

 

[hmmnmm]

The embarrassment comes to me after the writing, usually. Many Deleted stories here already. Before the story, I have been hesitant and perhaps too cautious, too afraid, or even too excited to jump in and see what comes out. I wanted to try a girl/girl scene and was a bit worried about that, but at least one person with experience in that department said it was believable (whether it was well-written is another matter).
For the moment almost no one in RL knows I am doing this, but if and when I ever gain confidence in what I do I will not care who knows. Hopefully that day is not far away.
My advice: don't do like I did - don't worry so much about it.
Enjoy what you see and feel and do the best you can when you put those visions and feelings into words. Then try again. And enjoy all anew.